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I totally understand how you feel. Sometimes I feel guilty because I do have a loving supportive husband and many sufferers do not have that....so what he gives me should be enough....but I think it is a longing to have all of me loved....including the parts that are in dark places that no one...

I just read The Body Keeps the Score....I learned a lot and it definitely gave me much to talk about with my therapist. Lots of highlighting and aha moments!

It is a wonderful thing to have hope. It can carry me a long way and through loads of crap. On the other hand it is like trudging through mud when I seem to lack it. Everything feels hard. I am so glad you are getting some relief and looking forward to better days!

@Solara thanks! Actually my therapist sent me an email today and described that very thing....Emotional flashbacks. He recently had me read the book called The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel A. van der Kolk, who I noticed Pete Walker refers to a lot in his articles. He has given me...

@FridayJones and @scout86 I send my emails before I read them so I don't edit or chicken out. I love the "brazenly hit send comment as well". @scout86 my therapist is usually right and I can almost always see it a few days later. I just don't think I could squeak out enough info to give him...

Thank you @KwanYingirl for you response. My son is very gifted athletically and actually had scouts looking at him but has kind of wasted it away. He smokes too much pot now to self medicate. It is a difficult thing to love someone so much and be afraid of them at the same time. We have...

I just posted about something that I think is similar. It started last night and all my usual techniques are not working. I can't seem to shake it today. I am sorry you are going through this! I wish I had great words of advice or a magical remedy that would take it away....for you and for me...

This is my first post. I joined about 8 months ago but have always been too afraid for some reason to post. I will comment from time to time when I get the courage. I have learned so much from what everyone else has had to say and have often found comfort when needed. So thank you. I am...

I have had both a female and a male therapist. The therapist I work with now is male. It was difficult in the beginning but it has worked so much better for me to have a male therapist...which surprised me because all of my abusers were male. When the time came to discuss the molestation or...

I have done hot stone massage and I liked it. I actually really have found massage helpful so I don't feel the same way but I wanted to add that you can call a massage therapist and explain what you need and many will respond positively. I was open with my massage therapist because I was so...

I don't need to panic when I hear my bedroom door knob twist....it is just my husband. I don't need to panic at bedtime. I may have a nightmare but I have survived them all and I am having them less and less. I don't need to panic or be suspicious when someone wants to be close to me. It...

My therapist allows email. For a long time I would send him an email the night before our session and then he would go over it and ask me questions in session. I did that a lot. I still do sometimes but doing that helped me tolerate uncomfortable topics better until I got to where I am...

Even with medication sleep is an issue with me. I drink a cup of hot tea. I also have toy animals that I have to have in bed with me. My therapist bought a children's bedtime book for me before he left on his last vacation. It actually works pretty well. It seems to redirect my brain and helps...

Yep I have done it. I actually went there on the weekend and picked up some pine cones from underneath the tree and I keep one on my dresser and one in my car. I have a safe places now but for a while....that office was the only place I kind of felt safe....I still doubted it though and was...

My therapist kept telling me that there would be a time that I would get angry with him and I just couldn't imagine it. I would always shrug it off and tell him I didn't think it would happen....mostly because at that time I never let myself feel enough to get angry. Several months later I...

I have had nightmares about my therapist too. It took me a little while to tell him but it was very helpful once I did. I think it had a lot to do with feeling so vulnerable and I often relate vulnerability to the trauma and the feeling of someone else having power over me. Now if I have a...

My therapist doesn't see many children. There are no toys in the office but one night after I left therapy I went to the toy store and bought myself a teddy bear. I sent him an email and told him that I did that and how I felt about it. Several weeks later I got up the courage to ask him if I...

I have had this same issue. Since I kept having the same dream over and over my therapist told me to think of a new ending that would lead me to a safe place and feeling. To be honest I didn't really think it would work but I tried it anyway. I came up with a new ending and read it every night...

The people that do this specific kind of massage are very well trained. I couldn't get ahold of my massage therapist to ask your question but I texted a friend who specializes in this kind of massage and is a nurse practitioner as well (I wanted to know the answer too!) and this was his...

I find acupuncture, mayan abdominal massage and IV nutritional therapy to be very helpful for me. There is no doubt of the mind-body connection for me. Sometimes when I get stuck in therapy I amp up the other stuff and it always helps. I am a firm believer it's all connected.

Yes. I have only been up for a couple of hours and already been up and down several times. I could have written your post. It is so frustrating. Seems to be worse when I am not busy. I do think mine is connected with dissociation as well. Also if I let myself get too hungry or too tired it is...

Great post. Gives me a lot to think about. I can give love and I love certain people but I won't allow myself to receive love. It is the fear of abandonment that mentally blocks me. So the concept you mentioned of fear being the opposite of love is really profound right now. I just spent two...

Meet with my therapist for the last time before he goes on vacation. It is ridiculous how nervous I am about him being gone....and it is only for two weeks....So four appts....it makes me sick to my stomach though.

I have been thinking about this post and I wanted to add that I know my husband originally had difficulties with the fact that I could open up to my therapist and turn to him instead of my husband. We worked through that and I actually see how much my husband just wanted to be the one to take...

I go for weekly massage as an adjuct to my therapy. It has helped me immensely and I find it very healing. In the beginning my therapist asked how I wanted to be massaged. Now that I have gone for a long time and we know each other well...she still asks me every week what I need but I don't...