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Sorry to bother you. Please tell where to find the current booklist. It seems I bought a book club book from 2012.

I just bought The Tiger's Wife. Am I wildly out of sync??

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"Just don't think about it.".......in other words, "I'm not able to hear about your pain. It hurts me too."

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my heart

hopeless

To the question of finding time to be artists and make things, I find I need to take a firm hold on my schedual. I need to commit at least 4hrs a day to uninteruupted work. It should be more but I get interrupted often my by husband.......He thinks that now that the children are on their own he...

I am finding EMDR done along with CBT is working to help the healing along. But the traumas that have been 'branded' in my ancient brain will always be there. Where I am in relation to some the traumas has shifted a little. I do not want to be the crazy old lady every one avoids...odd, I am...

Hmmmm....My guess is that your T may have not responded immediately because she/he is respecting your need not to be worried about therapy right now. As you have said, you need a little time off from therapy. I hope your physical pain is becoming less and less as the days go by. Antibiotics...

Dissociation is easy for me too. I can agree that in a dissociated state grounding practices are hard if not impossible to remember. Still alive, I have had deep trouble with (false) survivor guilt. Some of that has kept the lid on an overboiling pot of muck. I'm 64 now. I don't want to grow old...

Yes, I experience this along with feeling like I am a bit shocky. I don't mind it much. For me, it is almost relaxing since I am not easily triggered in this state of semisuspention.

:tup: I am so happy for you. It is an amazing experience to find out that you are smart. :hug: Congradulations :joyful::p

I agree. There are 'empty wastelands' in us created by our trauma. Sand gets blown at us and in our eyes. Exhauted, we can choose to give up walking through this dry and barren land. Or we can choose to walk on in faith, not knowing where we are going. For me, my traumas came forward in my...

I use the metaphor of branded. My traumas have been branded on my survival brain. I learned that those trauma reactions of flight, fight or freeze are all the only options which come forward with or without our voluntary choice. For example, I was in a hospital for serious expert bone surgery on...

I am sad for you, my knight. Most of us all want to love and be loved back. Companionship in a shared life. A life shared can be so good. I understand this kind of loneliness in a different way. Even with a mate, I can be so very lonely. There are many holes in me, and a deep pit of...

Thank you very much, Anthony. May the force be with you. Maybe most of us experience you as," white knight you are, yup,yup"

Welcome to the forum. I'm glad that the smilies help you communicate. I think the way you used them was great!!!! I just want to tell you that sometimes I choose a smilie based on what it looks like rather than it's name. I'm an artist so I hope that I will never offend you.........it might...

It might be a good idea to watch the show when you are ready. Another way to decontaminate a fear, like fear of riding in an elevator, is to take your husband or therapist with you and let yourself see police cars for real as they leave the station. You both may stand on the corner sipping hot...

OOPs I wrote that badly, so sorry. I meant that the wish to see her is coming from you. And the thoughts about not going to see her are coming from your husband. I have no place in the choice to visit with your husband or by yourself. I would not intrude between you both. so sorry for the...

Anrish, you wrote a very good introduction. I'm glad that you choose to come to this forum. There are lots of people here with similar situations. I'm guessing that almost all of us came here afraid. When we are in therapy, many stressful and difficult moments. It takes an amazing amount of...

I can sense, from what you have written, the choice to go see her coming from you, and the choice to stay away from your husband. In the end, we are the only ones responsible for our own souls. Since you have loved her so strongly, MHO, is go see her for a hug, some closure. It is strange, but...

Some times, it is easier to fuss over a relatively minor incedent( no broken bones) because it keeps you busy and protects you from learning the truth of your trauma. It sounds a bit like the only time someone was tender with you was when you were hurt as a young one. Now this is not attention...

Kalbi, I have child parts of me as if they were frozen in time. Some are unfrozen but I don't recognize them until I experience size distortion. I have to ask my Husband if I'm holding a teaspoon or a tablespoon. The tablespoon looks like a teaspoon and the tablespoon looks like a serving...

I'm sorry your recovery has been rough. I think it just take som time. They say that anesthesia takes a couple of week to totally leave your system.It also can cause depression.