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Completely agree @Lola Nocheprieta meditation and mindfulness do not alway work unfortunately. It is a on going daily thing to calm life in general in hope that it steadys life so episodes happen less often.
As for calming the nervous system when you are on complete crisis it is a matter of...
Snap have had to leave therapy sessions early many times for that reason. Even nightmares have had me running to bathroom to throw up. I always take ice vold water into sessions now as i find that helps.
I know exactly what you mean @Friday i have a massive flight response that has me literally running out of rooms if someone or thing is in the way then i dont trust that i wouldnt hurt them to escape. The problem is that you dont often know that the flight mode is in action until it is done...
There is nothing at all wrong with you this is a very common reaction to any loss. You are subconsciously protecting yourself from the hurt and pain. With time it will come out i have known people not to get to that crying stage for even a year after or at a pivotal moment. Just be gentle with...
If the writing is causing u more pain then take the pressure off yourself. Make a decision not to do it. There are plenty of other methods your therapist can use. I too got very upset writing anything i couldnt bear having it near me so stopped.
thanks for those links really helpful and i will be looking into that more in the morning when brain in gear. starting emdr soon but might look at the EFT to combine with it have heard of it before so know it is worth trying out.
brilliant explanation @Friday i shall be printing that off for use in future sessions. it confirms really what i have been thinking that in actual fact a baseline of emotions is too movable to be of any guidance to me. as i have said to my therapist in the past how i usually am makes little...
i am sure your psychiatrist knows best as to what suits you so trust him or her. if you dont then get a second opinion or even ask your doctor for their opinion. as long as they are aware that you are breastfeeding they wont risk giving you anything that is known to cause issues to your baby...
seem to be hearing the baseline term thrown around a lot recently. I haven't a clue what my baseline is, i understand what it means but I honestly dont think i have a "normal emotional state" I tend to be in either an emotional whirl wind or zoned out state. Anyone else in the same boat?
I have done all manner of test in attempt to find out who i am. Not one of them gave me a answer. Having experienced trauma to young to have a want to go back to who i was i realised i will never really know who i would have been. So now i focus on what i would like to be instead, looking...
Update.
Had some contact with my therapist today and concluded that boundaries are too blurred. Feeling really sad as will miss her again but know it is the right thing to do. Horrible as now without a therapist (all though have some things lined up) at a time when i really feel like talking...
1. Want to be on hoilday still
2. Dont eat any more cake today.
3. Hate what my head is telling me today.
4. Where is a good therapist when i need one.
5. Back to the cake.
I agree it is a form of self harm. Self harm isnt just cutting it is anything that is done with intention to hurt yourself. Can be to give a physical sense of relief or to distract from emotional pain. I would suggest trying to get help from a professional as like i said it is not the first time...
In a word yes.
Find myself reading books that i know will distress me. Think the problem is with ptsd that u get so used to living in fear and stress that on the occassion it isnt there you need to self create it to function.
Thanks
You are so right about it being difficult to talk about tougher stuff. That is exactly where i am at holding back on the really horrible things that i need to off load.
Think a change of therapist is going to be the best thing as much as it pains me to not have her in my life.
Thanks for that. She does have supervision.
You have hit the nail on the head about looking after her. I hate seeing her look worried. I am desperate to talk to her about my trauma but i dont want her to be concerned for me. She is lovely and i know she can handle it i just dont want to give...
Nightmares are dreadful. Until recently i would have at least 1 a night 8 in 5 hours is my record so i fully understand how tired and upset you must be.
Sounds to me like you are taking to much responsibility for your dads behaviour. His behaviour is his choice no one tells him to drink and you...
Thank you for such an open and honest reply it is very useful.
I saw this therapist for 3 years then had a break of a year the attachment was obvious from very early on. I am very confused by it to be honest. She doesnt like me txting her outside of sessions which is fine but she txt me. I...
hi,
you are very brave for talking about your experiences and right to take your time, it is your story and you set the pace. It is early days for you and opening up when you have kept it all in for so may years (i have one of those t-shirts) is never going to be easy or pleasant. All I can say...
Thank you for the lovely words and the hug.
I do have access to mental health care and in process of sorting out continued therapy options. Also looks like I am a lifer for meds too not best pleased by that but it is the better option (as you say) so have to lump that.
it never fails to amaze...
aw.. my advice in that case is to not try to do it all at once which can be overwhelming and stressful. Either set yourself a time limit each day for doing it or a couple of bits at a time. Be warned that one job always leads to another.
as an OCD sufferer i would love to be able to live in a mess so I say if you can live with it and it is not bothering or harming you or anyone else then leave it and have a life. One crumb means a weeks worth of panic cleaning for me. have a life rather than a tidy house.......