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@lostforgottensoul I really appreciate that. Sometimes when I read a post on here I get this sense of familiarity. I definitely related to what you said here. I am glad to say that I don't struggle with rape porn, wanting abusive sex, or pain anymore. And even this particular urge is not...

Are you going to go to a different church?

What other options have you discussed with your doctor? I have mostly heard of exposure therapy being used for anxiety from trauma, not for processing the traumatic events themselves. In my experience exposure therapy is a last resort for PTSD until other methods have proven to not be effective.

This is a very encouraging post.

I needed to be reminded of this. I got to get back on an exercise and eating plan.

I never thought about doing it with the music parallel. That might be useful the next time I do one. Music has a big effect on me. There are some song that I will cry every time I listen to them. One is "That's my Job" by Conway Twitty. It is a reminder of what I deserved, that even though I...

Thanks for the feedback @Ronin. I guess I would just add it is just good to meet someone who has had similar experiences as me, and is honest about how harmful they were and not wanting to idealize/ minimize or otherwise not deal with it and grow. Also, that I am glad that when I say...

@lostforgottensoul How have you been doing with the urges lately? Do you still get triggered by seeing certain things? I saw a woman with a male dog that was not neutered who was "nosing" her and it was very triggering.

Today is Mardi Gras. I usually hate going to parades, but today I do wish I had gone to my friend's party. I was on my way when I was called out to work. booo!

Calling something what it is, is not the same as focusing on it. Being honest in accepting the things I struggle with helps me to both be gentle with those struggles, and to be accountable.

Do you make a schedule for yourself and set your own deadlines? That was my first thought.

Early on PTSD triggers are super overwhelming. But as I continued to reach out for both help and support and process the emotions and memories the less intense those triggers were. Does PTSD still effect me? Yes. Is it as bad as it used to be? No. It is definitely more manageable. When it gets...

This was very interesting. It helped me understand some of the ways that reprocessing old memories has helped me.

I'm sorry to hear this happened to you. I hope you can find someone there to talk to about it. Does your university have a mental health center for students? I am not going to act like I know what you "should" do. Only you can figure out what is best for you. But I am glad you are talking about...

That is difficult to do, but remember you are worth the effort it takes you.

I am sorry you are deeling with that anxiety. I hate it when fear creeps in on my and gets intense.

It is a lot of fun and allows for a lot of creativity, imagination and expression. I think it helped me to detach from some of my more triggered emotions too, cause I had to look at things through my characters eyes not my own. Idk if it really did, but it definitely seemed to.

Have you ever played D&D?

I wish i could "love" this post not just like it. This is so true. I hope you both can continue to recognize the distortions and work to change them.

I am sorry you are having to deal with this. It sounds incredibly frustrating.

That is hard to deal with. Do you take any medication for anxiety?

I am, but I know that as it gets closer I will not want to do it. That is just how my mind works. Even though I know I will enjoy brunch with them. All of the guys are going to wear a seersucker suite and a bow tie. I am going to go with either a lavender or salmon shirt.

Navy blue is cute. I like pastels mostly. I rarely dress up, but sometimes it is nice to just feel good in a nice suite. My sister and nephew are visiting for Easter. That is the next time I will be in a suit.

It is hard to reach out when depression is like that. It is great you are here talking about it. I hope you make it to the wedding. I am a bit of a hopeless romantic, so that romance cheers me up usually. Unless I get that "i'll never be loved" tape playing in my head. But thankfully that is...

I write some, mostly in collaboration with other people for RPG games. Usually some interaction or backstory that we put together to share with the other players in the game. I really enjoy being creative.