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Something's bothering me right now. I just got back from the hospital with my mum where she had an ECG monitor fitted to her to measure her heart rate. I came into the cubicle with her and the doctor drew the curtains. My mother lifted her top and she was wearing her bra underneath. The doctor...

I've been 90% single all my adult life. I've never been attracted to women so that's not the case for me. I see all kinds of women all the time hand in hand with a man in the street and it makes me feel awful. What do they do that is so great that a man wants them and stays around?? A magic...

Have you ever had the most wonderful intentions with a man only to realize later on that he only wanted you for a f*ck buddy? And you were together for several months, or years? Well I fell for it. It was the man I lost my virginity to. I didn't have a CLUE about men. I don't know what...

It makes me sad and very angry that society feels like it's okay for children to sexually assault/molest/rape children. People think the same thing about women... it really, really p*sses me off. Women are NOT saints! They do bad things!! Why do people feel sympathy (of all things) for women...

I don't. Not anymore. I can't even laugh at the simpsons. I sometimes feel like laughing at others when it isn't appropriate to laugh. I think it's called shauden fraude :notworthy: . It's really weird as I've never actually laughed out loud at others and I know it's wrong?? But it's there...

I can't help but feel like I'm pulling down others - and keeping them down - just because I am not very healed. My healing would most certainly have a positive knock on effect to those around me. I feel like everything going wrong around me in others is my fault in some weird subconscious...

I find the law of attraction very interesting... BUT the experts in it say that whatever has happened in your life - good and bad - you have attracted it to yourself. So I don't get it... ...are these experts saying that it's a child's own fault if they get abused by anyone? Or that it is a...

Hi, My niece is visiting tomorrow and I feel happy to see her yet... very bloody anxious. I find children quite draining and I get cold and stiff and boring around them, it's almost as if I'm cold-blooded with no love inside of me. I have no children myself - I wonder if this is why. Or is it...

I hate depression for robbing me of what's left of my youth (I'm 28 in September) and making my life just too hard. Only now, am I beginning to realize how much of my depression and feeling different is actually caused by being molested. I just feel really behind compared to "normal people"...

I made a point as a child of remembering the part of the abuse that gave me feelings in my body. There were other details but as a child I thought I might forget the "main part" of what happened if I took note of the rest of what happened I now wish I had taken note of those things because I...

A teenager from Angel Road children's home in London (1987). I was 3.