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Was the other forum you joined about depersonalization? I only just realised I have depersonalization, I was so focused on the emotional aspects of dissociation and ptsd that I ddn't realise what was going on and why I was attributing my actions to another person and lost my personality but...

I am talking to a therapist. And I'm fine. These are just psychosomatic symptoms, and since yesterday its started to go away.

due to the extremely repressive/oppressive nature of my trauma the only way I thought I could escape was my living in my mind, and because i felt so helpless to change any of the circumstances of my life (partially because i was so disconnected from my body) i can only change my circumstances...

thats how mine is! its very clogged it's all due to taking acid 25 times (microdoses that slowly increased) while in an extremely abusive situation that i wanted to get out of, extreme isolation/shame, emotional neglect/abandonment throughout my life, family telling me my true self is bad...

I do. I do whatever my body tells me to do. i also make a list everyday of things i want to gain more clarity on, and focus on those and talk to my guides/angels throughout the day. the trouble with writing is that im not fully connected to the truth of my words/things don't run through me like...

yea it's easier to express myself in writing. this whole process has been a f*ck*ng nightmare... the list of psychosomatic symptoms would take days to talk about and describe i think lack of speech also has to do with being so terribly dehumanized/lack of boundaries and my inner child is...

**i meant to say "less alone" not 'like' before all this i had a stream of consciousness and a flow. now i can't see or hear myself and im convered in fog and i can't think critically.

i remember only a few weeks ago that a healthy person has a stream of consciousness (like james joyce ulysses)! i don't even know how to describe what i have but its not that. i used to only think in pictures, i barely have an words. just a lot of blank space and sometimes i get music in my...

anybody else ever dealt with thing thing where they are so misaligned energetically that they automatically self-repress their own thoughts and energy ... so in effect they feel like no one.... my life is good and im able to distinguish between the past and present and slowly but surely my own...

I have told them : ( it just makes it really difficult to be this disconnected to one's words/emotions and want to get through dissociation because im already someone who is very emotional... so if i lack the words for everyday emotions on top of ptsd emotions then i reallllly go out to space...

does anyone else experience their emotions are completely outside of their body? is anyone else so disconnected from their emotions/experiences at times that they just seem like pictures with no explanation?

is anyone else lacking an inner monologue/fundamental understanding of grammar and language in general that they used to have? is anyone else's 'stream of consciousness' now just a jumbled foggy mess the lack of speech in my mind bothers me the most. i feel like my life force has been stolen...

@SMW83 i had that issue. i couldnt even move my eyeballs at some point it felt like i had sludge in my body. its has an emotional/hormonal basis from my experience. i suggest sound healing bowls to get your energy flowing. i also used this headache stuff aromatherapy stuff to wake me up. just...

You went into a state of shock after your grandmother hurt you. I've dealt with this myself in a myriad of waya. It's the effect of un-dealt with affect of an experience. I've lost my ability to think, speak, have my own thoughts after traumatic events - and my abuser convinced me I was...