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Half an hour before I have to set off. Breathing, breathing, breathing...

I am about to go to an interview for a new job. I haven't had a job for a few years as the anxiety always gets the better of me. I can't keep running forever, I have to face this. I know the anxiety will go if I don't go to the interview but I will be so disappointed for letting it win if I...

Thanks so much KP, I'm off to get ready now. xx

Eeeeeeekkkkk!:eek::eek: I have an interview for a job in a new craft store today at 3pm. I am terrified!!! Although I have a complex form of PTSD (multi trauma) my biggest trigger is work. I was blamed for the death of a patient when I was nursing - which I was innocent of. The nursing...

Big hugs my friend x

@Pottershand Hi there sweetie! I think that those who have hurt us lie to themselves, they keep the lie up to justify themselves and keep their own guilt at bay. The past friendship means little to them because they paint us in a bad light and believe that it is our fault. Meeting half...

@Pottershand Thank you so much for your kind words, I really do appreciate them. I am glad there are people who truly understand. I too seem to think that these people will one day come to their senses and I guess my pride is hurt because I never got an apology for the hurt they caused so I can...

I'm feeling :mad: and very jealous. I know I shouldn't be but, with feeling so poorly, I just can't seem to help it. A family member who I have great difficulty with has just bought a luxury 3 bedroom apartment (fully furnished). She only works 20 hours a week and gets minimum wage. We found...

Ah yes, the good old £3 parking same as at my hospital. And the queuing for a parking space! The nurse at my GP surgery told me I had to have a blood test but the Phlebotomist is on holiday, they said I could have them done at the hospital but at £3 a time and having to be there at 8am to get...

Hey @KP the nut Let me know that new date, if it is after my Medieval Market and Graham has to go away I might be able to come over and be your private nurse for a few days so you can rest post op. Meanwhile I'm right here if you want to chat. I need to see what days hubby is off and we can...

Exhausted, weepy and irritable. Headaches, swollen mouth and tongue, aches and pains and cold. I feel like telling everyone to get lost (and that's being polite). I know it's the anaemia but I'm sick of being sick and fed up of being fed up! :arghh; I went to the doctors yesterday and was told...

I think it is only natural that we become vigilant again when we are facing the deeper, more painful parts of our traumas. I know that I am more vigilant at the moment because I am unwell (anaemia) but that is not a bad thing. I am more open to attack and hurt when I am poorly so I am 'on...

@intothelight I understand that, you feel you take a step forward and get knocked back 2 more leaving you weak and shaky. I guess we just have to focus on the positive step even if it was a small one and the negatives much bigger. A little ray of light makes a dark room bearable. :hug:

I feel totally drained. My husband has had a week off and we had a few nice days out but I am now exhausted. My periods are getting worse and I wonder, seen as I'm 50, will they ever end? I am getting too many and they are horrid and leave me anaemic. All I want to do is sleep but I'm so...

Rain but also very warm.

I think the people involved are very messed up in the head and even if they apologised for what they did to me I am not foolish enough to take them back into my life. I have learnt not to cast my pearls before swine so to speak. I had not thought about taking the ball back Fridayjones so thanks...

I had a very strange and disturbing dream last night but that is nothing new. I actually slept better than I have done in ages. Still too hot here, I could do with being at the seaside as I'm finding it difficult to breathe.

@Anrish So sorry you are afraid of thunder storms. I love them. We had an amazing electrical storm at 4am recently and stood at my window watching the whole thing - totally awesome. It is still boiling hot here, at least 26 degrees C, a good storm would clear the air as I find my asthma gets...

@Let It Be - fantastic news! Hang on in there and soon you will be able to relax (after dancing round your house in celebration)!

Thank you everyone for your replies, you have given me lots to think about. I like @FridayJones Idea of questioning/arguing with my thoughts and @marylouise idea of a ritual. I don't think this is going to be easy, I still care a great deal about the people who hurt me - I have no hatred at...

It sure is Philippa - totally exhausting. I just want to stop it. I guess this is going to take some strength of mind, strength that I do not have right now.

I have made real progress over the past year or two but there is one thing that still drags me down. People from my past (and one family member from the present who treats me strangely). They still seem to live in my head, I think about them - what I would say to them if I saw them again. I...

Too hot! :eek:

It's very hot, I am so tired and feel like I'm melting. It is probably the anaemia so I'm sat watching the Commonwealth Games with my feet up.

I am looking forward to a day out on Monday. It is my Son's 24th birthday and we are going to Llangollen in Wales for the day. I am also looking forward to the 3 Medieval Markets I am having a stall at - one in September in my home town and 2 in October (Formby - near Liverpool and Stockport...