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Lately everyone around me that had been acting as my support system over the past year is beginning to turn their backs on me. I understand they may be reaching a breaking point. After they have been trying for so long it feels to them as though nothing is getting better. All of this started...

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I'm a walking enigma to the people around me. I'm so terrible at actually letting anyone in. Even if I tried, they'd only get a fragment of what I really am. I feel like a monster purposefully hiding Sometimes. Other times I dissociate which seemingly makes me some kind of social butterfly.

Started a therapy journal. It's an easy way for me to keep track of what happens in my sessions. Also a good place to keep notes that may be useful in future situations. Not much, but it felt nice writing things out this morning.

Therapy has been a mess this week. Work has been a mess this week. Friends have been a mess this week. Relationship has been a mess this week. I finally feel better. I'm not snapping at anyone unexpectedly or crying at work and having to run to the bathroom. Things finally felt somewhat stable...

Male. Fortunately, for me, being around other females has become a safe haven for me.

When you dissociate so often that your friends stop mid conversation to be sure that you're actually listening to them. I found this one quite funny as I was honestly just spacing out and being a bad listener at the time. Perhaps she doesn't quite know what dissociation is... Also taking time...

Hello and welcome! I definitely second (or third) recommend finding a therapist specifically trained in dealing with trauma. Really hoping that you find the support you need - these forums have been amazingly helpful for me, so hopefully you find something here that helps.

@Ms Spock I really love your idea with the box of cards and having them to give even when things are tough to show them we appreciate them. I think I am going to execute something like this for future events. This past week I woke up a little early to give my brother rides to work. He really...

@intrasearching Thanks so much for the time you've taken to respond so honestly. Adoption is another issue I'm going to start addressing in therapy. Some days it's all very overwhelming and I feel like I need multiple therapists to handle each of my issues separately. We have even been...

I'm currently working towards quitting smoking as I've realized it sends my anxiety sky rocketing. Small steps end up with huge progress. Glad to hear you've found a way to turn those feelings around.

If it is on your mind and you are worried about it, you are not dragging things up. It is only natural to be curious about your past, about what happened, and there is nothing wrong with that. I cannot give you any answers to what you are seeking, but I can tell you that there is a chance you...

I have felt dissociated most of the day, but it made it easier to get through some situations at work that would have otherwise been too stressful to handle.

I have dealt with this as well. I have no problem talking about a multitude of problems I have, but have always been severely self conscious about this one in particular. At 7 years old, I started pulling hair from my scalp leaving huge bald patches particularly at the crown of my head and...

Really struggling today. I'm currently on lunch at work and via text messaging my entire support system somehow managed to crumble apart. My boyfriend openly stated that he does not like talking to my best friend about me and that it annoys him. I panicked because this particular friend I've...

During the first half of my life I did experience this. I struggled with finding an identity (related directly to never feeling at home anywhere). This led to years of pulling horrible people and horrible environments into my life. I needed intensity in order to feel anything. I did the opposite...

I take 0.5mg Xanax as needed to help me sleep or when I sense an on coming panic attack (or am able to anticipate one). The Xanax complements my current med cocktail, although we're currently discussing other options.

Wow... The details you used in your post were really triggering to say the least, I had to take some time for myself before responding. Thank you for opening up and sharing your experience with all of us. I too was sexually abused and often dissociated. You are very brave for writing all that...

@billie After reading what you've written here, I can't imagine how tough verbalizing this is. I think you did a wonderful job clearly telling part of your story. It is hard letting the flood gates down, the more I've talked about, the easier it seems to crawl inside my shell, but every day is a...

Thanks! I am definitely going to start the cranberry pills that I bought and invest in garlic as well to ward off any possibility of getting infections this time around. Also going to switch to drinking only water.

Thanks! Sent you a conversation =D

This past week my psych started me on 20mg of prozac every day. While my mood is tenfold better and it feels as though space is clearing in my head, I seem to be coming down with a bladder infection. Has anyone else experienced something like this from antidepressants? I remember taking prozac...

24 - year - old female with c-ptsd. I'm a sufferer of multiple traumas (my most recent being about one year ago). I moved to Texas immediately after my last trauma to escape all of the triggers from my home town. I don't know anyone here that understands what I am going through on a personal...

Just started reading today =D Really looking forward to joining in on this book club, I am constantly looking for new things to read... it felt good walking into the book store having something to look for for once.