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@Maggiemay A centre specialising in dissociation sounds like a great place to turn to. Judging from what you've said previously, they'll hopefully find what's going on and *fingers crossed* advocate for you. Hang in there!

Awww! You are wonderful together!

@Lioness I hope you are ok. It's pretty heavy. I hope it's helped you, another step on the path to recovery. Is there any way you can contact your T before the next session, just to check? If there's one thing I've learned in therapy, it's to ask questions! I'd be inclined not to have...

Just a thought, but sometimes it's tied up with the experiences as a kid. If they had abandonment experiences as a kid, and were not listened to or taken seriously, they might unconsciously not speak because as a child it was useless. Or maybe speaking up as a child meant coming to harm...

That is so funny, thank you for posting! As a kid (about 10), I went back to our car to wait for my mother (we lived in a small town, and never needed to lock the car). I got in and thought my mother had made a very strange choice (for her) of a pair of fluffy dice, hanging from the mirror. I...

Wow Radise. I've been fighting it pretty hard lately, and you've given me pause for thought. Yes, it is scary. But so is the fighting. That really resonated with me, I find myself of the same mindset lately. And I have kids, it cannot happen. I'm also fighting to stay alive, but am I...

I agree with everything Digger has said. We wouldn't respond if we didn't want to. Maybe PTSD has blurred your concept of yourself, maybe you are interpreting something about yourself due to what happened. You are still you. How would you have described yourself before it happened? What was...

No, I've never had her email. She's overseas at the moment. If things get bad, I'll ring a helpline that has been posted on here as being good. I have nobody else. I'm grateful for this forum. I just have to keep surviving. I wish I was further along in my recovery. It seems like I'll never...

Thanks guys, for sticking with me. I'm really struggling. I've tried to answer several times, and just cannot think straight enough. There is an unusual amount of stress right now, our son's anxiety has increased alongside the start of school, and I didn't get paid in January, and other stuff...

@Barconian Yeah man. Things are pretty tough here. So it's tough on my husband too. Lots of stress from all sorts of directions, especially financially and with our son's troubles. Your question has been an eye-opener there. I knew there was stress, but didn't realise how much it's stirred...

I think you are right Abstract. I think he does have some narcissistic traits, though I don't think he is a full-blown narcissist. I have never been able to get through to him, but he sees me as emotional and therefore "weak" with no logic. I am not coping. I am not getting anywhere near...

I found I had PTSD in a similar fashion - I was triggered into a panic attack which kind of unlocked things. Welcome to the forum!

@atthree You are right, my father had PTSD, and he was frightening and emotionally abusive as well. My husband doesn't, though I think he has some other issues going on. Other than anger outbursts, he doesn't have any symptoms, or any trauma in his background.

@atthree I appreciate your support, though I think I might not have made clear in my first post that it is me that has the PTSD, my husband is the supporter. I'm not sure if you read it the other way around perhaps?

You guys are the best. Other than my T, I have nobody else to turn to - and honestly, nobody else has ever been there for me like this. It's so lovely it makes me cry. Thank you. Like some of you have said, I can't say I haven't thought about getting out many times over the years. I always...

It has been a very bad evening. My husband was crazy angry and unreasonable with my son, who is struggling with anxiety and OCD badly at the moment - my husband sees it as behavioural problems, and takes our son's reactions personally. He takes everything personally. I started to get...

Yes, and it's when most of my flashbacks occur - I wake up and see and sense a dark figure creeping into the room. It isn't a dream because I wake suddenly in terror just prior as if there actually is an intruder, heart racing, wide-eyed. I think it reflects an actual incursion into my room as a...

That's awesome nomedic!

I can't help but think if they did, they would have picked the wrong door... I haven't done that, but in one house I lived in that was really triggering for me, I would sometimes find myself caught between the top of the internal stairs (from the feared downstairs) and the front door, holding...

If none of us here ever expressed negative feelings, the forum would not exist! Instead of the smack to the head, read your posts imagining someone else wrote them - what would you say to them? Or if that is hard, imagine a child saying that stuff - how would you comfort them? I say this...

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I'm afraid I can't add anything, but the rehearsing beforehand and the method Scout described sound like really good ideas. Take your time, and remember to breathe. You are very brave. We can't be there for you, but we are here for you.

Even someone the world would agree was very, very bad, (i.e. Hitler), had a streak of good. He loved dogs. Obviously he was an evil person, but as evil as he was, there was that tiny bit of good. I'm pretty sure you are nowhere near him on the "bad" scale, and have a heck of a lot more good...

I realise that I try to seek the approval of critical people. Never got my father's approval for anything at all. To him, I did nothing right, said nothing right, thought nothing right. Even when, as a child, I'd try to reflect his opinion as my own, try to say what he'd say - that backfired...

Hyperarousal gone haywire. Struggling to contain my emotions - trying to use the techniques from therapy. So hard to sit with it, especially when my husband calls me "weak" because he thinks emotions are a sign of weakness. Worried out of my skull about my son, and trying to contain it to help...