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Hi guys. Normally I'd never post when it comes to being really vulnerable and honest, but seeing as to how I've never felt this before, I feel quite lost. Intensely. After I left the therapist, things started spiraling downwards. Not that it wasn't spiraling downwards before, but I guess I...

This got me. But I'm delusional and confused; I admit that. On some days, I want to admit myself as an inpatient. Because I know that this new therapist I see next week is amazing; but it'll go in a spiral, wouldn't it? Once I get comfortable with her, my head will come up with excuses "Oops...

Most of you have been up-to-date with my plan to officially go to that new therapist next week, that specialist and a lot of you are also aware of the therapist I have now, who's friendly, kind and one that I've trusted like no other T in my life before. However, today with my last session with...

I hear you. I mean, I can't fully understand where you're coming from, however, I do know that sometimes, we may feel as though we aren't strong -- but all it takes is guidance and lots of time tor re-connect with the person we once were. By either allowing something or someone to help us feel...

You're welcome. I believe we all control our destiny -- and all of us are strong enough to eventually overcome it. You know why? You're going through so much, yet you're courageous enough to post. Ask for input. Be heard. Somewhere deep, deep, down, you believe in yourself and want to get...

@Silent one, you're not an idiot! Please don't say that; don't even think like that (I know, easier said than done, right?) If it's something you learned to do as a child, then it's only natural that you'd run from things that you're not used to. Perhaps it's being cared for; being loved. It's...

Thanks for the response! That actually sounds similar. But I actually do the things I intend to do within the moment, being unable to stop myself. It's never "kill myself." Then I'd be in actual danger with my life, but the rest? I do all of what I intend to do. No distraction. No other thoughts...

I think it's more or less that she says that BPD and DID have very similar symptoms and these alters are just "defense mechanisms" -- even forgetting my own family, as a way to block out those who have disappointed me. That's okay. Sure, it could be, I'm not a specialist or therapist so I can't...

Yes, but the T that I was with said it wasn't real so I guess I kind of forgot what DID was or that it was part of my diagnosis because she said it could be a defense to create personalities to cope but DID wasn't real and there was no evidence to say it's even a real thing. So with her I am not...

Hi guys, I've been noticing something quite scary and I'm not sure if this is "normal" for people with PTSD and BPD (Borderline). There are these moments where I have intense thoughts (millions of thoughts running through my head). A lot of those thoughts are violent thoughts towards myself...

Hi guys, as many of you have given me wonderful advice, I'd like to thank everyone! I am seeing the new therapist I mentioned before that was a specialist. She will be treating my PTSD and Anxiety + Borderline through talk therapy as well as exposure therapy. She has her own nice little practice...

As most of you know, as child I was abused both physically and the other type. However, this goes into a topic that I don't know if I should talk about with my therapist. [EDIT] (after I wrote it in detail, I ended up wanting to not be so descriptive and minimize the detail for my own feeling...

That makes a lot of sense. Thanks. Yeah, I'm thinking it's a dissociative thing more than anything else. I'm not a smoker, thankfully. So I made an appointment with a neurologist. Yeah, exactly. That would be painful in the middle of a workout. The concerning part after it was mentioned was...

Wow. Thanks for the responses everyone. I'm on my computer so I didn't scroll up to see, but someone here mentioned something about blood-flow. The weird thing: Sometimes, I notice myself looking at my own hand (I bring it up slowly, but then it becomes numb and I can barely lift it). It's kind...

I've had two therapists. One who thinks I have DID and the one who says DID isn't real and there isn't sufficient evidence to prove it's a real disorder. Both of the advice really caused me to get so confused I don't really know what to believe anymore. I do believe in it I just get confused...

I was diagnosed with PTSD among Asperger's and BoPD (Borderline Personality Disorder). During the diagnosis process, she asked me if I ever felt tingles in my body and if they felt painful or bothersome. I said yes and then a few minutes later after reading things she wrote down she was...

No feelings to it at all. (Other than annoyance when I realize how annoyingly it's been affecting me). I also have racing thoughts but that's separate from the thing I'm writing about here. Like there's no thought. You can just "feel" your brain being active, sometimes in a bothersome way but no...

I am not even sure if the title is accurate, however it is the only thing that resembles its origin. I don't think it relates to PTSD (or it may), but when I'm NOT in therapy, my mind is consistently, every minute of every second, throbbing. In thought. Thinking. Paranoid. Unwell. It's really...

I think it's mostly for peace of mind. I like the bandaid method. I either make the hard choice now or usually avoid the slow peel. For me, only making the bond stronger and then having to switch would only negatively impact me, I think. I've also never been in a situation where it was seemingly...

I went back to my current therapist and told her all of this -- and it make me go back into wondering if she's the right therapist for me. I showed her the paper (my notes on the specialist's diagnosis). It said that it was a severe case of DID as well as Borderline. What next? She continues...

In an intense, 2 hour session, I was recently diagnosed by a specialist with DID. I read somewhere online that in order to be diagnosed by it, the personalities have to be present. However, she diagnosed me within the two hour session just based on my answers to her questions about the symptoms...

I have PTSD and Asperger's as well. This is definitely an interesting old thread that I'm glad was started. Relationships are near impossible for me to maintain -- none of them have lasted for more than a month (or a few). But Asperger's with PTSD is just the worst. It's kind of like having...

I just want to say that I see so much of myself in your writing. The emotions, how you express certain things, the anger for making you into who you think you are, etc. Especially when you say that you don’t want anyone to see your true emotions, as you think they’re ugly and nasty, so they’re...

For choosing a wrong psychiatrist. For not making improvements and for allowing things to effect me and for not seeing or speaking out sooner, because I've always notices these symptoms but haven't ever had the courage to admit them and they weren't ever noticed. For not being stronger.

Thanks! It certainly is hard to hear. I'm not taking it well personally -- and I have myself to blame for all of this, but nonetheless it feels as though a weight has been lifted. The irony in my belief yesterday; I actually really liked this therapist/specialist! I was very anxious when...