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Yes I know this thing about that one should be able to regard one self with out being dependig on regards from others. What I think Is that if you hardly been regarded by others you dont really have the tools to regard your self either. Ex: a child that is loved by those who parent it will...

@Ronin thanks for takin me serious first of all and your help to clear this in my mind. Ok here goes a try of explanation - before in younger years I felt so ashamed simply just of being me. Of being alive. It steems from family affairs and many long years of being the goat that scaped. This...

I can file a complaint @Ronin . It takes a year for them to treat and reply. I dont have a year. So thinking aloud what I can do - not look for miracles nor help or assistent from others. Im in this and I need to owe it. Okay - I am waiting for miracles. The miracle of a student loan for now...

If I didnt go hiking Id be total lost per today - I belive hiking and nature is part of what kept me on my own feet still walking. Despite it might be dificult to get out sometimes. Wish you the best.

And just to say the final - it really pisses me of that Noway use so much money for building a brave nwe country but cant build brave new people - like me. Goverment use 4 mill norwegian kroner on a toilet in gold on a deserted island where only tourist comes in summertime. If they had spend...

@Ronin Ive tried to apply for diferent help. The last was a place where they were to be neutral and specially helpfull in these cases. I was there twice. Second time the person with dry comment remarked "oh you are in far worser shit now then the first time you were here" and then "no, we cant...

I shovel something up Trumps ..... while I drop bombs and shoot firearms while alarms go of and people run around and Ill tell him to be good and brave little boy about it cause it aint so hard. Sorry I had enough of wacko jackos. Also here in my country. Recently a poitican went out and made...

Also want to pass greetings and a warm welcome onboard. About what helps part I cant really say so much either. I think its of highly importance to have a stabile life to be able to deal well with this as regard to economy, living and such to begin with. Food as medicine, regular walks in...

@Recovery4Me - this!! What I ve been thinking about lately. You know you are healing when having PTSD feels secondary to having a life.

What I like about this site is that sometimes when I dont have the words my self some one here seems too. So grateful for replies here and will follow as I find it to aid.

I hope hed accept such words to - I know I would have.

@Melly13 thanks for encouragment indirectly to not let myself down this time even do times seems hard. Be brave and hold on so Ill not loose all again - I truly want to me ok. And also an insight on how hurt we can be with our ptsd - little black humor here its almost like "my precious"...

Yeah I did some dramatic thing like this one I was hurting the worst. Didnt answer telephone nor door nor nothing. Cause in my pain I didnt belive anyone truly cared. Those that where supposed to be freinds. I was right do. They couldnt handle. Still say it was a sad test and almost wish I kept...

Couldnt have said it better myself. Focus more on what heals then what keeps one locked up in ptsd prison. Mmm - Im in debate with my self if Im only fooling myself that there are changes, but that might be negative self talk button again? Cause even if maybe not today but on a general basis...

Had an issue with daughter that triggered me almost to become mother dearest. Had to remind my self I am not her and can choose to react in diferent matter then what she did. Maybe not helpful Im sorry. I just try to not act like her. I try to breathe. Have serious talks with my self on have I...

Beacause in most cases people close us up? Sooner or later? They give up and give in? Only for a borrowed amount of time? Thanks anyway for posting here that you care about your friend and that you are concerned. Makes me belive you actually mean what you say. That you actually care. And thats...

I hate the social security office and last time I was there I totally cracked down. I just simply hate those suckers that works there and I hate myself for having gotten into situation of needing their money. I hope It went ok with you today.

Also no friends and today feels like it doesnt friggin matter anymore here to. Really want to tell the world to piss of. Dont want to read any summary of my life as it is now. Last official person Ive talked with said - oh your in worser shit now then last time I saw you. But of course she...

You are clean. Sometimes the feeling can last for some days depending on what actually happend or shorter or longer, but itll evetually go away. Meanwhile try to focus on something else to distract your mind. Take care

@shimmerz its been a long long journey for me and Im still walking it. I was really the queen of junk food and processed food and a lazy person as well. But I was hurting so much that time I had this lifestyle. Mentally as well as fysical. Doctor claim I had fibromyalgi due to severe all - over...

Suggestion on how to eat for a week: Keep meat to only once or twice. Eat fish for dinner three times. Eat vegetable dinner 2 - 3 times. Avoid processed food and make your own from the ground. Give it your best to appreciate the nutrition youll feed your body with as you make it and envision how...

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First f all listen to your doctor or similar. If you are on medication or other precaution. This is my personal experience using my self as a trst bunny. After some thread here Ive decided to make a own post here about the important component of the healing journey and at all just be better...

Takk @heyheyhey :) Not mine completey, but I borrow him so often that I dare say partly :) And today 17 of october I celebrate 2 years since he slept over at my house the very first time and his oh so lovable way of being made me fall completely in love. We share so many great memories as we...

Im in schools for further education. Under the control of others like welfare counlser its not easy shen they decide wether this is good for me or not. Im still fighting do to have the right for my integrity and besides Im applying for relevant jobs according to the education Ive embarked on...