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When I'm smoking, that feeling of "I could be having a cigarette right now!" And I really love breakfast so sometimes I will prep the night before to have a breakfast I am looking forward to.
What keeps me from going back to bed after that? Dogs. Lots of dogs. I love them and they love me back.
I paid off my credit card! Last night I did my dishes, some laundry, scooped my cat litter, and did some meal prep! That's a lot of adulting in one night for me. Tonight my goal is to read one chapter in a book I've been putting off starting.
I'm no expert but it makes sense to me that the phone call from your former abuser would send you back to old coping mechanisms. I don't know if that abuser was directly related to that chapter of your life but you could explore that. You're safe to explore it. It's over.
#Same! I was raised Southern Baptist. I stopped believing in January of this year and I've been SO ANGRY ever since. I guess I'm not as angry as I was but I still harbor unnecessary bitterness for all people of faith. I know some very kind-hearted Christians but I even count those people as...
My abuser father is in poor health and I always thought I would feel inconsolable guilt if he passed before we made amends. Now I'm finally starting to hold him accountable for his actions and I think I would even feel safer after his passing. I feel no need to "fix" our relationship or make...
I do that. Sometimes I can't remember anything and I panic that I made it all up. Once I stop panicking about that, the memories flood back and I wish they would go away again.
Yeah I experience something similar. Flashbacks make me involuntarily turned on which makes me panic and dissociate. It's a vicious cycle. Recently it has helped me to breath, sit with the feelings mindfully, and try to focus on the arousal simply being a feeling that doesn't require a response...
I can't watch anything with rape, DV, or abuse scenes. I pretty much just don't watch tv right now. Hopefully one day it won't trigger me as much. I used to enjoy watching that show.
That's how I feel. Like I'm going through hell but it's better than wanting to die all the time. I'm actually feeling things, horrible things, but I'm not as dead inside.
I often feel exhausted after calming down from an anxiety attack. If you felt calmer then you did it right. Meditation is literally just quieting the mind - which as you know is harder than it sounds. It's a very useful tool.
Fun fact: this specific medication combination is often referred to as California Rocket Fuel. There's a Wikipedia page about it if you want to research it.
Yes! I was miserably sick for 4-5 days after starting Effexor but I am so glad I stuck it out. Things I learned: eat even though that's the last thing you want to do. The chemical saturated your system if you don't have food to process. I lived off of ginger ale during that time period. And take...
I'm really glad this thread exists. I think I made it up/mislead my t all the time. I've never told anyone that because I'm afraid of that being true. Reading these comments I got a little overwhelmed.
It took me 4 months to open up to my T for the first time, another 2 to open up a second, and that was with constant reassurance and validation from her. Like she would tell me every week not to worry about it. It really just does take time. Right now I'm in the best place I've ever been with...
Yes! I have always been terrified of mascots! It extends to masks but mascots are the worst. My parents told me I've had this fear since I was a toddler. Still to this day I go into a panic if I am close to one.
Thanks that does help. This morning I was panicking and now I've calmed down a lot. It's common for me to block out all the memories and then panic that I made it all up. I was talking to my best friend today and I mentioned that I am having trouble deciding where the line of appropriateness...
I do that too! It's like i baby talk myself like a nurturing caretaker would "shhh we're doing great. You're doing great. You're doing this". I have this problem with going into public stores. I panic when people walk past me or behind me or in my general direction. I'm working on it.
I had a very productive therapy session yesterday which is to say that today I am a complete mess. There are a couple years in my childhood that I keep completely sealed off. Last night those memories started to thaw and I was able to look at one for a couple seconds. Immediately I blocked off...