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What an interesting question. I am an incest survivor and I don't think my abuser enjoyed it, I think he was conflicted and felt driven to do something that part of him knew was wrong. I don't know a lot about his past but I did hear him say once that his mother beat him every day. I am also a...

Nightmares are a contributor to my insomnia. I have them almost every night, sometimes several in one night. Some are just run of the mill nightmares and others make me awake with a start and I sit up trying to catch my breath then dissolve into sobbing. After that if I try to go back to sleep...

NovemberStar I think that is fantastic!! I have so much shame associated with my birth name, I've fantasized for years and years about changing it but I never have. It gets harder and harder as the years go on and you have more and more documents, certificates and diplomas in your birth name. I...

I don't know if the anger ever "gets better." Over time it has faded into the background and doesn't intrude any more, for me. It's taken decades to get there, though. I also tend to be a more rational and less emotional person so YMMV. I read somewhere a long time ago that the only "true"...

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At the beginning, when I was just starting to deal with all the issues and the anger finally came out, I found it helped to hit something else with the pillow rather than punch the pillow. You have to choose your target carefully, obviously. Sometimes I would drive out to someplace remote (I was...

I think the thing that threatens my sanity the most is chronic insomnia. When I can't get any sleep I feel like I'm melting away.

When I read that I actually thought it was a pretty clever alternative, not lunacy. Would a camisole or very loose sports-bra-like top under your clothes help? Silk moves over skin pretty well.

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I walked 3.3 miles. It took me nearly 80 minutes but it's still an accomplishment. I also did a little autobiographical writing about some (nice) things when I was a kid. That helps me reconnect with myself.

That is a beautiful dog, congratulations!

Today I am thankful that my legs work (went on a long walk).

I need a cool, dark room to get any sleep. I keep the door closed and locked.

Anxious but a little happy.

Wow, you guys are all so brave for facing this and working through it. I avoid sex altogether. I just live without it.

It's a different time frame for everyone. I think when you need to start explaining to her about a behavior, that's the time to talk about it.

The beach anywhere, where I can sit on the sand and listen to the crashing waves. Looking out at the ocean makes me feel like anything is possible. I'm not near a beach anymore so now it's my bed. I try to make it as comfortable as I can with a memory foam mattress topper (which really helps...

Ashamed, empty.

I rode my bike for a half hour and had a nice stretch afterward. I have a knee injury so it's tough for me to get out (doctor says non-impact activity is okay). I also have chronic pain issues so stretching is really important to get those muscles to stop contracting in reaction to the pain and...

Feeling okay today. That's nice!

I don't have any advice but I wanted to say I think you're very brave for going to grad school. I've always wanted to but I've never been able to get up the courage. It can be stressful even for non-PTSD people. I admire you! Most campuses have counseling centers, could you talk to someone...

Relatively calm compared with recent days but still worried.

Usually hunger or having to pee. My computer is in the living room so if I want to go find out what's going on in the world, I have to leave the bed to do that.

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I'm sorry for your loss. You are amazing for going, I don't think I could have done that. Such courage at such a hard time is impressive!