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I'm overwhelmed and crying. Called my designated reality-check and they agree that it really has been one thing after another. My dog needs surgery and it's scheduled for next week, first available appointment because I'm panicked. Several other stressful but solvable problems too. I know...

It's great that you're reconnecting with writing, it's a wonderful tool for healing. Have you seen the trauma diaries section yet? Everyone is allowed a diary to work through things and sometimes others will comment- not nearly as often as in discussions on the rest of the forum, but that...

Physically I'm a bit ill, things hurt. Everything else is vague and bland.

I remind myself of what a friend told me- the only way a setback can happen is that you were trying, it's like how addicts can't relapse until they decide to stop. Sometimes you're doing something new and haven't seen how it works before. It's okay to make a mistake so long as you keep trying...

In a way I see your three examples as inter-related. It's a recurrent theme of pushing someone else down for a sense of 'better-than', and it's false, harmful or just not okay. I'm sure quite a few of us have been stepped on to boost someone's ego. Sad, isn't it?

Tired and everything either hurts or feels funny, sore and tense without much reason for any of it. Physically I'm such a mess that I don't have time nor space for emotions. Those will have to wait.

Something is off-balance, but I can't tell what. Frustration at the entire universe? Anticipation of some subconscious fragment bursting forth soon? I'm already physically ill from something and it's not even 10am yet.

Aww, thanks @Jigsaw Puzzle and @Recovery4Me I'm sorry, I'm confused about why I'm crying so I'll try that be nicer to me thing, I'm getting out a coloring book and some good music, maybe some tea.

Glad to hear you'll be parting ways with that, um, yucky person. Struggled to find a polite term for that one, because that's just absurdly inexcusable behavior. It's awesome that you realize you deserve better friends than that, you're totally worth it. I joke about knowing I'm useful...

I'm not sure why I'm crying. I made it to brunch, then cancelled everything else for today because I'm crying and I don't know why and the few supportive type people I have are all busy with their own struggles right now, I should be helping with theirs instead.

I'm trying to convince myself this is a tolerable level of anxious. Friends invited me to brunch. Brunch is a new thing to me, I used to sleep until noon everyday and always missed it. Afterwards mom and I are going to mow my lawn, so that's adding a bit of stress too.

I'm bothered by how abruptly my feelings are changing, can't figure out what's going on.

I'm numb and distanced enough to smirk to myself about it. Oh well. Maybe I'll do better at staying present tomorrow.

Being aware of the pattern is a very solid starting point, nicely done on recognizing what needs to change. As you're shedding the last few people, I'm guessing you mean starting brand-new friendships? In the early 'getting to know you' phase of a friendship, it's a good idea to set some small...

Haven't yet learned a healthy way to handle that, but I did teach myself to replace 'flinch' with 'freeze'. It's not any improvement, it just prevents anyone from asking about it if I don't leap out of my skin over a sudden noise. I wouldn't recommend it, just want to let you know that it's a...

I think it's angry-sad-resentful-rage-depression. It's pretty far below the surface so it doesn't show on my face. I don't understand why that part seems important.

It's that heavy empty feeling again. I'm sure there's another word for it but I can't think of it.

My latest T was amused by "I'm not going to cry about that, it'd be a waste of mascara"

Thank you @The Albatross you've got a good point too, I didn't think of having to make sure the boundary stays where I put it. @Britt.f7 I'm sure that must hurt a lot, but you're doing the best that you can. I'm relieved that my attempted boundary worked. Mum and I managed to get my lawn...

I think I did good, but mostly I'm tired from how hard it was to set a boundary with my parents. Mom handled it fairly well once we established that she is not the problem, she's just the only one capable of handling the issue without too much anger or me having a meltdown.

There's certain parts of town I just won't go to. I won't even pass through those areas to go other places. It took me a while to figure it out. I had to be there a few times before understanding what I was reacting to.

I'm happy to be re-adjusting back to the medication I'm used to. Trying my best not to worry about a friend, she's facing a challenge and keeps thanking me for not being angry with her for it. I know how that feels so I hurt too. It's a funny twinge of that guilt for not being perfect, I wish...

Kind of surprised at myself, I called my p-doc about a problem and didn't try to be tough and wait it out. I need to go back on the medication we tried to stop.

That sounds like fun, probably healing and helpful too, but really fun. I read something about a therapist that begins 'inner child' type work by having a doll representative help get things started. I guess it depends which perspective is easier to see, tending to the doll would be from the...

Post 'T-time' tired, with a whirling blur of anger, resentments and just flat out rage that I've got no clue what to do with. I'd try to shout or violently fluff every pillow in the house but I don't want to trigger the dog. Some things really bother her and I'll never be able to know why.