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I've had a series of dreams about going to my T appointment and finding she's moved to somewhere dangerous or unstable or the like. I've never bothered to discuss it with her. Even I can figure out what my head's trying to tell me in those dreams!

After a week of torrential rainstorms, today the sun gleamed off the wet hills and sparkled in the grass as if mother nature had gone out and done her best spit and polish.

I wish it was better understood around here. I do know of others besides myself who have issues with fragrance, but when even my own doctors don't take it seriously you have to wonder. I hate not knowing when, or what might set me off.

It helped me to talk about it- I've lost both my dad and my brother while seeing my current T. My relationship with both was complicated by past/trauma stuff so talking about them always got tangled fast, but talking through it did help me put to rest at least some of the things that I hadn't...

I did it. I moved house all by myself. There is still so much to do, but the major things are done. This new house is so, so quiet. Dare I say peaceful? I feel like I've fallen into another world. I've never known anywhere like it. Someone yesterday asked me if it felt like home and I realised...

Thanks. I did call the local authority and was told it was the workmen's problem. Those guys did their best but it wasn't enough and without sleep I spiralled fast and ended up in a worse place than I'd been in a while. It was a bad week, but they did eventually finish the work. Afterwards, my...

@barefoot it looks like I might be going to visit my other brother, N, this Christmas. It's complicated- there's only the three of us left now, and relationships between N and my sister are strained because of something that involved our brother that died, which has just massively complicated...

I don't know if you can talk to your family about it, but it may be they feel the same? I know when my brother died 18 months ago, the last thing I wanted to do was spend Christmas with my family. I was going to make excuses, saying I had a friend visiting, but the funny thing was my sister...

I got it out of a herbal book originally, but yeah I made it myself. Literally pick a bunch of stinging nettles (wearing gloves), wash them, and them boil them up in some water for 5 minutes or so, and strain. Then when it's cool spray it on your hair- you can leave it in (it smells a bit funny...

I get flare ups the minute something stressful happens in my life. Starts with hives, which can be concentrated in one place, or literally everywhere, and if I scratch them they explode into an Excema flare up. I also have a scalp condition that was misdiagnosed wen I was a teen as Excema but...

A walk in the woods.

I helped a lost dog, and reunited him with his owner.

Update- It's taken a number of challenging phone calls today, which has been extra fun on a sleepless night when I'm not feeling fully present, but the outcome is the workmen have done their best to pack the trench to refuce the noise. It's still noisy but nothing like it was, so hopefully I can...

Not really. It's a smallish town- the cheapest place is still way out of my budget for more than a night or two. Plus I checked and it's fully booked for tonight. Public transport- there isn't anything, and even if there were I wouldn't sleep on it. I know I must microsleep when I've been awake...

There's currently work going on ouside my house. It started over a week ago, and as soon as they started digging ditches I knew I was at risk of being triggered into an insomnia attack. When I stop sleeping, I stop altogether. The ditches stretch about 15 metres in either direction of my...

A tape- as in an old fashioned music tape- lying in the road. It didn't have a label on it so I couldn't tell what was on it.

Yet another stupid cold. Earache is tiresome, distracting, annoying, oh yeah, and painful. I admit I'm pretty rubbish at noticing pain. Talking of pretty rubbish- that just about sums up the tv drama I'm watching. Why did I waste money on an express delivery when the last thing it's been is...

Wild pansies peeking through grass on my garden path, and a happy memory of my dad singing a daft song.

Well, my day ended disastrously! My car broke down right outside my T's office, which is in the middle of nowhere. Pretty much my worst nightmare. I didn't completely freak out somehow, but it's taken me two hours to get home so I've missed dinner, it's nearly bedtime, and I've no appetite. I'm...

I hate it when people comment about my weight- they have no idea what it's cost me. But if I talk about it, I'm boasting, apparently. Drives me nuts. Anyway, despite having one of my fits of fatigue and no appetite, I did make the effort to make up something simple for dinner, partly because I...

I want to join in but don't know if I'm going to be able to keep it up. I've had a recent upsurge of food issues I haven't seen since I was a teenager. A scary week of stress-induced restricted eating followed by struggling to readjust leading to overeating, then getting so sick I wasn't able to...

I got up the nerve to ask for help on something. Gone are the days when that was unheard of. Admittedly I know I don't do it enough. You could hardly accuse me of taking advantage. I'm almost happy right now. I hope this uptick lasts.

An enormous house spider, which fell out of my hand towel when I picked it up. Much as I love spiders, she was big enough for me to keep as a pet, so I relocated her to the garden.

A CD player in a charity shop- but not any cd player. A Marantz separate which fits perfectly with my amp and speaker system. Music is very important to me. My own digital music player broke a month ago and I haven't been able to afford to replace it (new they cost £100s- this one cost me less...

Why are honey and nut cereals so excessively sweet? Why do I buy them? Do I really have less than a month to live in this house? Is that the reason I'm struggling to eat? I wish I hadn't eaten that cereal.