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Wow, I hadn't thought of that. I'm studying to be a therapist, of all things. But it's my heart. I love social work and what I do. When I was a teen, I was given Paxil and Prozac and wanted to off myself. Had images of driving under semis. Felt impulsive. My Genesight results revealed only a...

I was on 100mg and completely lost myself. Panic attacks. Felt like a foreigner in my own body. I started cutting them in half a couple of months ago and have seen a considerable difference. While the depression seems worse, I'm afraid decreasing the dose will make anxiety spike

How do you reorient yourself once you wake? That can be hard and I find myself feeling anxious when it happens TBH. It's like, what did I miss? Or I feel like a zombie. It might be important to mention that I'm a social worker and have to put my own thoughts aside when I return to work. That...

It's been several years ago, but I had a similar routine. It was prior to marriage, which has it's own challenges. I'm making it through work and completing assignments for school. I do both full-time, so I can't afford to take breaks. But, when I have severe depression episodes, like this past...

No amount of sleep is enough. I'm falling behind on school work. How do you deal?

Thank you. You are right. I should have mentioned that I do see a T. A female who I really like, and have been seeing her to do biofeedback and EMDR. From what my husband said, the T wants "my side of the story." It sounds like we're going to war here, but it really isn't like that at all. I...

Alright guys. The last couple weeks have been hell. Caught my spouse "talking" to other people again. I won't air all the business, but it's happened more than a few times now and has escalated at times. That's just some background. I love him and am not going anywhere. This time I told him he...

Has anyone had Genesight testing done, and was it helpful? I'm interested in having it done, because of some of the effects my current meds have had that are less than satisfactory.

Zoloft increased my anxiety initially and I began having panic attacks. A few months in now and I'm finding that I feel less general anxiety, however, my depression seems to be worse and I occasionally have full-blown panic attacks. I'm still deciding whether the pros outweigh the cons.

Welcome! So glad that you have come to this site. Many people have been very helpful to me on my own journey here. Feel free to message me if you'd like.

I've suffered panic attacks off and on over the years and one aspect that seems to get me the most is the feeling of fainting. My face gets cold, I can feel myself fading. My hands tingle like my circulation has been constricted. And I'm just sure I'm dying. I have never completely lost...

I do lose track of time. For years I thought I was having mild seizures of some sort. Had a kooky lady tell me I was in the spirit realm.

@Gia1019 I do. I see T Wednesday and I'll be sure to mention it to her. It was almost eery

Yesterday I woke up terribly depressed, because I'd had a flashback the night before. After coping with SI, I barely got dressed and drug myself to work. I was sitting through a training, feeling like I could melt into the floor or break down at any moment. I wanted to be alone and climb into a...

This past week my T began working with me using Somatic Experiencing. I find the whole method intriguing and empowering. While working through a scene, probably the least traumatic that we could have discussed, my muscles kept jerking involuntarily. I've had that before when recalling the...

It's been nine years since the sexual abuse. There was a lot that went into it. Psychological, Stockholm Syndrome junk, and lasting physical effects. (At this point, I'm beginning EMDR in therapy.) For years I thought I'd dealt with what happened, but in reality, I held a lot of self blame and...

I'm not sure what a "normal" child-parent relationship with a secure attachment is like. I asked one of my friends the other day what her relationship was like with her mother. It was oddly comforting to read and try to imagine it. :unsure:

@OrganicRobot I hear what you are saying. Settling into the understanding that I can never get what wasn't provided, because it should have happened in early childhood. It would never be the same from anyone else either. I've had a couple of women in my life that have assumed motherly roles, but...

It's such a fight. I am concerned that if I let myself feel it, I will act on self harm and I don't know how much will feel like "enough," or if I will go overboard with it. I'm not suicidal by any means. I feel like I'll go into a rage on myself. I hate this.

I'm hurting so badly right now. After years of emotional abuse at the hands of my narcissistic mother, I'm finally understanding just how much the way I live now and feel about myself is rooted in how are treated me. When I get upset about what she has done though, I get the impulsive urge to...

@Lagatha L I understand what you mean. I do have a tendency to take on others' emotions at time without realizing it.

Thank you so much for your feedback! It gives me hope. I'm anxious.

Finally emerging from a 5 month depressive slump and made a decision to push forward in my education/career goals. I'm pursuing my masters in social work, to be a therapist. I still struggle sometimes with reconciling that my own mental health could be my stumbling block. Honestly, I hope that I...

@DMerish I've continued on Zoloft and pushed through the thick of what I was experiencing. In that time I've become much more balanced and am feeling better. I was just thinking last night about how much better it's been. I still have depressive slumps, anger, and anxiety, but for the most part...

Oh my goodness! That is terrible! Thank you for sharing your experience. The system just isn't set up to offer real support at all. :(