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my anorexia is "comorbid" with my ptsd

no men, men do bad stuffs to me...

@FridayJones it can be like that for me too, except emotions... i do think of music often though...i love most music :)

Basically @Tanishq i think the easiest way to put it, is that i think in emotions...attach moving images to those emotions...and then words to the moving images...its a complicated process...but the human mind is so quick.

@Tanishq no, i just suck at explaining what i mean, since we are on a text forum :) i dont think in words

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ok, this is how i think, i think: if i am afraid, which i am right now, because its dark and i dont like the dark, i do not think "i am afraid", i think "darkness brings fear, turn on the light..." but not in words, in passive emotions...then i like "light will awaken others, make them angry...

im gunna say sensations...but moving images could be also correct... im not sure how to explain how i think...i think in emotions mostly, and attach meaning to them...or visualisatons, and see them move

im angry that reporting abuse always involves demeaning photographs of private places and worse...and reporting sexual abuse carrys a stay in a hospital torture chamber with a dr, several nurses, and a police lady...thankfully today was just photos... im angry that the girls in my program hate...

-Moderated a proana forum -Slashed a man's tires...but only 3...insurance doesn't cover it unless u slash 4...he grabbed his kid's arm hard and dragged him... -Peed on a computer, blamed a cat -Tried to hang myself -Stole countless food items from stores when i wasnt getting fed -Held a knife to...

im...kinda glad im not alone... really bad dreams make me wet the bed sometimes too... ugh, even saying it is making me feel shame...

@WildMermaid ive always been focused on lyrics...i wasnt even alive when kurt cobain died, but when he snarls out "i am anemic royalty"...it speaks to me. With Lana Del Ray, there's 2 reasons why i rest on ride alot..."i am alone at midnight, been trying hard not to get into trouble, but ive got...

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im broken today, its been a long, long day...

@WildMermaid ty...i wish us both sleep...

i didnt sleep last night...

Same Expect different slowly going insane need badly to sleep nightmares

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@Berlinda i will too..this helps me, i wrote it a long time ago...well, 2 years ago...but thats a long time to me... There will always be someone who wants to hurt you, or destroy you, and sometimes it's you who wants to hurt yourself...but no matter what, as we stand staring at an unforgiving...

@Berlinda plz do enjoy urself ok? it'll get bettr...it'll get bettr...just remind urself itll get better Today i am hopeful, i saw a dr and ate a meal, i am less hungry, and but still scared...im not sure why i feel like a contrediction all the time, i have hope tho...and hope is everything in...

Well im not im trying hard to be much better hopeful

@rightkindofme im hoping to get to stay with the family i am staying with this weekend, they are nice and kind... @Tanishq ty 4 ur kind words :)

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