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I would say the same about you and I'm geeking hard over that awesome talk you just gave me about time dilation. MORE!!! Sophia, you are truly a beautiful worship dancer and inspire the kids you lead :)

Yes I had chocolate today too HAHAHA that always makes me unreasonably happy but it's the little things... And we're raining for no good reason here in SoCal so I'm not happy about the sun being in blustery cold UK, but glad for you :)

I survived my first panic attack in 2 years (and before that it had been another 2 years - they are very rare since I turned 30 so they're not fun for me since I assumed I'd "healed" or "outgrown" them), but they force me to love myself through it and to accept every part of me. "Integration" as...

Ah someone wrote my 5 already lol Dogs are AWESOME!! I actually admire you for your #5. Friends have NEVER been enough for me unless it's a best friend for life - I want ONE person to focus on and love and give things to. That's why I'm on a yearlong man fast - I needed to break this addiction...

Yay! I started working with the Thoughts section of the pacifica app based on CBT and it's been so helpful to see ho w cruel I am to myself in my head! They deal with exactly these distorted cognitions you mention - they are so rampant!!

1) I had my first panic attack in years last night when sh*t hit the fan 2) I'm not totally sure how to handle these b/c i've had maybe 2 in the last 10 years so it was pretty horrifying 3) My dog wasn't around, which made it harder 4) My ex was stoned so was not helpful for a while and had to...

No you didn't, mine was pink

Oh man this is why @Recovery4Me resonates with me - I came on to say: I'm a grateful believer of Christ and recovering codependent. (That's the Celebrate Recovery version of the 12-step program we do - we have 8 steps I believe that corresponds to the Beatitudes, though I've heard we have 16...

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It was warmer in my beloved hometown of NYC today than it was in this purgatory of SoCal that I'm stuck in so I'm not okay with the weather gods. At all.

Hungry. Sightly irritated at myself for not going to get food. Sightly distracted cuz I'm playing a mindfulness (YES it doesn't escape me) recording b/c I can't do one thing at once. Forgiving of self.

Ok let me know when you figure it out cuz I need it lol (also feel free to emailso we don't spam this thread heehee sorry everyone)

haha I love those diaries! I finished a 5-year one recently (most of it is empty lol) and I started another one last year around my birthday in the summer. Today what made me so happy was singing at the top of my lungs during worship at church - we had a 5-piece band and surround sound today so...

Hm...I'm dredging up the old pubescent memories to compare and actually... yeah no probably the polar opposite lol, but similarly striking nonetheless

Amen! But don't you ever feel jealous? I'm still trying to get over my jealousy that I have never been normal and never will be so I can't have the house and husband and health insurance and nice vacations my normal friends have. What did you do to get over that?

I came on here to say LHOTP and that's what you already wrote! I'm blown away and so happy and smiling right now. That was my tradition as a child - I would wear wool nightgowns and walk down the hall with a fake candle and drink hot cocoa while reading. Perhaps immersing yourself in the...

First - best thread ever right now :) I'm actually listening to a prayer called Come As You Are based on Psalm 63:1-4 on the Abide app that I just downloaded today after someone on the Pacifica app recommended it. I'm using the firelight theme that shows a candle and bible and soft guitar music.

haha yeah I couldn't be normal if I tried so I never tried in my life!

This struck me so much, the way magical realism books do. I hope you understand how deeply when I call it a modern myth for our times - and I mean "our" this forum. Myths to me are real, realer than history. Somehow this speaks to every love story I've ever written and every one I will write...

I think @C j gets me :) I think many many people here get me That is really nice for a "weirdo"

Each atom remembers their heart song (I might have just made myself cry...not that that's hard for CPTSD me :P) SKYBLU

Awwww yay that feels so glittery and powdery and yummy thank you!

Yes me too! RIGHT NOW! lolol and some food I agree - I don't know why things are so much better like this but they are - and more comfortable!

HUG @Ninja! I always want one of those so you can email me anytime you want one :) I also need a massage. Oh I relate to this so much. I'm on a man fast for a year since I became a Christian and it's been just horrible lol. I am the least grateful faster and I often believe God hates me and...

Grateful for the Pacifica app I just discovered and especially the CBT based thought reframing exercises it's teaching me - I need it! Grateful for amazing worship at church today For my dog's father (my ex) taking me to see LEGO Batman yesterday cuz I really needed a laugh, feeding me today...