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I'm that way a lot lately about not knowing what day it is, or what day something happened. For instance, I say "the other day," when it was only yesterday or when I am talking about something that happened I can't remember what day it was. People at work look at me like I'm crazy! Good to...

@Terry W , I'm no psychologist but I think when you spend your life in these "roles," you have an overwhelming sense of guilt for trying to step away. All of my life I have been told that I'm selfish & only care about my own feelings. Now I am realizing that the opposite is true. I've spent my...

Thank you so much for all of the feedback!! I can't wait to get started, even though I'm already teary-eyed thinking about all of the positions I think it would really benefit me!

Thanks for the responses! I've only done yoga once in a class. Years ago my boss paid for someone to come in for several weeks & teach a class to the staff. I remember I cried during the class & had no idea why. Probably because I CAN'T relax!

At the counseling center that I go to, there is a yoga therapy group that I am considering. I know that Yoga can be very beneficial for managing C-PTSD & was just wondering if any of you had ever tried it, or had any success with it. :)

I know how that feels to be at work not knowing if you will be able to hold it together. It's terrifying in itself, which only makes the panic worse! I'm a nurse and have had to leave work a few times in the last year because I couldn't get it together. Told them I was sick and had to leave...

I hope so @Shortie ...it's really hard when you NEED support more than anything & those who you should be able to count on can't be trusted. It hurts.

Thank you! I know what you mean about a complete stranger showing you what caring really means...I have one person that I have trusted over the last ten years that has never given up on me, or made me feel like I am not worthy of love. Of course, my family doesn't care for her! I consider her...

That is the point I am at right now @Ironlady ...if I don't break away from the control, I won't make it. I will NEVER heal, & will continue down this same path of self-destruction & hate to even imagine where that will lead me. I don't want to hurt anyone...even the ones who have seriously...

I'm the same way...My Dad doesn't live here (I left the state to get away from him), but my sisters & I all live in the same town very close together. When I moved here, I thought it would be great to be close to them, but I think it opened up a whole new set of wounds for me & I've realized...

@Ironlady it is very difficult without support, but I would rather find support from people who want to understand me and build me up than from those who would rather keep me feeling helpless and defenseless. I'm trying to get STRONGER....not break into a million pieces and that is exactly how...

I'm learning more and more each day that I may have to step away from my entire family through this process. As much as it hurts, I have to learn who I really am, and stop the cycle of being their puppet on a string. :( A very good friend/counselor who worked with me a lot after my abusive...

It was okay...finished my "timeline." She did write it on paper this time because she thought it upset me a little to see it on the board. All of these years I've tried to minimize all the bad stuff. Seeing it in writing (adding up all of the years full of trauma & the number of traumatic...

Thank you so much for your encouraging words @NineFiftyFour ! :) :hug: I think I might need to read them again while I'm sitting in the waiting room having a panic attack.

@lostforgottensoul , I think she is just trying to get me comfortable with how I feel about all of it...once we get done, we are going to sit and look at it for a while. :meh:

I think it's all a part of the disassociation part of PTSD...I used to have a "pretend family" when I was a little girl. I found comfort from this pretend family that I didn't receive from my own. It's a method of survival!! I see nothing wrong with having fantasies like this as an adult, as...

Had my second appointment with the EMDR therapist yesterday. Things I hate about therapy already: 1. You only have an hour...do you talk about ALL the bad stuff the whole time & risk looking insane, or do you throw some good stuff in there too? I feel like she should know all of the good...

Thank you @Carolion ...same to you! I'm a good listener! This site is a great place of support.

I really like this!! Makes me want to work on a letter to my "little self." :hug:

Thanks @Mim28 I have no clue who can teach me how to do that though!!

@Mim28 , I've been thinking I really need to take up something that would keep my hands busy. I pick at my fingers constantly...until they bleed. Nervous habit since I was a child. My fingers look so bad, it's embarrassing! My thumbs are the worst & I hide them all the time. I HATE when...

Yes I know exactly what you mean...I think I've had that sensation since I was a child actually.

My Dad is STILL doing it!

That makes sense. I'm at that point of exhaustion.

I haven't started the EMDR yet...I've seen the therapist only once so far, but she said it's up to me when we begin the EMDR. I'm not good at making those kinds of decisions, I wish she would just tell ME when to start!