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I have a little brother. He’s 12 and I’m 27. Almost every week now, he asks me about my trauma in different ways. Today, he asked me if I was a victim of sexual abuse and I said no comment. Then he said you were and I said yea. I felt so vulnerable in that moment. I told him I would tell him...

I felt the same way back when the symptoms first got really bad. I was really afraid that I would be labeled as schizophrenic and locked in a mental institution, hopped up on meds. I think being here and reading psych books are opening me up to the idea of therapy. I’m not crazy and qualified...

Right now eating oatmeal, peanut butter, sunflower butter, semi-sweet choco chips, mixed seeds, and cashews.

I was finally able to get through a significant portion of the day without being triggered. I still have time left but over 5 hours without having to stop due to triggers is pretty great.

OnlyFans, that platform where people tend to sell explicit content of themselves.

Yea. I haven’t spoken to him since then and never will. But what do you mean by “looking to destroy”?

Love listening to this mother-daughter duo talk about all things death and pathology. Mother Knows Death

I hear you. My problem is I want to be fully present listening to the book while working. Attention does not work very well when it’s divided though. I should try something I’ve already read or listened to so I don’t feel the need to pay attention to it. Those sound really good and a good price...

I’m not sure what you’re doing therapy wise to help but I find the brain fog occurs when I’m in a flashback or dissociating without me realizing it. Feeling frustrated at myself for trying to work through the brain fog just makes it worse. It helps to do some grounding techniques that will make...

Yea. I don’t like audiobooks. I prefer to read so I can go over the words again, highlight and make notes if I want to. I was listening to podcasts and YouTube videos but it got to be too distracting. Those headphones sound interesting. I work from home so the most I have to worry about is...

I notice that certain lyrics can definitely trigger flashbacks. It’s almost like it’s confirming the messages that I’ve heard from people in the past. I’m never really sure how to react when that happens. I just try to ignore it and keep working on my task but I’m worried it might give power to...

I hadn’t thought about that. I usually listen to music with lyrics. Maybe I’ll try listening to classical music and seeing if it’s still the same. In terms of genre, lately it’s been metal, but other times it’s French or Kpop.

I’ve recently noticed that the only way I can get through the work day with minimal triggers is to listen to music. The only problem is that I noticed that I dissociate form my body when I do this. I get this intense pains in my leg, shoulder, and neck. I get really tense too. When I don’t...

You’re welcome. ☺️ Yea. I’ve been able to sometimes even with dreams but the ability to say or do anything comes and goes. It does help a lot when you are able to do something though. It’s like you break the hold the flashback has over your actions and your emotions.

I totally understand this. I was the same. I would just give in when no didn’t work. Then, I realized I could walk away. I could leave the situation. If it’s someone I want to keep a relationship with, I’ll say something like: Can we drop this? When you keep pushing, I feel like I can’t trust...

I can relate to this but about men. I’m not in a place to even think about dating but after doing exercises that help me build my self of safety. I’m not afraid of any guy on the street and men staring at me doesn’t produce a big reaction or negative thoughts. I think it might help to build up...

Wedge sneakers. I feel like I’m walking on clouds. Favorite pair of pants?

The Wolf Among Us. I’m replaying it since Season 2 is supposed to come out this year. 🤞🏽 Procrastinating on finishing the last chapter. I don’t want to beat it until there’s a set release date.

Bring Me The Horizon Doomed (Live version at Royal Albert Hall)

Yea. The voices in my head that were really just replays of the past. I thought it was my intuition or God guiding me. Quite the opposite.

I don’t know if this is paranormal or would be classed as a spiritual experience. There’s a guy I was fwbs with during college and we starting talking again after I got out of a repressive relationship. It wasn’t abusive but it wasn’t good either. After feeling like this guy wasn’t good for me...

I used to believe in God and spirituality until my symptoms got really bad and all the answers provided did absolutely nothing or made me feel worse. Now I don’t know. I feel no connection to God or the universe. I don’t feel like my life has been touched by them in anyway. What I thought was...

Your posts are so relatable to me maybe because I have a history of sexual assault too. I had this happen a few nights ago actually. It was actually a weird mixture of the face of an ex-friend and the body of a guy I wish I never dated. It triggers the hell out me when I wake up. Almost feels...

I’ve had similar experiences with partners in the past. I had a time where I would beat myself up about not defending myself or being more forceful when saying no. It didn’t help and only made me more anxious and filled with self hatred. After reading Pete Walker’s book Complex PTSD: From...

Thank you! I haven’t wanted to talk about my wounds at all. Hopefully I can get through that barrier or find a therapist willing to work through my apprehension.