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(Sorry I don't know how to add the prefix box thingy) Once again I'm happy I found this site years ago. From October 21st to Nov 21st I've been in a cycle starting with deep depression that flipped one day into weeks of mania and heightened libido. I'd had this whole scenario in addition to...

I consider myself to be on a permanent religious hiatus. Since my delayed onset in 2013. So many things I made myself forget. My father, psycho who made my early years h*ll, drove us home from church (where he probably prayed for forgiveness for what he did at home) and decided to yell one...

@bellbird sounds wonderful. Enjoy the day. Its 4:30 am here. I've been up since 3 ish. Wrote some of my fears into that beautiful diary I bought for my mental slime. I probably just ranted the whole thing but hey its a space to do that. Hello Darkness my old friend, I'm up again at 3 am.

Feeling a bit excited and hopeful. I found out that one of the other women in my gaming group has ptsd and bipolar. She was diagnosed years ago. We exchanged info so we could talk.

Day 1 of my bipolar med. Its made me sleepy. Just got up from nap. Hope ill be awake for thanksgiving. It won't start helping with my symptoms till 4 weeks. Hoping I don't do anything weird today.

Therapy today as well. Felt I needed extra support for damage control. I'm trying to see what lifestyle changes ill have to go through to help control this and keep things like weight gain down. Goodbye to hazelnut coffee and sugary stuff. Anything that could be a stimulant is out. Making up...

When on a night you are handling a secondary diagnosis your pet chooses to sleep with you and not leave your side. He only sleeps with me when I'm in distress. When you play a game online and have to restrain yourself from giving some idiot who says surviving a certain monster gave him ptsd...

Depends what is in them. Though the safe choice is the stew. Hot chocolate or alcohol

I'm thinking of how p*seed I am after diagnosis yesterday. I now have CPTSD and Bipolar. My diagnosis was correct. And I hate that I was right. The poison in my father's mind is mine now. If you think about it in a way I get to finally fight him for all of the things he put us through. These...

I want to f*cking scream! Tonight I've been diagnosed with bipolar as well. F*CCCCCCCCKKKKKK! I DONT WANT TO END UP GOING TO THE ER IF I GET OUT OF CONTROLL. I just want to f*cking get drunk. But I cant. My husbands at so what really is going to change from now. Are you getting it that I...

:hug: hope all goes well. I'm leaving in a few minutes for my appointment. I'm scared about this appointment. I already ended up obsessively cleaning the house. Had to make myself go play a game because I wound up so much. It calmed me down and now I get to ride 45 mins to my appointment...

Thinking about my med appointment tonight. I most likely will have to sign a release so we can talk with my husband there. The questions ill have to answer that I go through every time. "Are you feeling suicidal? Self harm? " I've discussed things off and on that she will bring up. Might do...

Hmm I can't cut my hair yet for trauma reasons. So not being able to shave. Legs aren't bare , don't care. Journaling or meditating?

:hug: hopefully you can still make changes to help. Somewhat happy because I'm still in possession of myself. No other phrase for it but f*cked because I'm geting an official secondary diagnosis tomorrow. I'm worried what the new med will do to me. Side effects, emotionally and all. Will I...

Listening to a lot of different things. I was so sad to hear Chester lost his battle with depression etc. I hate it when we loose someone

@Lionheart777 its not stupid. Its actually beautiful you can think that way. I honestly have trouble with this. My family just got through things that would have been worse if I had died years ago. Beyond them I have no actual idea of why I'm still here. I'm a wife and mother but those...

A few years ago I completely lost holiday poker face. My brother in law was pushy with a mistletoe ball he had brought and I had a full on flashback. I went into a room that nobody else was in and had myself a merry little breakdown. I listened to meditation etc to help me bring myself to...

Hope you get the relief you need @Lionheart777. I have therapy today. Last week I actually made her say holy sh*t. I'd glossed over my symptoms related to my recent mess and the fact that I had both of these things riding me as well as an addiction and nearly lost last time , but did it all...

Knowledge that I absolutely CAN handle a crisis period better than I thought I could. I'm a big girl now that I can ask for help. That after a few weeks I recognized this as previous symptoms and instead of completely freaking out, I went researching to attack what in my head was attacking me...

I'm a "well there's worse things" about things that happened. I tend to downplay and save the compassion for someone else. My list of things that didn't happen is sexual assault and broken bones. I've been bruised knocked around and I'm still walking. Maybe because my mother lived on all the...

@Mee I guess I say only because I know others have physically had worse things. @DharmaGirl I was also rejected by my mother. " How can you do this to me" with her back turned after I told my parents I was pregnant. And made to be in the Sunday school day care with other women's children to...

I slept all night. Now before you cuss me out about it, I have not slept a full night the past 3 weeks. I'm feeling what I'd call good. Balanced. Like myself for another day. This is the contentment of a perfect temperature bath with no interruptions from absolutely anything else. Is it...

Hoping all straightens out and goes well. I've been raised in similar environment and honestly wouldn't survive under such a boss. I've tried. I worked for a few weeks at a florist where the boss was constantly calling from the other store and yelling about me probably doing nothing again...

No way I could eiether unless through a web store. My eye contact is shot when I'm anxious. I'm looking everywhere but at the person. And I'm hoping to find an office situation for work where that won't be a problem :eek:

Ooh so excited for you!!!!! Will you show us his picture when you get him. Hoping you both are the right fit for each other and have many years ahead.