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Then she is still emotionally abusive. That IS emotional abuse. I live with my mom. Everything is about her. When I attempted suicide, it was about her. When I told her about being raped, she made it about her. My T says part of healing and moving forward is grieving what we didn't have. Anger...

I think you should so she will know what to look for. My T became very good at noticing when I start to dissociate. But it came with time, building trust, and me being honest with her.

:hug: I could've written this post myself. I am slowly learning to be okay with my feelings. Trying not to judge them. Your mom sounds narcissist like mine. Everything about her. I think for myself personally I feel guilty because she is my mom and she has provided for me financially. But that...

I see both sides because I dealt with early childhood trauma and abuse. Then I was also sexually assaulted in 2013. I think I do somethings underestimate what my childhood trauma did to me. I think it goes back to it happened as early as I can remember. It was my "normal". I just learned to...

So glad you found us here and have a therapist to help you work through this. Can I say you are SO brave? Really. I didn't have the courage to report my rapist because courts are another trigger for me from childhood abuse. I am glad the jerk is in prison though. Gentle hugs if you wish, hope...

I was in a similar position. For me, changing T's was the right decision. At first I was wanting to see both T's as the one through the school had a contract for me to see my psychiatrist. But my new T said that essentially that would be like seeing 2 doctors for the very same thing. I am glad I...

Ok, I am calming down a little! Now according to the weather, it is only suppose to be sleet/ice rain on Tuesday. So *hopefully* they won't cancel. My car can drive in the snow so Im not worried about that. I just don't want them to shut down...

Gotcha. Yeah that is true with cats and possibly small dogs. Do you feel comfortable getting a young puppy? Sometimes getting a puppy is best because you can socialize them to everything. Maybe not a Greyhound, but some other breed. You can take them through puppy classes and such. This is...

Also, I don't know if you are looking at specific breeds. For me, my next dog will probably have longer hair as I like the texture. However, I know a LOT of people have had tremendous success with adopting Greyhounds that have retired off the track. These dogs are normally really young, anywhere...

I second @Justmehere 110%. Just because the dog was okay with foster dogs doesn't mean it would be okay with strange dogs. Bristol was fine with our dogs but we found out too late her issue with other dogs. Not her fault, they used shock collars on her... alas- a story for a different time. I...

Here because last year they tried that, everyone got stuck on the road and spent days in their cars they are extra cautious. It's actually suppose to start Monday now. I am going to call the office Monday and see what they are thinking and see if she has any openings for the next week at least...

Not while she is out of the office, there is no way to contact her.. Plus if we did, I would have to leave my house. I can't talk to her while at home, it isn't safe. :(. I am really praying it doesn't snow!

Soooo I just looked at the weather and it's suppose to snow this week, starting on the day I have therapy. Snow isn't that common here and everything shuts down. I'm panicking because we just started going 2 weeks between sessions. If they shut down, I probably won't see her for a total of a...

When I've been inpatient (and I'm in the US) I was allowed to call out on their phones, but I couldn't have my phone. So prior to being admitted, I wrote down any important numbers. For both times, one was a suicide attempt and one was thoughts- I was in there a week. They were going to keep me...

Thankfully my T's organization is in 2 houses downtown. You sign in at the one house, but my T is in the other house. Normally people sit in a living area where you sign in, but my T got permission for me to go sit outside on the front porch of the house she is in. So when I leave, I can go...

Well my first attempt at drawing one. Not the best, but not disappointed either. May add more to it later!

Thanks for the video @digger I may try to start drawing some today! @Radise I find any artistic outlet healing and relaxing! My favorite would be collaging, though I do some painting and stuff as well! Now this. What I think is best is that the mandalas are encouraging me to write/journal-...

@sun seeker thats so awesome! I haven't thought about drawing them. I should look into it. As for the inside out or outside in- I read somewhere that if you work from the outside in you are wanting to work on your inner soul where as if you work from your inside out you are wanting to work on...

Has anyone in here looked into Mandala's, particular coloring? It's something I happened across and am now getting fascinated with. If you look at nature- circles are a huge part of it and the symbolic meaning of circles is powerful too. I just started doing some research on them and found a lot...

I'm 26 and have only had GYN checks twice due to emergencies. One was a tumor on ovary and one was ruling out another tumor/female issue. You are not stupid. The last time was very triggering because it was literally 2 months after being raped and secretly I was terrified of being pregnant at...

Sounds like it might be dissociation you are experiencing. Thats how I feel when I dissociate.

First off, you've been doing EMDR majority of the sessions for 3-4 months? That is enough to wear anyone out! My T and I sit down and pick a target memory that is causing me the most issues/PTSD symtoms. We do EMDR normally for about 4-5 sessions (twice a week, so 2 weeks) and then stop for at...

Thank you @Recovery4Me :hug: I have watched several of her TED talks and such! My T loves Brene and we often talk about her a lot in therapy.

((hugs)) if you will accept them @shimmerz . I think I understand what you are saying. Can I say that we here accept you and love you, even in your imperfections? I think I can relate because if I was not being perfect- I was a horrible daughter in my mom's eyes. Everything was about her- even...

For me, it happens when we are going into some deep stuff and it requires me to be vulnerable with my thoughts and feelings. Growing up it was not safe for me to express my feelings and that has carried over into adulthood. When I get stuck inside myself, my therapist gently "pokes" and pulls...