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I would be interested in this too. I have such a hard time reading what supporters are going through, because I never want to put someone through that. Seeing how lost and helpless most supporters feel just strengthens my idea that no one deserves to have to deal with me...that they can do...

Yes, I definitely agree with seeking help... I hope, would like to think that...if I were in a relationship and there was a lot of conflict going on / I felt myself slipping away, that I would have enough mind to go back to therapy again. I did reach pretty close to rock bottom when I sought...

That probably would help @shimmerz ... it's very hard though, when I know someone is so happy to be able to talk to me, whether in person or on the phone, that I have a hard time saying I need to go when I know I'm getting close to my limit, and then once its over, I need so much time to...

Into The Fog is an amazing website that I found a year or so ago... I really do love it and have read through it a few times, always finding something that I'm able to relate to / find understanding every time I read it. Its a great resource. All the things listed there I can say I've been...

Very difficult...up until a year ago when I was in therapy, I had no idea what disassociating or ruminating was. Those two things seemed to control my life. Now that I know, and I'm aware that I'm doing it, the only thing that has changed is...I'm aware that I'm doing it. I still feel helpless...

I wish that I could find an upside to this... I guess if I had to find a positive, it would be that I delve into my work and always teaching myself something new to escape / avoid having to think and through my insomnia, I have more hours in the day that most to get as much done as I do. If it...

My social life has its ups and downs. I go through small windows where I want to go out, want to date, want to be around people. I just get so sick and tired of being alone. Especially as kiddo gets older and off doing things on her own, and in just a few months will be 18, and I'm bracing...

You know, reading this reminds me how its hard to give advice when you are on the inside looking out. Because what you are saying here is true...regarding my advice was to keep the family out of it. But that is definitely me coming from a place of alienating others and not going to family, or...

That is so frustrating @fly away home ... To know the truth, but no one will listen or believe you. This Christmas, my sister came to visit, and we were talking to my cousin. She could not understand why I had such an issue with my mom, and I told her just a little bit of what happened...

Where I am now, my place has those old school frosted panes, so no one can see inside. That helps a lot, because then the curtains can be open, but without any sort of view into or out of my home, day or night. Before this, I also had up sheer curtains, so that light could get in, but you...

A general thing I can say about time, is that time in and of itself does not do the healing, it's what you do with the time that creates healing. In other words, if nothing is done, then nothing will change. Personally, I am an all or none, 0% or 100%, black and white thinker...it's something...

That sounds a lot like what I go through..for months at a time. I have major depressive disorder though, so I know that has a lot to do with it... it's more like a way of life for me at this point though. I have to struggle to do the smallest task, like taking a shower and brushing my teeth...

Two simple things really... I love you, and I'm proud of you. And I know that those are important to me, because I find myself saying those things to my own daughter a lot...along with anytime she does something special, like goes out of her way for me, by telling her what a great daughter she...

Definitely... it's something I've struggled with my whole life, and is very frustrating. I'm well spoken and write well too, but there are times when I can't even get out the most simple thought, and I'll write something and it has the worst spelling and grammar...not to mention if it's...

Through growing up with me being how I am all my life, my daughter is more aware (even more than I, I think) and incredibly disgusted with how people with mental illness are treated and disregarded. Whenever she reads a joke or a comment about it, she will fly off the handle. But really, even...

I have a hard time trusting women..but even worse if she is black. Jamaican men..forget it. I know these have to do with my childhood though and what I grew up with. I just pretty much avoid anyone who reminds me of that...but for sure, in any situation where a black woman is my boss or the...

Because we just...do I guess? Sort of like how they say with PTSD...two people can go through a traumatizing event together, one may end up with PTSD and the other not. We all just respond in different ways. I know that for myself, it was just me and my mom. I was not allowed to have any...

Though I do...well did this, it's beyond my understanding too. The best I can say about this though is, I really felt that she treated me the way she did because I was not worth her love. And well, I felt that way because she told me so. And so, at least as a kid, I felt like if I just tried...

White Calla Lily... They are so tall and elegant, and unlike most flowers with several petals, it only has one that swirls on itself, I just always like how perfect it looks. Also, I like that its not even actually a real lily... I just think everything about it is unique and beautiful.

I can relate to so much of what you are saying, the things that you miss and wish you could have had, we have quite a bit in common on some points. In the moment, I also feel like I'm wallowing in self pity...but then, like Meadowsweet said, a key to helping soften the blow to these feelings is...

I survived the wedding! And crazily enough, with the help of my friends brother. When I got there, her fiance took me to where she was getting ready and there was all the hoopla of her pre-wedding last minute touches, getting her hair done and getting dressed etc. She was really happy to see...

You are very right... 8 years of this is too much. And its not really even a solid 8 years, only when I think about it or we have any sort of contact, I get riled up again, otherwise I try not to think about it at all and just leave her alone. But that I have to do that sucks. But yeah, I...

By the way, I talked to her mom a couple of days ago, before I found out I was nixed from being a part of the wedding, but just in general, that I'd been wanting to call and talk to her but afraid to, because she has a way of being cutting and mean lately, that I was afraid to say anything. And...

You are right... he is very controlling, and he wants all of her. After the night I left her home for the last time, she told me that he's uncomfortable with our friendship, and that he is with her now, he is to be her best friend and no one else. But I was like, that doesn't make sense. Of...

I only feel like that from Fri-Wed...On Thursdays I tell myself that there are people out there who would love to hear from me and see me, then I spend a few hours pep talking myself into trying to send a text, make a call, try to make plans to spend time with someone, then the feeling goes away...