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Yes.... A link! The excel format interprets the test! For those of us too chicken to have or pdocs test us.... this is probably the next best thing to self diagnosing. ;D Link Removed

I am so sorry for your loss and your suffering. Prayers

Things just go quiet. Negative self talk stops along with self soothing (since the negative is gone). A sensation of catching my breath but I'm not sure if I actually have any physical response. Definitely no going into another part. There are times when my personality changes along with my...

I have a very angry vindictive hateful "inner teen". She's mean. :( I think the negative self talk is definitely from internalizing our abusers beliefs and how their actions made us feel. I believe that negative self talk is an inner child issue. As far a the angry shut up... Not an abuser...

It doesn't say anything else... mostly because when that happens it works. Authority. Like when kids are arguing and you yell "be quiet" and they all look at you surprised and immediately quiet down. I've only really noticed it in this kind of context of negative thought and self soothing, but...

Structural dissociation. So we're taught in therapy to stop negative thoughts and to use positive self talk to counter the negative... to put it all in perspective. So that's two "voices" or thought processes and those are supposed to be normal especially in therapy. Although I kind of see...

My stone is smooth as far as shape... flat with no big bumps or anything. The actual texture is slightly rough and it has several small indentations for me to feel as well as a little chip off one corner. :) Since it fit's so well in my palm, I can give it a good squeeze to feel it's pressure if...

I frequently "fiddle" with my necklace pendant when I'm wearing one. Especially at therapy. I wonder it that's a subconscious for of grounding.

Very good point. Sometimes I'm able to remember that and it helps. Other times I go straight to the negative self talk which inevitable spirals downward. I'll put that in my toolbox and try to pull it out more often. Thank you for the reminder!

Yay! I'm so glad this was helpful. :)

I found a rock last weekend. I decided/knew? it would be my grounding object right when I picked it up. I had been in a dissociated state for over an hour at that point and my husband managed to get me outside on a nature walk. That always seems to work for me - fresh air sunshine and natural...

Thank you. We are all doing the best we can. :)

My T has said that I need to work on my boundaries too. I'm not sure what that means. I'm very open and wear my heart on my sleeve so to speak so maybe that's what she means? My son is 5. He has adhd and they thought he had dysfunctional mood dysregulation disorder but I'm thinking that's not...

Thank you.

Thank you!

I actually do think it fits well but I don't want another dx. I also fear that it will exacerbate my symptoms, then again I think any intense work will probably do that. I know when my T tried to do inner child work with me (way to early for that) I would become very nauseated when I would...

They are considered intrusive thoughts. I believe in dissociative disorders they're sometimes called "made thoughts" in terms of the thoughts being made by alters or fragments etc.

hmmmm. Maybe it's effexor I'm thinking of? I know I was on gabapentin for some time though for mental health reasons.

No one, anyone? I hate posting and nobody responds. :( I know there are other posts on this subject but it's just so confusing. And everyone experiences this stuff a little differently.

If I'm not mistaken that is an anti seizure medication and can be used to treat depression and nerve pain. I took it some time ago for depression I think and if I recall it helped. I didn't take it for pain. Do you have nerve pain? I do know that you have to be very consistent with taking it...

I think I understand. I used to run away constantly as a teen. I was in foster care and they could NOT make me stay put. As an adult somehow I managed to settle down stay put and have a family so I can't run anymore. I've hypothesized that that is the reason for my unwanted self harm almost...

When your spouse says I love you and you say thank you because for years nobody did. When you feel guilty for doing things you should enjoy. When your kids trigger you with their behaviors. When your kids trigger you because your not good enough. When it triggers you when you take them shopping...

I get this.

Never had that sensation before. I do get sudden sharp pains... is that not normal?

OLD post Friday :) I resurrected it to see how op was doing with this. What do you mean by high risk oblivion/ numbing seeking?