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I don't think your family wants to understand and I think you should stop expecting them too. It will only bring you more pain. I think you have already been through enough and do not deserve that sort off treatment from them. If anything they should be caring so much for you.
My family still...
@Lucycat, I do not want her to be attracted to me. I like her but not that way. Should she have said yes, I would have ran out of the session and never thought of going back again.
It would freak me out so bad. I am actually freaking out now as I am thinking about it.
The way my ex t dropped...
I can only access this forum after hours, so my responses will always be delayed
I am not sure how I would approach the subject, maybe I should ask if she thinks I am sexually attracted to her. Then we can clarify things from there. I have no sexual interest on her at all, if anything I see...
I understand why he is angry and I also understand why you did what you did. I think giving him space to come back to his senses is the best thing you can do right now. What you did shows you care about him and when he comes back to his senses he will see it.
I am sorry that he is so mad at you...
I had my session on Monday and I was able to open up to my t about the sexual relationship I had with my previous t. For the first time ever I was able to tell someone about it and how the previous t left me shuttered when she told me we had to stop seeing each other. The other reason I had to...
Congratulations, I am happy for you
Reading your thread makes me realize how much I'd want to be a mom, if only I could get over the fear that I'd ba a bad mom.
@Badger, that's so cool. Wish I could take a walk with my t, I think it would make it easy to talk. For now we always stuck in her office, me on the couch and her on the chair
I find I am struggling with expressing anger in a manner that is acceptable. Generally when angry I would tell a person provoking that I am getting angry, I will do this in a polite manner and with a smile on my face so most people do not get it. I am not good with verbalizing things, so I do...
I think you should go back to school, it can be really hard but I also believe you'll make it. Early this year I went back to complete my degree and it was really hard, my t helped me a lot. At times I would panic so much that I'd miss tests and she'd contact the university for me. She supported...
I am sorry things are so difficult for you right now, we all go through that and it will get easier with time. I went for two months not being able to talk to my t, I was getting frustrated with myself but it got better. Just hang in there
All of you are making me feel like I have achieved something big :) My head is now getting big and I am doing my happy dance
Hopefully in the future I will be able to maintain the eye contact throughout the session
You just gave me an idea, maybe I could ask my t to be busy with something while I am talking. I think it would be much easier to talk when she is not staring. I like that
I also had this and it got worse in 2011, I don't know why. I would literally start walking fast or run if there was someone behind me. I used to freak out a lot that I had to spend most of my days working from home. I couldn't sleep through the night as I would feel someone is in the room, I'd...
From the title you can already tell I had a great session today. I was able to be open and honest to her about what went down between me and my previous therapist. I was also able to tell her about something she once did that made me feel like she was angry with me. However I was not able to...
@ARE290260 I think I know what you referring to. I sometimes feel like I am a child and she's my mom, we have talked about it a number of times but I still feel like she's a better version of my mom. :(
It got embarrassing one time during hypnosis my mind completely thought she was my mom...
@Candleflames I think your t was trying to kill your desire and she/he was successful at it :roflmao:
@DMerish, when I say she went above and beyond it is because she is always available for me. She'd always reply to my emails, texts and return my calls in between sessions. I mean there are...
My t does the same thing as well, she just tries to get that eye contact which led me to sitting behind the couch during sessions. Only twice when I was really out of it she touched my shoulder. But she would first tell me she is about to touch my shoulder or come near me. I have issues with...
@Eleanor, I am not comfortable with EMDR, we tried it before and I really hated it. She now uses hypnotherapy if necessary and if I agree to it. Maybe I should give EMDR a try again
Thank you CherryBlossom, I also hope things go well on Monday. You are also right We could have had a discussion on how she should soothe and ground me after the call.
@Lucycat we had discussed this over many sessions and me confronting him was something that I had thought off for a long time. I told my t a week before that in the following week I would like to confront him. Before I made the call the t made sure this was something I really wanted to do. So...
@just keep swimming the phone was purely my idea. I told her I needed to confront my abuser and I would like her to be there for support. And I really appreciate that she let me call him and that she was there with me when I was falling apart after the call. Should I have done it on my own I...
Thank you Abstract I see what you are talking about. We went through this with my T, but she never used the term grounding. I am normally very good with my imagination so she normally tells me to go to my happy place, that gets me calmed. So even when I am alone and losing it I allow myself to...