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This has been an interesting thread for me. Definitely I have been emotionally numb for years - I can date this back to the last time in my life I felt things deeply and richly and could identity what I was feeling - the summer of 1989. After that, I just remember fields of numbness, with...

I'm just curious if other people here have found they have to go through a process of acceptance in regards to PTSD? For me, it has been something along the lines of things are just not going to be the way I once thought they would be. Also, I am probably never going to hold the type of job I...

Today was close to record cold here in Phoenix and there is supposed to be a hard freeze tonight - very different weather for here, and it was nice to walk around today and actually feel somewhat chilly.

I'm trying to figure out what time this is for me in Arizona, as we never change our clocks here so it is always interesting for me to figure out these time zone kinds of things.....

(Mods please feel free to move this if I have put this in the wrong area, I wasn't sure) This summer when anything would go the slightest bit wrong I fell into this pattern of holding my head and doing a mini-primal scream. I had reached a point where I couldn't deal with any problems or make...

Just wanted to say I'm new here too, and welcome. I'm finding things very calm and peaceful here so far and there is much that is posted here that I can relate to. In my case I was in a way glad to be diagnosed because it was like - Ok, there is a reason my life is like this and why I am like...

Hi all. Came back from the mystery shopping assignment. I really believe I was able to pull off appearing as if in the market for an upscale mattress set. For a brief period of time there I felt - I don't know, maybe like I was part of society - as for a brief period of time I was focused...

I'm off to do a mystery shop. It's the one thing I can handle these days and I'm glad to have this shop today as it gives me focus - I need to get showered, shaved and dressed and get my act together to go out and take a bus across town and play the role of someone interested in buying a...

Well it's 1:34 AM now and I had seven, wow, seven hours of sleep last night and I just can't get to that place where my mind shuts off and I find that calm that lets me sleep. At least I know from last night though that I am still able to get some uninterrupted quality sleep. Good to know, I...

Ms Spock, that is so great. Getting adequate sleep makes such a difference in quality of life, quality of thinking, quality of perspective, quality of so much.....

Today I had a talk with one of the employees where I pick up my mail at this mailboxes and other stuff place. I felt human and like an equal and briefly sorta kinda normal even.....it was nice. I love it when I get little bit of this here and there, it gives me hope to keep going on.

Last night I had my first fairly decent night's sleep in I don't know how long.....I had some passionflower herb I bought in Mexico at health food store, and made a tea of it and about two hours later while I was on chat here, I found myself nodding off and thought I'd better go with this and...

After having finally gotten some sleep - finally - I got myself together and went over to a large national drugstore chain where they often have supplements on sale for buy one, get one free, and I found 5-HTP for 12.99 for two bottles with 30 pills each. I don't expect any miracle cures here...

I like the analogy. I too fly off the handle at stupid little things and have for quite some time. I just don't have the patience for them, haven't for years. This makes a lot of sense to me.

I just wanted to say, Thank You for posting your original post here. I have definitely felt like an outcast most of my life. Reading what you had to say encouraged me to sign up here - so Thank You. Squireparty

Has anyone here tried starting some kind of online business? I am not looking for advice as to what kind of business to start, but am just wondering if some have taken this path due to PTSD? I know I write quite well when I try, and I know I am good on the phone for short periods of time...

I seem to have fallen into something that works for me to make some income. A good thing too as I sure can use it. I have been mystery shopping and I am more and more liking it - it doesn't pay all that well but right now I am in a situation where my bills are low so it works. I love how...

I have a year's supply of generic Prozac I took across the border with me the last time I was in Mexico - I declared it as you legally have to and was let through with it. I have not started taking it though - I really need to see someone to discuss this but I don't have insurance so any kind...

Thank you everyone for the welcome. I guess I'll just jump in and start posting here and there. Squireparty

I am new here and hope I don't cross any lines posting this. I am a 46 year old gay man and I don't trust men very much either.....funky very funky to be attracted to your own sex but not trust them at the same time. It is only very recently that I have been willing to address my PTSD and just...

Hi, it is late and I am very tired as I type this, I don't know where to begin but through the numbness after having reading some posts here I am like yes yes yes that is me!!!!! I have been diagnosed with PTSD before - some pretty awful childhood experiences and then growing up gay and being...