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I guess I've found that "How do I defend myself?" is seen as more evidence that I'm in need of the very sort of intrusive care that I want to avoid. Because most people see that a mental health professional felt the need to interfere and threaten me with being locked up, and think that there...

That's sort of my issue. I know exactly why it's a trigger. But I don't know how to process it. I don't know how to get past...I'm being told all the time that the sort of things that happened to me aren't supposed to happen. And that I shouldn't worry because they aren't supposed to happen...

Is there anyone else here who has dealt with treatment itself being the trigger? Not triggers coming up in treatment, but the very act of treatment itself, even without trying to address anything, being triggering. I dealt with abuse within the psychiatric system. To this day, dealing with...

The guy was good. He wasn't coming in without notice - but when he was in he'd bother my cat in a way that made me afraid to not be there. I didn't want my girl alone, partly because of his temper and partly because the way the guy acted he was going to get bit/scratched for cornering her...

Unfortunately in that particular case, part of the problem was that he had ridiculous cleaning standards to begin with. So if he came by and there was a spot of cat fur on the carpet, the carpet was "stained" (even after I picked up said stain) and he'd give me 24h to vacuum all the cat fur up...

Even little things sometimes. It would mean a lot to me to be able to ride the bus to work in peace. And a good portion of the time that doesn't happen, because some guy has decided he absolutely has to have your attention and will keep trying until he gets it. Major boundary violation, yet I...

Can we please not talk about the situations themselves too much? I don't want to have to list everything I tried or looked into in every bad situation or have to justify that there weren't good options. It comes across as really victim-blaming rather than helpful.

This has been one of my ongoing issues, and one that it seems like no therapist ever has any idea of how to deal with. How do you cope in situations where healthy boundaries simply aren't an option on the table? I know long-term you try to get out of the situation, but in the short term how do...

I don't know. I honestly at this point...I really do believe another bad treatment could kill me. I've had multiple meds make me acutely suicidal and multiple cases of practitioners not believing my reaction. I'm terrified. I feel like I'm choosing between accepting a low quality of life...

At this point...I don't care if there are good ones out there. It only takes one bad one to seriously mess you up. I'm still dealing with the consequences of a doctor who called my family behind my back, 5 years later. That's just way more risk than I want to take. That's the crux of the...

For me it's not really my ability to speak up, as much as that I don't feel like I have the ability to say no and have it respected. I need to know that I can go in and make decisions about my medications, including ones that the doctors don't necessarily agree with, and not be labelled crazy...

I don't know. I honestly don't know if I can keep my appointments when it seems like things are actively getting worse - to the point where treatment seems to send me from "bad but stable" to "suicidal" quite frequently. I just get fussed at by therapists. I always get told I'm not...

I know I'm not getting enough support here. I've got issues far beyond what the limited friends network I have can handle. The trouble is that I feel like, by and large, I don't get support within the mental health community either. I'm just at the point where I'm about ready to give up...

I don't know what to do anymore. A significant part of the initial trauma for me involved the mental health system and abuses perpetuated within it. Since then trying medications has introduced new traumas and new bad symptoms to go with them. I've need help but I'm terrified at this point...

A lot of it is what I said - that I seem to come out of therapy doing worse than when I entered, and that the new symptoms seem to stick around.

A lot of it is just that they aren't covered. I can't even really afford the copays on my insurance as it is. And it's just...it seems like every time I go to therapy I come out hurt worse than when I went in. I'm not sure how much more of trying therapists I can take when I seem to end up...

The other thing I've found is that even trauma therapists don't really understand how to handle religious-associated problems, especially not in someone who is religious. There's no one who can really get into the depths of recovering from an almost cultic background, without trying to push on...

I have, yes, as much as I could find and afford. It's just...what they can't do is fix the reality around me. And none of them seem to know how to handle trauma instigated by a therapist. Like, right now, I got stuck living in a place I don't feel safe. The landlord went from nice to really...

All I can say is yes.

I'm just hitting the point where I feel like I've tried everything. I don't do well on SSRI's - massive suicidal ideation, and I don't feel safe trying them. I have no one to check on me, if things go wrong I'm pretty much left on my own, and I'm far too terrified of mental hospitals to ever...

Thanks. It's getting better, slowly. It's really hard for me to remember that I can walk away if a provider is too bad. That wasn't an option before. I've had my parents called on me (we don't get along at all) for bogus reasons: I "dressed funny" -> I was delusional -> they had to be...

It's not just that they have side effects. It's that...I've felt like treatment has always for me been primarily about imposing some external idea of "normal" or "acceptable" on me, rather than actually trying to make my life better. The first time, when I was young? The only reason was that...

Seeing one now. I've seen, what, 6 by now prior to her, and interacted with 4 more? 2 dumb ones that were too busy treating imaginary problems to screen for abuse, 1 outright abuser, 2 more that justified it happily, 2 that just couldn't be bothered to care. The good ones just spout...

That's just it...I don't really feel like I have a choice. And I don't think I can ever tell anyone in that industry how I feel, because of how badly they all treat you if you do. I'm not functioning, but I still don't think that's a problem with me - just that society's so broken that there's...

So I'm supposed to see a psychiatrist Monday to get meds. And I feel like I have to, because I can't work and can't get disability right now. It's the only thing that might keep me paying the bills. Thing is, I don't want them. I almost killed myself twice because of meds taking over my...