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I went from explosive to internal to suicidal stop the cycle...and then learning more about my feelings and needs. DBT plus CBT helped. Now i am able to delay the reaction and try step back...sleep on it or walk away saying i cannot deal with this now and will get back to it knowing the PTSd...

I miss smudging, the scent of incense, sound of drums and gongs, singing bowls. Magical

I was feeling the same today wanting to be hopeful and sametime thinking we are doomed. Plastics everywhere and because of my TBI i no longer properly recycle or live eco friendly as much as previous to TBI PTSd. I used to volunteer for environmental initiatives and take part in meetings at...

Prayers and haing thoughts. Checking in on your mom and the emotional stress of caring takes a toll. I know as mom has dementia and had a TIA in August. I know school means alot to you as i remember how happy you were getting in. Even the strongest soldiers need rest. Looks like you have good...

I hope things get better. Breathing deep throughout the day when we are "ok" helps. Whenever u get a chance to do. It builds up tolerance. 4x4x4 ten times. Usually by 8th time i am yawning. The breathing activates our vagal nerve that connects brain to organs. Tapping fingers helped too. I...

Just reading this post gets me spooky senses up feeling like a car will hit me out of the blue. I cant drive anymore from TBI and seizures...and also the rehab therapist said i have high chance of road rage because of volatile emotions. Plus she driving is a complex cognitive task. I am able...

I dont have mirror in washroom and my room. There is a large one in the living room but its ignore and not in direct view. Actually i do have a small mirror in room that is tilted away and when i want to see how bad my stress plucking is i would tilt the mirror to see, hoping it will stop me...

When you have these attacks do you think or feel you will die? You feel like forget to breathe and heart beat is out of sync, the world you know no longer exist and your mind spins with worry and unidentified fear?

I complain about the food, frozen dumplings i boiled up, having MSG or high salt because it makes me feel sick. Also gave the bottle of gluten free soy sauce "the eye" for having sodium. I have food and forgot to be grateful. I probably ate about 12 large dumplings to myself. Uncontrolled...

There is no heat in house and its cold... really cold

This is tough one for me to answer. I say yes because of skills learned to cope and process events. And i also say no because a person can only take so much trauma... is our psychology more vulnerable? Good question!

Thank you for this. Today i did get dressed and showered. A year ago... could be days to weeks. Rambling is welcomed ??

Did the blood test check for heavy metals, cortisone and inflammation ESR?as mentioned it can be many things causing this even mould exposure can cause the symptoms you describe. Unaddressed trauma can manifest into physical illnesses. It takes a toll on hormones, immune, endocrine, psyche...

I am comfortable sitting in the corner observing without my eyes. Weird as it may sound its like if i sat in the corner i can be myself. Observing without my eyes sounds like i have sonars implanted. Just thinking of corner feels safe. Waiting rooms samething i prefer to sit where i can see the...

I prefer email or text so i reread and process. Phone calls put strain on my TBI symptoms and i get very tired. The PTSd makes me try to figure out too much like whats that background noise? Am i on speaker? However, phone calls do help me practice exposure to humans after hiding. If its...

I hide you guys by saying "support group". It tires me to wonder if i am being trolled or cross referenced. I got 2 Ts and the trauma T i told him about our photo thread started by @bellbird and how brilliant the idea was. The photos we share are amazing and that i like to see something local...

I am not a snake but i could use your handy shovel to cover me with leaves.

I hope you feel better because my DBT T does the same thing if I am freakn out, updating her, disociating into happy mood sharing animal pics, well wishing have a nice, seeing cyclist get crushed, is no response. She is not mad but what she said which made me feel stupid is that if i want her...

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I did not know this is a trait of hyper vig.... even when people i know stand near to my side makes me tense up.... i get startled if someone touches my back by surprise. Noise cancelling headphones good for TBI but can make my startle response higher because i cant hear foot steps....

You are a great writer. Thank you. I do notice myself intellectualizing often. Even when in hiding mode i would read science journals and law. It takes my mind away from pain and most times i learn something new but when i over use it..i end up seizing or get extreme brain fog. Never thought...

Intimacy and relationship is on the the list with T but first i got to stabilize my symptoms..if ever. I know things improve. Recently discharged from sex rehab because nothing progressed sexually. Just avoid or revert into child mode or freeze. The trauma flipped many areas 180. Before i had a...

Thanks for reply. I will redo and take another look. (*-*)/^

I dont have black out curtainss. I have blinds that i peek out of ever so slowly my finger presses down on the blind and i peak outside.

For those taking NAC do you take it with food or empty stomach?