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Can feel the memories trying to come back to haunt me....and trying really hard to stay grounded and do something different this year. In past I would isolate and hide from the world...this time will go see psychiatrist and then be with friends and maybe post here in the meantime.

I am in ottawa Hi I am in Ottawa, although the post is old, thought I'd send a reply

It wasn't as bad as I thought Hello everyone, So I finally got the nerve to tell my T what was going on. I couldn't hold it in any longer and figured I am paying her to help me, so I told her. I told her how I feel hopeless somedays and just want to stay in bed, how somedays don't want to...

I have heard my T say this many times, just when I read it tonight, it clicked. I have been struggling for 30 yrs, I guess I cant expect to heal overnight

Thanks Bec, you post makes alot of sense. How do I set boundaries with therapist? I guess I just have to tell her how I am feeling and try to reassure her I wont act on my thoughts, and if I feel in real danger I will take necessary steps, but I am not sure how to get her to believe me. I...

seeking nirvana, thanks for your advice, you understand exactly how I feel. What I want to do and what I will do are two different things. It is hard to explain when I see her thought, it is almost like I lose my voice when someone asks what I am doing. Veiled I know that I need to be...

I have been so down these past few days. Everytime I wake up I think that I would be better off dead. It is a fleeting thought sometimes, sometimes have to fight it a bit more. I have been going to psychologist, but havent told her this yet. I am wondering would it even help if I told her...

I understand what you are saying. I have a hard time with eye contact and now she reminds me to look at her when I start to space out. Hiding from your T probably won't help, but I don't see why you can change seating arrangements where you are not directly in front of her, to the side or at...

Every morning I get up thinking the same thing: Why do I even bother, no one would notice if I were gone. Sometimes it is just a few seconds and then I distract myself with forcing myself to get to work etc. Other times, I am paralyzed with fear, just wanting to stay in bed. Other times, I sit...

Hello Awakening, This is a normal reaction and your therapist has probably heard it before and has experience on how to help you cope. Both of you could work on a plan to help you through the next few weeks. There are several options and you just have to figure out what is best for you...

Have apt with family doc tomorrow. My therapist is away until Aug 20th. :( I never thought I would say this, but I wish she was around so I can see her sooner. This coming from me, who avoids going to T and leaves the house at the last minute. I wish I could have some hope for future. But...

Just starting to feel angry SheCat, I hear what you are saying. I understand. It is just recently that I have been even able to feel anger. I have written so many letters to him. In fact had to write a Victim Impact Statement. Alot of good that did, he got probation and anger management...

It does help to know there are people who understand. Although, I am saddened that there are so many of you who also suffer from PTSD. This has taken 10 yrs of my life, and I am only 35. So these past 10 yrs have been like a waste. I have lost alot because of trauma, my career, trust, faith...

It feels like I am in a deep dark hole and everytime I try to climb out, I get kicked back down. That is what recovering from PTSD feels like, and PTSD is kicking the s--t out of me. Even with people who care about me around, it is hard to be with them. Part of me died so long ago. I don't...

Ok, so I have met with this new psychiatrist for 3 sessions. The first session was ultra anxious, second session wasn't much better and she seemed frustrated with my answers. She said to me "It is like pulling teeth to get any information". Well I had written out all the information, because...

Anyone there to join me in chat? Please?

It seems like I am spiralling "there" again. I am trying to stop it, by not isolating, but being around people right now, just causes me to panic. I keep telling myself this too shall pass. But I guess lack of sleep makes it difficult to think clearly. Some days all I can do is cry and lay in...

A suggestion Hi angel, I am sorry you are goign through this. I understand about nightmares, it is so hard isn't it. What works for me sometimes (I have recurring nightmares) is T told me to write nightmare out and then change ending to what you want it to turn out. Read it before you go to...

In Flashbacks I do Hello, not sure if it is normal, but when I have flashback, I do hear things and see things. I guess it depends on what you are hearing. For me it is all related to trauma, so doctor says that is PTSD related, if I were hearing voices coming from out of the blue, then she...

Hello Everyone, Feel strange to come back here. I was in very deep dark depression. Didn't have energy to even come online. I am battling my way out now. I have come to realize I cannot do this alone.

he won, he said if he couldn't be with me, he would make sure no else would be with me. i left him after many years. now i cant trust any man. i can be intimate with any man. i broke up with my current bf because of this. would get so triggered when he got angry or try to get close to me...

talked to T yesterday. she will be talking with group leader to see what is happening. this group is supposed to help me see that i am not alone and others have survived and overcome. just some ladies are in different path to healing. for them anger is what gets them through. i havent been able...

hi becvan, yeah havent been around in awhile, went into isolation mode for 2 months i guess. couldn't deal with anything. broke up with my boyfriend and sort of needed to sort things out. started going back to t and then started this support group. it is good because i meet with women who...

hello everyone, i am in a support group for women who have been in domestic violence situations. many woman there are very angry (and they should be), but anger of any sorts, even justified anger is a huge trigger for me. i cant seem to get angry at all. and one lady there talks about she wants...

I was the hearbreaker - why do I still hurt Wow, this is really tough. I am now struggling with whether or not I made the right choice. I never know if I am making the right choice. Does this happen to anyone else? Also the guilt is tremendous. I find myself wanting to pick up the phone...