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OMG!!! This is horrible!! Is there no one who can help? It sounds like the police should be involved but maybe that’s only in an ideal world. I’m horrified for you!!! That’s so awful. It’s hard healing from the past when the situation is ongoing in the present. Your safety is of the utmost...

Oh no.. I’m so sorry she went through that and also that it affects you both. Geez, only 13... I can understand her thinking it wasn’t planned. It was easier to try and cope with what happened when I thought it was a misunderstanding that went horribly wrong instead of knowing you were looking...

You're right about the anger being a positive step but I am too nauseated and revolted and horrified to be there just yet. Do they get off on planning it? I'm with you. I'm not in the head space and fortunately don't think that way and I'm okay with that too but I just for the life of me can't...

Ugh that is sickening to ponder. Did any of your mutual friends know you stayed the night? If so maybe he was waiting for a more isolated setting? It’s chilling that he said it isn’t safe to walk home. He was truthful about that. It’s so frustrating not having answers to these important questions.

Yep-I’m with you with the wanting to puke. I’m sorry about what you’ve gone through and hope some day you can find peace about it all. I’m so glad I talk to my T on Monday. These revelations have only been realized in the last week or so and I’m really on edge. It’s almost like starting all over...

Oh, and not only is all this going on, a recent flashback brought back that first moment of the first penetration when he said he wasn’t going to wear a rubber so I’d get the “real thing”. I knew I protested but this flashback clarified exactly what I said and I definitely said no loudly and...

Man, I’m so sorry. I know how sickened and horrified I’ve been feeling about it. It’s been a shock to the system, going from wondering if it was possibly a horrible miscommunication (even though it never felt like it) to now knowing that each thing he did was a deliberate decision made to get...

Oh wow, TexCat, I just read your other posted from when your T pointed out it was planned and how that was a new ugly thing to have to process. I’m so sorry. How are you doing with that?

Thank you so much for all of your support. I’m surprised how much it’s affecting me. It shouldn’t matter all that much but boy does it. And then I feel all these mixed things like horror mixed with a little relief that there was likely nothing I could have done to avoid this without knowing what...

So I’ve been in a discovery mode ever since I was triggered by the date it happened. I have recently connected the dots and realized that five times he knowingly manipulated the situation, each time choosing to proceed with his plan. All this time I always wondered if it was a misunderstanding...

I'm really sorry you've been going through that. I totally understand and I wish I had some advice that would help. I just went through the same thing and it was horrible. Not only that but I ended up frozen up and shaking on the couch for three hours, as I was having flashbacks and reliving...

Ugh... thank you for your responses! I really appreciate it and will arm myself with this info. I had done a bit of research before I went but never heard of what she was talking about so that was an immediate flag. I went there expecting PE or something along those lines and was ready to do the...

Thanks Anthony! That's what I was afraid of. Also I am now adding the word shonky to my vocabulary. Love it!

I saw a new therapist yesterday and she wants to try RRT. In all my research on therapy I had never heard of this. I'm skeptical but the PTSD is supposed to resolve itself in one session. That sounds too easy. She said there isn't any reliving anything and it's easy and fun. Have you heard of...

Yeah, you definitely needed to watch it since they were. Do they know about what happened to you?

UUUUUGGGGGHHHHHH. As far as the show, he didn't watch it until after I did (of course after I said I wish I hadn't watched it and I wouldn't recommend it for anyone who went through really bad times in high school.) He's an adult now though so it's not like I could forbid it. Did your kids...

That scene was just awful. Absolutely gut-wrenching. I know what you mean about it being good in a way, although I would have been perfectly happy with it staying locked away like it was before. I feel the most sorry for my husband and son. I haven't had a PTSD episode since they've been in my...

WOW! Really? Could help with that too? Man, I hope it works!! I'm rooting for you! And I hope you're getting support at home too. :)

Oh yeah that scene was definitely hard to watch. They portrayed it realistically, and from the victim's POV, which I could appreciate. I think that's what made the triggering so intense though, because it was so realistic. I was triggered by the hot tub scene but more because when she went limp...

Aww thanks Lionheart! I'm so glad you are at peace. :) What therapy do you think did you the most good? Great job trying to get off that nicotine, too, by the way! Yayy!

Oh no, that sounds horrible, TexCat. I"m so sorry!! How are you doing now? That sounds like my reaction as well. It was like a tidal wave. Thank you so much, Lionheart777! I can't even begin to imagine the cruelty you have had to bear. I'm so sorry!! How are you doing these days?

Hi Simply Simon! Thanks so much! It's that show's fault I'm here so I thought it appropriate. :) Yes, I had a few visits with a therapist when this started up and she said it was definitely PTSD but there's not an official diagnosis with my doctor or anything. After having all these thoughts and...

Hi! I'm new here. After 20 years of dormancy, flashbacks and hypervigilance came back unexpectedly with a vengeance while I was watching 13 Reasons Why. That was about 6 weeks ago and I'm still a mess. He and I had a past friendship over the previous summer. I was 15. He'd make bets that I...