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I wasn't worried at first, but being in an incubator of news is getting to me. I can't hear anymore about it. I'm going to go back off of social media for a bit. I had a complete breakdown over the whole thing because its' affected my business bc no one is traveling and my family is messed up...

I think I'm both of these things. I'm having a panic attack over THEIR finances right now. They're unbothered on the couch watching elfin YouTube. Then I flip to anger. Angry that they aren't working as hard as me and are so lazy and entitled that they didn't get themselves out of this situation...

Thank you @HopeStrength that’s all really good information! I’ve been splitting between all good and all bad all weekend, it’s a bit better now. I’m not staying at home and haven’t been for a week and I sort of realized even if I am not with them they are “with me”. I can’t run from that so I...

Thank you @Ronin that makes sense. Sort it all out.

My childhood growing up was kind of traumatic. Emotional and verbal abuse, etc. Narcissistic kind of father, distant kind of borderline mother with severe depression. Neither of them treated, my father a bit more so and had been to therapy and all. I have a sibling who has so much animosity...

Thank you @Ronin !!

Thank you @Friday that makes so much sense!! Also love the story. I definitely have that "build people up and not real" habit. I do it with so many people. Even people I know IRL. This really stuck with me. Thank you Again!!

@NatBird not comfortable sharing the man concept just because someone could link my identity haha, but it’s a science fiction book with leads with PTSD!

@NatBird grief is hard! Love that song too. Writing is going well, editing one novel (almost done, thinking about queries) and have plans for a few more and am picking at them. I’m going to try not to push myself like I did for the first one and just enjoy the process!

Hello @NatBird ! I love writing as well, and spent years not following through because I didn’t think I was good enough. I think what finally did me in is “why not now” and then setting a deadline for something, then breaking it down to the minute detail of how many words a day. On days I didn’t...

I logged off for a while and started to feel better so I thought oh, back on. Felt bad again. Deleted it again. Gonna talk to me T next week.

Thank you for your responses @Mach123 and I'm sorry you're going through something similar. It's like that projection of my own self-hatred, so I think everyone will hate what I post because I hate what I post because I hate myself. And I think people will hate me if I hang out with them because...

Thank you @Mach123, I feel much better talking about it and reading it all out at once. It doesn't seem all that weird, I just am so terrified of my intense emotions sometimes.

Congrats!! That's awesome!!

I'm struggling to talk about this because I feel so embarrassed. When I was in middle school, I loved this one band, especially the lead singer, he was so cool looking and androgynous and really weird. I named a fish after him in middle school when we all won fish at the local Carnival and I...

I was able to spend time with a friend today and had fun, although afterwards I just felt like a terrible human. I wish I was kinder, I feel like I can do so much better as a person but I keep failing to do so.

Thank you @Ronin ! I’m just looking to get possessed by a ghost in a creepy Colorado mansion hahaha. thank you for your words @Rani G you have a way with them!! I’m also so bad with feelings, much better with thoughts. I have trouble integrating the two, or listening to feelings at all.

I watched a funny youtuber for a bit and that made me feel good, I still feel guilty for taking all that time when I could have been working. I was working from 7am to 9pm for months on things and I’m trying to get myself out of it but it’s so difficult bc It’s such a nice way to avoid how much...

I've been spiraling downward for months. I don't know how to stop it anymore. I feel like I've tried everything. it just keeps getting worse. recently I keep staring off into space for hours or getting warped into my phone and losing all this productive time. I know I should rest, I've had bad...

I have the same problem and my therapist has me look at need for external validation and how it affects me, and finding inherent worth in who I am not what I do, detachment from external validation etc.. I don't really know HOW to get there, still struggling to find it, but positive affirmations...

Lately I've been overthinking EVERYTHING social-wise. Everything I text, I wonder if I said something mean or I insulted someone (I'm not being insulting, logically, I just think I am, and no one has been offended so far), I don't like to talk to people on the phone because of the same thing...

Just popped in to say I'm thinking of you. I'm bi and so many of my friends who grew up in religious families had similar experiences, my heart goes out to you all. I'm not personally religious because I've seen what most churches do to people who are different. There are churches that are...

Thank you @pam4him it's just so hard to just be. I can't be I have to do. My therapist I think calls it "human doing" instead of human being. I'll work on it.

Thank you so so much @Freida thats really helpful!! I’m definitely in the overwork category haha. I do love walking and yoga! My physical therapist recommended tai chi!

Thank you all for your responses!! This is an interesting way to look at this. I like it, I struggle with that sort of intuition though. Judgement is another thing I struggle with. Been there done that I keep doing that haha. I burn myself out on one thing obsessing all the time. Trying to...