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I'm essentially done with an overwhelming and vague To-Do lis, seems like I should feel something, like accomplishment or relief or anything? Nope, nothing yet.

I'm sure there's a more specific word for this variety of 'good', but I recognized that I need a day off. My body has made it clear that there is no other acceptable plan. I'm only going to the market for the essentials, I just ate the last donut and those are vital.

I'm sore and tired, scrubbing walls and getting distracted a half dozen times by doing other stuff. It's time to sit still and hopefully try some of that 'relax' stuff.

Mostly feeling ill, and getting close to bored from being too exhausted to do much of anything.

I'm sleepy, it's meds and beds- g'nite everyone

@gizmo I'm thinking happy thoughts and hoping it goes awesome for you- hugs and coffee (with donuts) I'm, um.... well, I'm pretty sure there's something beyond the numb, it's just blurry and distant.

Overwhelmed, frustrated and physically depleted.

It's horribly uncomfortable between my ears today.

I'm angry that I expect people to lie to me and disgusted with myself. I could've handled something a lot better than I did.

I'm confused by how happy I am. While stopping in for a moment to pick up food from my folks' (mom made soup and biscuits) I ended up screaming at my father to the point that he threatened to punch me. I'd made it clear I was at my limit for the topic he refused to stop discussing, I calmly...

It's been a very jittery day, too much noise with some utility work starting with being woken up so I could let someone in to use some loud tool for a couple hours. My muscles still ache from my reactions to the sounds and the work crews went home an hour ago.

I'm talking myself through not getting anxious about a friend and her fiancee coming over. They're going to help me repair a few things and I'm really trying hard to focus on that and not worrying that they'll judge me for the clutter. I know better. They're far more likely to help me learn...

I'm tired and things hurt. Got too much done today, but it did keep my mind from chewing on itself.

Eh, sounds to me like @Saelben was informed and educated. Curiosity is great if it's paired with comprehending and accepting the potential risks. I'm feeling calm, so much so that I had to make sure it wasn't numb. Nope, I'm present and accounted for, just relaxing for the first time in...

@gizmo You caught me- I'm literally having glazed cruller and a cuppa while reading that! I'm about to head out for T-time, feels like I'm wasting her time when I go in numb and distant. Maybe I'll feel something by time I get there, or I can tell her about looking forward to going home and...

I wish I didn't need so many reminders to relax. Still physically ill from lack of relaxing, trying to pretend it's anything else and I'm not fooling anyone.

I'm fighting with myself to take a much needed break. It's been several weeks of extra stress and I've handled it well, I earned a break. Anything that is not fun or relaxing can wait.

I was trying to vent some rage and it scared the dog. I feel super bad about that, she's a really good dog and I'm disgusted that she'd even think she was in trouble. Guilt, disgusted and furious and I'm overwhelmed.

Keep wondering why I'm so rattled and then I remember being offered three triggers all at once by a person I don't really know beyond a few messages on a chat board. For anyone else I'm sure it'd be a lovely invite, totally normal thing for people to do. I was stressed before I even woke up...

I guess angry mixes well with doing house chores, until I take a break and realize that everything hurts.

Angry. It's coming out as twitchy and jittery with a feeling like my insides all itch. At least I think it's anger, it's certainly one of the emotions that I've not had much practice handling in healthy ways.

aww, @gizmo if we lived nearby we'd overdose on caffeine and sugar but wow, we'd have fun doing it. Friends totally forgave me, I'm lucky to have people in my life that understand I'm still trying even when I don't get the results I (or we) want. Not much change in the negative nasty thoughts...

Starting my day with a look at how poorly I communicate in the mornings... friend is upset, I can totally understand why now that my meds and coffee are kicking in. That doesn't un-do me being horribly rude. Silly me, mentioned it when mum called and she had some great fuel for my inner critic...

I know I'd forget somebody if I thanked y'all by name but wow, thanks for being there, or is it here? I really appreciate it. Hugs and hugs and thank you. It's taking some focus and effort, but I'm pretty sure this is connected to the core if it loops around so many scars. Embarrassed not to...

Thanks to @Cashew and @Recovery4Me for the music idea. Seems to be working, really appreciate it. Forget 'good enough', y'all are super awesome. All that numb makes sense now. I'm horribly uncomfortable with the feelings that are shaking loose, minimal experience in how to handle any of it...