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I want to thank you all for being here. Your words of wisdom have helped me greatly. To give you an update talked with my therapist and I am going to scale back for awhile. I am going to keep working on mindfullnes and meditation. In a way I feel that I am avoiding but in another way I know...

This has been bothering me so much for the past couple of days I haven't slept. I have called a crisis line twice hoping they could give me tools to help deal with this. That was a fail, I felt I was talking a foreign language. I told my T today that I want to put my inner child back in the...

I am finding it REALLY hard to forgive myself when I hate parts of myself. I feel like I'm caught in a circle. I have to love myself to forgive myself and I have to forgive myself to love myself. I feel lost and confused and I just can't wrap my head around it. If anyone can share words of...

I am not able to give you any advice but I can let you know that your not alone in this. I am the worst judge on myself and have a hard time seeing any accomplishments. I now it has to do with my upbringing and it is very hard to see it in a different point of view.

Just wondering if anyone has been to Homewood and can share information about the PTSD program and\or stories. My psychiatrist thinks I need more in hands on therapy then 50 min counselling once a week. Would greatly appreciate if anyone is willing to share.

Hang in there! You have been making great success which gives me hope for my situation. There is always up & down days we just need to refer to our coping skills to get to another good day.

Welcome Rhonda! I hope you find this site as insightful and supportive as I have.

I finally got up the courage to reach out for extra help and I still feel no relief. I couldn't admit to them that I was having SI and thoughts of self harm because of feeling worried they will take my kids away and put me in the hosptal. I haven't slept well in weeks, waking up to flashbacks...

@keifer thanks for the read. I am going to put it on my mirror and read it every morning and night. @franciemarnie and @Saule thanks for all the ideas to deal with the anger safely. Some I have been doing but you both have given me more ideas to try. I greatly appreciate your words of advice...

I am having a real tough struggle with my anger over being abused. I am trying to keep calm but feeling the anger turning inward. Now my SI thoughts and urges are getting stronger. I am also hearing my abusers negative talk and it's making me weaker. Can anyone share words of wisdom or books or...

When I have flashbacks it's usually while I'm sleeping and I start screaming and crying. It startles my kids but I just tell them I had a nightmare. I also write the flashback down, even the little details, then my T and I talk about it. I believe it's good to share your flashbacks with...

I understand your struggle. I too experience trouble dealing with negative self talk. Somedays it gets the best of me and others I can say "No that's not true". One thing I learned was the voice of the negative talk is from my abusers, and this is what they want to be true. It's not necessarily...

I went to my appointment with my T. She explained she can't be there for me all the time and she was glad I reached out. She also asked if I felt I needed to be hospitalized again or can I still function with work and being a mother. I think I will ask my doctor if there are other things...

@ joeylittle I appreciate any advice I receive. On this sight it's like you all understand and I don't feel like I talking a foreign language. So thank you!! You made very valid points. @DharmaGirl I really don't have anyone to watch my kids. All 3 are young teenagers. Yes I work full time...

@ francismarnie. Thank you for listening and responding!! I have an appointment this upcoming week with my T. I am battling with myself on whether I should go or not. Unfortunately living in a rural community doesn't give me lots of choices and being a single mom of 3 makes it very hard to go...

For those that have read my post earlier this week, I am not handling my emotions and fears right now. Barely sleeping even with medication. I have tried everyday this week to talk to my T, but everyday no return call. I checked with secretary and yes the T is infact working. I have contacted...

Thank you for your kind words. Unfortunately I am now on day 4 of no sleep. I called my T unfortunately she is off today. I can't seem to ground myself or decrease the anxiety or fear. I am going to try your suggestions and see if I can get some sleep. If not I will have to go to crisis...

Hello my friends! I feel like I am going crazy! I haven't slept for 3 nights now since reliving my past in my last sleep. This is hard to write about but I will do my best to explain. ***may contain triggers ***** In my sleep I am in my early teenage years. One of my abusers is giving me the...

Hate is like cancer and it desroys you bit by bit everyday!! I really don't think I need to forgive my abusers. I believe that I must forgive myself and grow from those bad expierences. My future and my happiness depends on me not my abusers. Hope this helps. Wishing you all the best!

I am having great difficulty on trying to set bondaries (physical, emotional and intellectual). Was hoping all of you great people could give advice or suggestions. Is this a common difficulty for people with PTSD??

@Flyaway. I went and seen my T and can right out and asked if she thought I was being manipulative. She said no but part of her job is to assess of any harm. I explained that I was just being honest and telling her what is going on in my confused mind. She thanked me for having trust and...

Your post could not be written any differently I feel the same way and struggle the same battle. I will check out your book mentioned. I also have a book you may like to read. It is called 'Healing the shame that binds you' by John Bradshaw. Please keep posted any other tools and I will do the same!

Thx! Flyaway! Your words hit right home with me! On tuesday the therapist suggested we slow it down. I don't quite understand I am going there for a reason. I don't really want to talk about the weather or other frivous things. I want to feel and become a better person, I was told the only way...

Sorry Albatross for typing your name wrong. I truely am happy for you!

Way to go Abstract!! Congratulations!!! Keep up the good work.