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I try to stop thinking about it. That is the suggestion of my therapist.

It is hard to “push” it out, I guess you would say. I do work hard on it and have discussed having therapy more often. It is just weird because it feels just awful. I know I have to “pull myself out” but it is hard. I’ve learned about gaslighting and all this other stuff, and even though it...

What do you do when you realize that your ptsd is reality???? T t hat your whole life has gone to shit because of one person and you can’t pull yourself out of the nightmare???? When you put yourself in reality and you find that everything has gone to shit? You don’t know what to do because...

I can’t fight off the depression or the badness. He won. It’s not all in my head. It’s all a bunch of shit! I was arrested. I need confirmation. I don’t know what’s real and what’s not. Am I pretty? What do I deserve? What can’t I have fun? Why don’t I deserve a better job? He does...not me

Just it’s ptsd and trauma.

Saw a psychiatrist last week. I think manipulation is why I see things that way. Fear from him. He tackled me and every time he was angry at me to force me to do something, it f*cked with me. And no, it’s not helpful to write things down, because it doesn’t change my situation.

And one of the trauma therapists I saw told me about projection, so now all I think about is- is this person projecting on me? This therapist grabbed my purse and told me because I looked at it, I was ADHD. And he charged $300 an hour to quote therapy he read in books. This lady, that I trust...

Things were going downhill in my marriage. My ex started setting me up- telling me things that were not true. Moved his friend into our house, apparently was also cheating on me at the time. I moved out, but showed up at the house one night. I was paying the mortgage on the house. He came out...

No, that was just a random thing. It is a very juvenile want, but I am confused in general about everything. I am just not in a good place. Like, how can you be so confused about things, and not be able to move on? And feel different around so many different people? Is it normal to be that way...

How would you feel if you were originally told you are a strong woman, the told you are weak? Grey area? No grey area sine who I want doesn’t want me.

How do you process all of this when you can’t tell who is good, who is bad, and who will flip out on you? Every thing that doesn’t go as planned is like tearing open the wounds again. Damn...so many things I wish I would have know back then...I wish I could truly live in the moment and feel ok...

I do have one very serious question- when does feeling like a psycho (I have no other way to describe it) go away? The weirdness of thoughts back and forth?

I wish I had real friends and people that really wanted to be with me. But, I look over the good ones and go for the bad ones. But, they don’t like me, and stupidly it hurts. Yet, going for the good ones makes me unhappy.

No one prepared me for how much life would suck. This is ridiculous. I have to deal with so much because of him???? Damn....and ptsd messes up your life so bad. Not knowing who you are messed up your life too. Wanting what you can’t have and realizing that your dreams are not reality is a...

I was the one in and out of a mental health facility because of all of this. He tried to get me to say I am bipolar, but was never diagnosed as bipolar before. He said he would help me, but never did. I trusted the wrong person, so it’s hard for me to trust again. Along with dating. I know which...

I am so dissatisfied in myself for choosing the same kind of people, but it’s hard not to. It sucks. I struggle with going with my feelings vs making choices with my head that make me feel awful. The thing that makes it the worst is someone using it against me. Happens all the time and is weird.

I am so sorry that you have deal with all of that. I am just confused as to which choices to make. It is hard to let people down and also be let down at the same time. I am so confused. I have read a lot of the stories on here and I see what people have gone through and it breaks my heart. I am...

I try so hard, at bringing myself together mentally. It is so hard. All I want is to live a good life and have a good husband that I also have feelings for. Well, everyone keeps telling me it takes time, but it’s people that I can’t deal with, but need them in my life to be fulfilled. Everything...

They is my family and friends telling me that things will get better. Telling me to let things go. Here is the problem with DBT-the emotions don’t change. I just can’t change them because I was set up. I knew this person for 7 years and he pulled a gun on me, stole my money and lied to the...

What do you do after you have been set up? What do you do because you can’t mess up again and the stress of Messing up is too much???? What do you do when you’re emotions are all over the place because of the situations in your life? When you have become so dependent on someone else and you...

I am going to keep repeating the same patterns throughout my entire life because I don’t know which ones to break. I am my family. I am the weakest link. The dumbest person in the world. All I have to do is find myself, right??? That is all??? Find myself. Go to therapy, break childhood...

Life lessons right??? I can’t take it anymore!!!

I just so wish I had a different life. I wish I wasn’t a criminal. I wish I wasn’t set up. When I started to go to therapy, like he told me I needed, he told me she brainwashed me. I am not as strong as people think I am. I am so tired. I am so scared of being set up again. They tel me all the...

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One thing I have figured out is that everyone has told me that I look young and naieve. I am so stupid for thinking that I was not.