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Earlier, this evening, my SI rating rose, from 2.5-3.0 to 4.0, and I don't know, why. Yes, this morning, I had an appointment with my nurse practitioner, which we covered a lot of familiar ground that didn't trigger me. I do know, for the past week, my sense of uselessness and frustration. Just...

@BlackbirdSinging , I hope your brother is safe and able to call you, very soon. Relieved and excited, I am home from my medical appointment, as visibility is reduced to 20 m outside of my apartment, and the wind chill is picking up, making it feel colder than -5 C temperature, it is. An...

Find myself, in a nasty combination of feelings: anxious, frustrated, exhausted and scared. For I have to travel during the tail end of the morning rush hour traffic, to an appointment with my nurse practitioner, and a very nasty winter storm is about to strike here. During the appointment, I...

@Kashi , I can relate and understand your frustration, as my mom is, the type of person, who drops everything and rushes to my side, if she thinks, I'm depressed or feeling sad, when I want "me" time. It was through one such episode that I outed myself to her, as a transwoman. At the time, I was...

Exhausted and burnt out, from the emotional weight, I am carrying and my sleep debt. Even though, last night, I managed to get almost 6.5 hours of solid sleep. Feel like, I am sleepwalking through today. Not a good sign. Tomorrow morning, I see my nurse practitioner, for the first time, in...

Relieved, I have made it, through the day. Time to crash.

Feeling exhausted and burnt out from the lack of the sleep. Am having trouble concentrating on the task before me. Just want to crash out, and tell the world to come back, another decade or so. But I have responsibilities that I need to take care of, first, before crashing out for the day.

@Ayesha take this first year, to explore your wants and needs, before committing to any program. You may find that a particular program isn't suited to you, for various reasons. Too many people find themselves, with a degree, they regret taking, because they were pressured to take, by love ones...

Am filled with mixed emotions, at this moment. It's after 1 am EDT, and I can't sleep, which angers me, with the Daylight Saving Time coming into effect, yesterday. It throws off my sleep pattern for the next 2-3 weeks, before my body can adjust to it. Contented, as I have a 5 month old kitten...

Myself, I turn to writing my emotions, in poetry, which can get very dark, at times, but they are out in the open. Like @billie I play and hug my 3 cats, to ground me. @Definitely..maybe , have to mentioned this, to your therapist or doctor? They may suggest copying strategies for you.

@macca , I more than gladly give you, what limited positive energy, I have, today, to you. Don't understand, why I am feeling very anxious, this morning, to the point, bordering on a very strong anxiety attack, but I am. I need to get out and complete my grocery shopping, for this week, for...

Tired and happy, I was able to leave my apartment building and do some shopping. Frustrated that I couldn't do more shopping, as I can't face the afternoon rush hour traffic, on the transit system, to complete all of today's shopping. I know, there's always tomorrow.

Not sure, if this need for sleep, is the by-product of being depressed, or my sleep debt being paid back. For the third night, I got least 6 straight hours of sleep. Only to wake up, feeling emotionally and physically drained of energy. The simple act of cleaning the litter box, has taxed to me...

Thank you, @Spiderallis , for your kind and generous offer. Despite a weekend of rest and much needed sleep, I feel exhausted and drained. Only know, it snowed Saturday night, because I was told so. On the bright side, my glucose levels have been on the low but normal side, which is amazing...

I feel like the past week's stress level are taking their toll, upon my body, as I slept most of Saturday away. Waking up, with my lips covered in painful micro-cuts. Want to go back to bed, and sleep away today (Sunday), but I have responsibilities that need to look after, mine and R's cats...

Strangely, am feeling hopeful, as I just found out that my friend is being transfer back to the rehab centre. Otherwise, feeling drain of all energy. I need to get my grocery shopping done, but I am scared to face the crowds, right now, and that angers me.

Thank you, @macca , but this hasn't happened. My anxiety levels has been ramped up several levels, as I found out more bad news about my friend, R. She had 3 seizures, within a 45 minute period, yesterday afternoon, lasting about 20 minutes, in total. We are waiting on the doctors to find out...

Thank you, everyone for your support, it has help to lighten my load. Now, the hardest part is, the waiting, which I despite.

Am sorry, but I just some very bad news, R, the lady whom I help, had a seizure, today, and I feel so helpless and distraught over the news. Am scared that she might not pull through this.

Sigh. Not sure, where i should begin, but today, I am feeling so overwhelmed, by the events that are happening, right now, in my life. As I trying to get myself, ready for tomorrow's first vocal therapy session, to deal with my chronic and often paralyzing stuttering. Am, on the verge of...

@Bedbug , I understand and know of the trauma, which you speak of, having my castle's walls crumbled during a very severe panic attack, on August 14, 2007. On this date, I had to re-experience 33 years of past trauma that I had suppress with varying degree of success. It was my second baptist of...

@Barconian , you're a true friend to this cat, as your story has me, all choked up. I hope have the courage to spare my 3 little ones, when the time come. This story reminds me, of how Star came to be part of my life, in November 2011. She has helped me, to love and trust others, again, despite...

StrongerNow, do you know, what triggered this latest bout of Colitis? I know how painful this is, as one of my aunts suffers from this. Am sending you, some healing energy. Hope this is over, as soon as, possible for you.

Ayesha, I can relate to this, as I am finding my art therapy sessions are draining me, especially having to take transit home. Have you thought of spending this free moment, doing some type of meditation, to ground yourself, before the next class? Or giving yourself, the permission to do...

I know, I have been absent from the forum, for most of the new year, but life has thrown me, several curve-balls, both health-wise and personally. Am feeling guilty, for not being there, when R. (whom I am helping out) had a possible stroke, around Friday noon. Am looking after her cats, while...