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I totally understand that feeling.EveHarrington I have never felt I belonged anywhere. Trying desperately to connect at some level with people. I know that my feelings started very young 5-6, I realize that this was not my fault it was our caregivers who made us feel this way. As an adult, still...

Congrats, I tried abilify but it didn't work. But I am on the new ability called rexulti. This supposedly has less side effects and yes it's amazing. But I am a freak about weight, one of my many issues. So I am cutting in half the smallest dose and trying to function. It's a struggle, I want...

Imagine, needing to review responses to figure out, I still have no clue. I have only survived, but living, enjoying life, no how to have fun for myself..clueless. Still working someday soon I really have to fight to survive. Oh man this is a confusing one.

I have a difficult time believing you can possibly measure what we could have been to what we have to struggle to be now. Has it given we are different perspective on the world..OMG yes, is it a positive influence- maybe I made sure my children received all the love and care I could possibly...

I don't even know what to say, but you are all amazing. Life gives you roadblocks but you are plowing through them. Keep on fighting, don't ever believe it can't get better. Notice every little thing. Thank you for your bravery

I am grateful for my wonderful wife and my 2 grown son's. My wonderful therapist that has given so much of himself My fur babies My being able to get dressed for work today, haven't made it out the door yet but it's looking good. God's love and support in all times good and bad

I hate to eat. The anxiety of sitting at a table in any situation is anxiety causing. Yes, I have issues with controling food, but now I inhale just to get it over with. Yes, childhood, not enough food, guilt over eating food, Mother actually had a lock on the fridge. Was this normal? I think not.

I have all types of bathroom issues. No one is supposed to hear you. No one is supposed to know. Young child told not to make any noise when peeing, pee on your hand to be silent.fear confusion.. Raped as a child caused major tears, bleeding, pain. Never tell, suffered through the pain and shame...

Hi all, Hope maybe you can assist. I am 51 and have been in therapy, I think 5 yrs. I have gotten better, was so depressed and overwhelmed with anxiety, I couldn't work. My problems is that most therapy sessions, I cannot retain one session to the next. Pieces, positive words, my therapist...

Amazing song, I have played it so many times. @VioletButterfly God Bless

Being the youngest girl, I was my mother main confident. My sister left for college never came back. My brothers violence escalating to horrible levels. Never any peace, home should be safe, ours never was. Yes I believe we are all touched by this. But as adults you should understand right from...

Yes Rosy, People don't deserve your love and loyalty if they have nothing for you. Painful lesson, since I know I would do anything for my sons. Abuse didn't steal all the good I have to give.

Cutting ties, for me it took 11yrs after my mother's husband abuses my son. He went to jail, she stayed by his side. She forgave him for abusing her grandson. I tried to not blow up my son's lives up, I tried to allow her in our lives. All this time being pulled further and further down...

He is with you and he is so sorry for that moment of totally despair. If he could take it back he would. No excuse,, he is so very sorry, he is with you spiritual. He understands now, he didn't in his confusion. I believe this with all my heart. I hope this brings you a little comfort. Please...

Yes obsess about the future. Go as far to think I will be one of those homeless woman pushing a shopping cart...My mind has great fun with me. By the way Void your doggy pic looks like my Bella, so cute.

I don't think about trauma so much but I do live with the repercussions everyday. I don't think anyone day goes by that I can get away from it. I have to accept that this is my life and I can only do so much to control it. There is no pre-trauma me, so I don't know what's really normal.

Self medicating is my biggest fear. I know that opoids pull me out of depression but I know how dangerous this is.

Yes, totally. I do that at therapyour also. it's funny how many things we do, positive and negative. Regardless of our stories.

Wow, yes struggling everyday. I just want to wake up without exhaustion, body pain. Sitting right now, trying desperately to get in the shower to go to work. The tears are right there, will i ever be normal. What ifs circle through my head. I can't fall down again. I worked so hard to get back...

Hope you can find some peace in time. Thinking of you. Sending prayers

Yes love them...

Thank you,

Wow, so sorry you are on that roller-coaster. Sending good thoughts and please remember that it will get better. It will, God is with you and loves us. Hang tight the ride gets bumpy but we are strong.

Thank you

Thank you for sharing. I love that you can journal and your writing a book to bring awareness to the horrible way we treat children in state or institutions. The rampant abuse needs to be exposed. Wishing you the best on your journey.