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    Tips On Making Therapy A Safe Experience

    I understand that, but hearing what I had to say, you'd have to be a little aware that I'm dealing with some wicked shit here, and that asking me to write out my "negative thoughts" would involve the very same whacked out stuff I mentioned right in the intake. That's a recipe for disaster...
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    Tips On Making Therapy A Safe Experience

    I think I'll look that up. My questions are in mind because he didn't call back when he said he would, forgot our appointment hour and had to call me about it, and he asked me to email him my homework, but he didn't give me his email address, so I have to find it somewhere. So to me these are...
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    Tips On Making Therapy A Safe Experience

    He's trained primarily in psychodynamic, but he has some education in CBT. I'll take it slow and see what the next session is like. If it's helpful and cool, then good, if not I can always bail. The exercise I'm working on now is helping me to sort my thoughts out, so I'm feeling pretty good...
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    Tips On Making Therapy A Safe Experience

    Hello everyone, I just entered therapy again, and I want to make sure this is a safe experience for me. I have a long history of abuse and victimization, and I seriously don't want to live through that again. My therapist seems pretty cool, but I also don't trust my perceptions really. My bar...
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    Getting Through This Without Therapy

    Hello everyone, I have some good news report. The therapist mentioned before did end up calling me back, but a day late. I ended up going to an appointment and he seems downright legit. So I'm going to work with him from hereon out. Thanks for listening to me here and offering support while I...
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    Getting Through This Without Therapy

    This is a rough situation I'm in here. I am 100% completely alone. No family. No friends. Nobody to talk to in real life, and I think I really need to talk about this stuff, because I just got retraumatized out the wazoo. Add to that the stress of finding a job, and it's not a good mix. God...
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    Getting Through This Without Therapy

    Seriously, what can I do now? I'm raw and miserable and beaten up, and I have a shit ton of responsibilities to take care of, not to mention the fact that I want to live life. Cripes, the lack of qualified mental health care is a travesty in this country.
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    Getting Through This Without Therapy

    It is hard to find, and a lot of the therapists who advertise trauma services will admit they don't have very much experience in it. How is that legal? If you did that in any other legitimate profession you'd have your license taken away.
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    Getting Through This Without Therapy

    No, this is a childhood abuse issue.
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    Getting Through This Without Therapy

    The person above didn't call back. I called around 15 therapists and none of them were a good fit, either by their own admission or my choice. Looks like I will have to rough it on my own for now. This is quite a curse I was born with.
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    Getting Through This Without Therapy

    I talked to a therapist today who really made an effort to try and help. He had some experience with torture victims; he said he wasn't a good fit, but said he was going to make some phone calls and search for someone who he think might be able to help. So he's going to call me on Monday with an...
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    Getting Through This Without Therapy

    I've been asking if they have experience with child abuse and all that good stuff. I actually found a few therapists who sound pretty good; I made appointments with them in the next few weeks. So I'll see how that goes. I have more confidence in myself now in cutting out the creeps, especially...
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    Getting Through This Without Therapy

    Thanks for the good ideas and advice everyone. My next phase is calling up general CBT therapists. If they can help me keep my head above water that's better than nothing. I called about 15 therapists/organizations today under the "trauma" phase of the search. Most of them didn't seem...
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    Getting Through This Without Therapy

    Thank you. This would be an awesome resource for me, except one point. I moved out of NYC to NJ for a job that turned really bad, so now I'm stranded in New Jersey without a car. I'm right outside NYC, but unfortunately I am no longer a resident. New Jersey is inaccessible to me right now, so...
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    Getting Through This Without Therapy

    Hey everyone, After having several bad experiences, I finally decided to try seeing a therapist again today. Unfortunately, after calling nearly all the trauma therapists in the NYC area, either none of them have any openings, or they charge at least $300 per session, no sliding scale. So it...
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    Accepting The Reality I'll Never Experience Love

    Wow, I have no idea what happened to me last night. I've been making a lot of progress forward in my life, and was pretty excited for the future. And since it was Memorial Day in the US I decided to celebrate by drinking 2 beers ... not even strong beer, PBRs. I then I had an emotional...
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    Accepting The Reality I'll Never Experience Love

    And I thank you for taking the time to talk with me tonight.
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    Accepting The Reality I'll Never Experience Love

    I'd love to get a pet, but I can't right now, I'm an apartment-dwelling nomad right now with no roots, no base, and no home to call my own. One day I might be able to do it, but it's going to be a hell of a long time before I can do that. I live in NYC so pet ownership is like a privilege for...
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    Accepting The Reality I'll Never Experience Love

    Then why does every other civilized country on earth mandate things like expansive vacation time and leave? It's not what adults do, it's that Americans are exploited and they accept this exploitation when every other citizen on earth realizes it's ridiculous. Employment issues aside, I'm not...
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    Accepting The Reality I'll Never Experience Love

    I'm in America and we work most of our lives away with little free time and no legally mandated vacation. I'm not sure I'd even have the free time to discover "love". If we were ethical like every other country in the civilized world? Maybe I'd have a chance. But here I have to dedicate the vast...
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    Accepting The Reality I'll Never Experience Love

    Hello everyone, I'm reflecting on my life and I'm realizing that I'll probably never experience love or kindness in my lifetime. Frankly, I have no idea what it even is, and in my 30s, I really have no interest in discovering it. I couldn't find it even if I tried in all honesty. Do you know...
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    Childhood The Stigma Of Child Abuse

    I had a few bad experiences with therapists, so maybe I'm just generalizing here. I still have a lot of room to work with, I guess I'm just being childish about all this. This sucks and nothing's gonna make it not suck. Crappy reality to have to accept, but that's life, and it could be worse, right?
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    Childhood The Stigma Of Child Abuse

    For me my life isn't really worth living with these problems, so I either get them taken care of, or I really don't know. I haven't had anything even resembling a normal life, beyond being able to get an education and work jobs. I've never been able to enjoy sex, haven't had friends in over a...
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    Childhood The Stigma Of Child Abuse

    I appreciate all the "likes" and everything, whatever those are worth, but does anyone here have anything they can SAY to me??? I thought this place was supposed to be a support group, not a "click like" group. Otherwise I wouldn't have shared this with you all.
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    Childhood The Stigma Of Child Abuse

    Hello everyone, I'm slowly working to get myself into therapy right now, and I feel pretty pathetic about it all. I was abused as a kid and I feel like I'm some kind-of f*cked up freak/loser because I have all of these crazy problems from it. I've spent so long with these issues that I...
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