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The brain is a messy filing cabinet of experiences, when dealing with PTSD that filing cabinet has compartments full of secret surprises and recalls things you didn't even know were stored and at the revisits at the weirdest time. It could be a scent in the air during that conversation, specific...

Yeah that's tough! Little guy is caught in a threeway tug of adult relationships. He's reacting to it all. He has drama from moms relationship, Im sure he sees the struggle you and his dad go through but then he's caught in the volley between which situation makes him happier. I go through this...

I understand and relate very well the premonition feeling. It's a common characteristic caused from analyzing events after sudden or tragic death. I work in an Emergency Department, once the dust settles after the medical teams attempt to save a persons life, I am usually on hand with family...

Accidental and unexpected death leave an unfortunate unresolved feeling. You start going through the checklist even years later, when was the last phone call, I should have done that thing I said I would do, why didn't I go to that family function and it goes on and on. It's been 17 years since...

Co-dependency doesn't always require an addiction to substance. It's also related to mental health issues. Most of us PTSD sufferers go through periods of minimizing our trauma compared to 'others', I've only been working in this industry for a few years as opposed to some of my colleagues whom...

I have been contemplating your posts and reflecting based on my own past and the scenario of your partners relationship rings eerily close to my ex wife. The spousal abuse plays a critical role here in both his emotions and his career in the military. I'm speaking hypothetically because i am...

Now that I know your PTSD element it makes perfect sense in how it clashes with his putting you in a negative light as he has. Unfortunately I now seem to grasp his terrible use of co-dependency claims now. This is reflected in his guilt for your past. I'll elaborate once I understand the...

I have an overall general discomfort and stiffness. It's because my body is locked up in stress as I am anticipating the worst possible outcome at work. Thats why I live for my hot baths as often as i can. Even better if I can get to a sauna.

My dreams don't always feel like nightmares, however, they are an exaggerated analysis of trauma events I've seen in the ER. Because of the exaggeration it feels overwhelming. By exaggeration, the colour is more sinister, the events happen in weird places rather than the ER where it did happen...

The passive aggressive still creates conflict, he has set the stage for you to react in some way in order for him to turn back at you for being unreasonable. No matter which way you choose to react, you're still going to fail. You act in anger, he sees you as irrational, you react in silence, he...

@NaeNae75 Veterans and First Responders are used to operating and thinking under pressure all the time. When conflict is present it gives them unending challenge and stress but it's what we're used to and thrive on. When we get home it's not the same adrenaline or operation under fire so to...

@grimalkin I am sorry that emotional power struggle with your sufferer has affected you so greatly. My stressors are very different from your sufferer, however, the PTSD element is common point we share. I find when I hit low moments, it's hard for me to enjoy life around me. In my case, I...

Yeah the Ativan reminder has saved me on several occasions in the ER. On the security team we can have multiple events run simultaneously and I'm good emotionally for the most part. In between running to events I pull that check list out just to keep grounded. When I say extreme events, it's...

You're welcome! I've been fortunate enough that I am able to discuss and relate my behaviours to my trauma. It probably helps that I work at the hospital / treatment level. Because of the mental health crisis situations i see I am able to articulate my own emotion and responses into thought. I...

Relationship, intimacy and PTSD are a sexy combination to say the least! It's a hard balance in relationships. Deflecting is not about ego fragility or partners being so easily shattered, it's just a human and thoughtful thing to do for people you do care about. I can sympathize with past...

@joeylittle Thank you, I am able to handle the stress load of work, I know that I am getting triggered, it's majority times at work that I'm triggered, I feel that acknowledging my triggers won't send me hiding under beds just yet. I just want to manage them better if I can find critical ones...

I don't know if I can help in this at all. At home I am the sufferer, at work I am both sufferer and supporter. At home I am often very irritated with my partner, she has been wonderful in so many ways, I do try to remind her that I'm appreciative. She sees my daily struggles when I can make...

I came off shift today finally realizing that I actually do have a trigger. It was only because it happened more than once today and the same reaction from me every time. I had four mental health crisis patients today, gripping, squeaking and ripping empty styrofoam cups. It has been an...

I work in an environment that is both the cause of PTSD and continual stressor. I keep a check list in my pocket for when I start faltering. I deal with frequent Emergency scenarios and occasionally if the stress is overwhelming or out the normal routine it causes a lot of frustration, self...

@dulcia my apologies I was responding to another poster whom has this idea that I'm just a male sympathizer without understanding that professionally I question everything in order to get a clear picture. I forgot to add their handle in my response. I empathize with your sense of mistrust...

@lostforgottensoul It really depends on how you read this post and the OP's original question of intimacy. I'm not some mean terrible ogre monster of a male who doesn't get the damage of sexual assault and the meaning of the word no. There was a sense of want and desire but severe discomfort...

Judging by the response At no point did I expect anyone to revolve around my triggers. I was merely explaining the passion behind my concerns and the trigger behind it. I am starting to see why I haven't seen many First Responder or Law Enforcement here in this forum though. It's hard to...

I'm sorry this took a turn for the worse and the betrayal it's now going to cause you. I'm glad things didn't progress any further than they could have last night. Try to be as strong as you can! Protect yourself as much as possible!!

I'm here as I do suffer from PTSD and Operational Stress. But technically my biggest stressors don't meet the forums guidelines, the reason I am so passionate about not shutting people down is because of the suicides I have dealt with. The two events that damaged me most were patients I had...

That's my point. PTSD is a subset of issues and deserves better inclusivity here in the forum. Moderators haven't signed on for suicide prevention, but are shutting people down without alternative sources and referrals to suitable web sites. It doesn't have to be personalized, canned responses...