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Grilled some meat! and now listening to some awesome music! :headphone:

@Anrish you are absolutely welcome!!! :joyful:

@Anrish - :hug:

I feel peaceful today.

@anthony & @joeylittle, Ok, so one time we’re sitting on the couch and having a conversation. He told me that he’s come to realize why would others react with anger, frustration or disappointment to his behavior. He told me that for a long time he thought that everyone is just messed up, but...

To me, when I do or say things, I clearly think of consequences and of course, how they would impact people around me. Especially those that I care deeply about. I don' think he thinks in such terms. When you are so not aware about yourself, then people around you are going to be hurt big time...

@anthony - the tricky part is... I don't know what is PTSD and what is not. I am not a kind of person to just assume things and make decisions that are unwise. I want to understand but things just don't add up. Is this person purposefully ignoring me and choosing not to have any exchange with me...

@anthony - that resonates as well. I remember before dating my guy, he knew that I was in love with him... he had to literally convince me that he was in love with me. I was very hesitant entering a relationship with him because there were things about him that made me pause and think (I was not...

@anthony - wow! Your description does resonate. I do swim in immense sadness these days not knowing what to think. Looking back at the experience that you mentioned above, how did you come to terms with the reality of your PTSD? Did you want to be with her and now you know that PTSD perhaps...

@anthony - yes, thanks for your reply. But the thing is... this man wasn't like this towards me before, and his PTSD isn't new either. I don't know WHAT to think anymore. I couldn't be more supportive and loving to him, which makes his treatment of me even more bizarre. He has always told me how...

I really don't know what happened. I thought we had the relationship where we could talk about anything. I even told him once that if he ever felt like I wasn't what we wanted, he would tell me, and he just said, "no, that's not it, I'm just going through some stuff". I don't know what is valid...

@anthony, I understand what you mean when you say that you’d continue talking to acquaintances but would shut down people were close to you and cared about you. I don’t think a sufferer understands that sometimes the impact of isolation and just ignoring your partner and cutting them out of...

@Gadgie - my partner did have PTSD and was only shutting me down while he would communicate with others. He never put any effort in trying to maintain communication with me. I communicated that I was there for him, loved him, etc. All he ever did was to treat me like his worst enemy and ended up...

@Gadgie - thank you. It's definitely easier said than done. All of it is so new... I can still feel the newness of the pain. After he had ignored me for a while I asked him if something had changed in his heart and then he simply replied to not take the distance personally because he was going...

Taking my time to emotionally recover and heal. It's hard but I'm giving myself some quiet time away from everything. I don't want to grieve but it's necessary for my healing.

@Gadgie - mine is a bit different. It started out great, I thought he was the one for me, the sweetest guy in the world. He ended up shutting me down for no reason, and I still don't understand why he treated me that way. He spent a great amount of time convincing me (I was hesitant at first...

@Gadgie - thank you! I can't really control how another treats me. You know, sometimes it's overwhelmingly obvious when someone just doesn't care about you. Very sad, but true. Soul-crushing.

I feel like waking up to a horribly surreal dream and my entire heart feels like breaking down and just melting away in itself. I feel defeated and tired. I feel empty. I feel betrayed by another whom I gave every bit of myself with no reservation whatsoever. I feel like drowning in my own despair.

@anthony - I guess I don't quite understand what do you refer to when you say 'guilt'. Guilt surrounding what? The problem is... the man I'm talking about doesn't understand how absolutely hurtful his actions are. When confronted, he just doesn't understand why I would feel hurt. When someone...

@FridayJones - like I said... why should I be waiting hopelessly for someone for another 4-5 months for dropping me for absolutely no reason while he communicates and contacts everyone else in his life but me? This person is purposefully ignoring me while there are others in his life that he...

@seedling , no I don't think it's a matter of whether or not I want a relationship with him, it's a matter of... should I be waiting hopelessly for someone for another 4-5 months for dropping me for absolutely no reason while he communicates and contacts everyone else in his life. I'm sure...

@Abstract , thank you! I am trying to be careful how I phrase my wording and what I communicate. Keep in mind that this is a person I care about, however, certain reactions to things and behavioral facts that I have seen have been quite unnerving and I should be wise being careful because when...

@Abstract - thank you for such a detailed response. I think is man is not inherently empathetic, he's are not able to feel others' emotions or relate to them. I think there is some sociopath-like quality to it. Just because I have seen him say or do something doesn't make them empathetic. The...

@Cashew - I said "apathy", because I have communicated my feelings to him in the past and he didn't seem to emotionally relate as to why I would feel crushed after he ignored my texts and calls for weeks. To him, he just retreats and that's just normal and he doesn't have to reach out. The...

@FridayJones - wow, I'm rather encouraged to know that you feel so accountable towards your loved ones. I've had very different experiences with my sufferer. Especially when it comes to communication and demonstration of care. Maybe on some level, he feels like distancing himself from me sort of...