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I'm feeling apprehensive about the work xmas party next week. I actively avoid situations which shout "potential danger" at me so being in town, drunk people everywhere, strangers everywhere, in the dark is a really frightening & triggering thing for me. I'm feeling nervous as my friend who...

I have a support worker at the rape crisis place I go & she is wonderful. I have spoken to an old manager in another dept who said a job was coming up, I'm wondering whether I should take it and start afresh.

I went back to work on reduced hours on 13th August and gradually built up the hours. A month ago I tried to go back properly and it didn't work, my Dr put me back on reduced hours. Going back has been so hard, there has been and continues to be so much change. We have moved offices, had our...

My relationship with men. There are probably only 3 men that I can trust, to feel safe around. That's my dad, my brother and my best friend. Anyone else is a potential threat that I need to move away from and find a safe place. In work when guys come to talk to anyone in my rank of desks I will...

Sorry you were in so much pain KP I really hope it's much better now

Glad you're home & on the mend

Thank you @Lucycat[/USER] I'm a civil servant, I work in HR full time. It can be really stressful especially lately, we have so much work on and people have moved on who I got on with really well and I find myself thinking how lucky I was at the time. I used to say I love my job but since going...

:)I hope everything goes well and no more cancellations. Will be thinking of you

Two months ago I would have said flashbacks & anxiety but now I have the right medication at the max dose my anxiety is easier to manage. So now it's flashbacks & dissociation for which the dissociation may be my way of bypassing the intense pain I feel physically & mentally. Things aren't...

I'm glad you are not letting your rape hold you back in going to uni again and bettering yourself. It shows very strong character and great determination for which you should be so proud.

I've been there, I worked for sainsburys as a checkout team leader, everyday taking verbal blows from customers & managers. I cried so many times in that job and dispaired at how they would rely on people's kindness to cover shifts. They left me to deal with issues and as duty managers gave me...

Work has been so incredibly difficult for so many reasons. It can be helpful sometimes being in work if I feel okay enough to engage in the team humour but a lot of the time I don't. Most of the time it's just putting on a show until I can go home then eat to stop what I've held back at work...

I am struggling so much with emotions. I've been able to keep it together in the last 6 weeks of a work phased return plan, but only by eating non stop as soon as I get home. I've put on 1st 7lbs since going back to work and not I've taken myself off of my sleeping pills my nightmares are...

@TonyG thank you for your comments. I repressed the memories for 6 years and now I have them it's a constant battle to cope with the flashbacks. I know I can't carry on the way I am so for me I feel I need to attack this and stop it from pulling me under by talking instead of locking it back up...

Thank you @Hashi I really appreciate that. @Samantha_38 thank you for the suggestion I let her see what I had written the week before so she knew but I wanted to say it myself and stop it controlling me. I think I need to change my approach, I want so much to feel some relief from the...

@Jane.l yes I do dissociate but I don't realise until something brings me back and then I'm not necessarily completely with it for some time after. @Hashi your description about your fears of speaking about it- I feel the same. Like I'm riding a wave just staying on my surf board but talking...

I can talk about other things in my life that affect me but not the incident. I end up talking about that to fill the silence so I don't feel so much like I'm wasting her time. @Hashi I have been seeing her once a week for 6 weeks. The sessions are a max of 20. I do feel safe with her it's the...

Hello, I'm not in therapy as in psychologist/psychiatrist. I have one to one weekly sessions with a rape crisis support worker. I've been trying to get to a point where I talk specifically about my rape and failing. She said that often people don't give lots of specific detail or explain very...

I know that problem too well. I have to put on a face at home & out because few know I have PTSD I smile & sometimes go too far the other way talking too much and being too chirpy. I've found it harder lately to get the happy/normal exterior right. Are you seeing anyone? A counsellor or...

I feel the same. I hope that in the time since your original post @Kas_Can_Fly things have got better. I find that if I feel sick from memories it makes me feel bloated to. Sometimes a Rennie helps but I think it's a psychological remedy for me. Also mints help but when I'm specifically reliving...

I have never spoken about what happened to me. It took several attempts to write it, I kept going back to it and filling in the bits I couldn't bear to write about as I found the courage to put it on a page. I have to start talking about why happened at my next T session so that will be my aid...

@KwanYingirl goodness you really had been through it. I feel quite inspired that you have gone through all of that and found strength as well as ways to cope. There was & is the stress of moving back after having to sell my house and dealing with losing that independence. In addition my family...

Hi, I joined this site a few weeks ago and have been familiarising myself with it. I thought it was time for me to be brave & introduce myself properly. I suffer from PTSD which was diagnosed on 27th March after repressed traumatic memories from the last 6 years started coming back. A month...

@Notsowild thank you for the suggestions I have a phased return now set up. @Suzetig there are so many good suggestions there. I particularly like the scented hand cream idea. I have just the thing! Thank you all for you amazing support, I'm so grateful.

@Hashi thank you do much that's really helpful. Got a call from my dr an hour ago, been waiting all day anxiously. Going back to work tomorrow with an open mind, & no expectations. @Springer80 I don't want them to know because none of my family knows I was raped or thy I have PTSD. I spend the...