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I can't even remember the last time I felt "normal" it's been so long now, but I suppose I was at some time in the past?

I haven't got any friends really, I noticed that the other day when I was at the hospital. They asked me if I had someone who could come and pick me up, as they weren't too happy to drive after the anaesthetic, and I couldn't think of anyone? They were quite surprised when I said that I...

The Power Of Love by Jenifer Rush, it was played at my late wife's funeral. In fact, it's only now, some two years later, I can play it right through.

Aye! Lauren, that's exactly what it was like, the only time I got out of the house was to go to the supermarket to do shopping? The car would stay unused for days at a time Even then, I had to rush home to let the person sitting with her, to leave? Her so called, close family only came...

Quote......"Best thing for you is to live your own life" Aye! that's exactly what I'm doing now, as I spent seven years caring for my late wife. I know I shouldn't say this, but it was like being under house arrest! I couldn't even go for a shower unless someone else was sitting with her, and...

I tend to lose my temper very quickly, it's seems to come from my sudden mood swings? I know it's wrong, but I have no control over them, no matter how hard I try to control them, the just happen? Yet I can calm down and my mood changes again, I only wish I could control them, as one minute I'm...

I know what you mean, I thought I was going mad, and when I was diagnosed with PTSD, it was such a relief to me, as I really did think Imwas going mad! That was way back, about sixteen years ago, I knew something wasn't right, as I was having serious mood swings, and burst out crying for no...

I can remember all the good times of my childhood, as there were so few of them! It's the bad ones that I've been trying to forget, but there are so many of them, that I can't forget them all?

Being able to potter about outside and clean up the front of the house. Just being outside cheered me up really.

Yes I can remember feeling really embarrassed at a funeral of someone I was close to when I was growing up. For some reason, thoughts of some of the daft and funny things that this bloke did back then, came rushing into my mind, and I burst out laughing? I just couldn't stop myself doing it...

I seemed just to drift through today, I felt totally invisible as I made my way through the shopping precinct, no body really noticed me, and I kept my head down. Like I said, I just seemed to drift through the whole day, I was t part of anything?

I remember when I was invaladided out of my job at the age of 50, I was devastated, confused, and angry, but as the pain increased in my back with time, I realised that the doctors were right. I had been made redundant a few times before in my working career, but that came with the industry...

Quote......."I felt worthless at one point today, just so lost and alone, feeling like I have no future, because I'm just living" That's exactly how I feel when I have one my "dark-days" in fact your whole post reminded me of that, but that one line covers it all. Sometimes I miss my wife so...

I feel like that sometimes, but then again the last few months we spent together were not normal in any way, so I have to think further back, to remember the good times. I had to move into the spare room, as the nurses had to fit a hospital type bed, where they could reach her from both sides...

I'm just greatful that I got that form filled in today, with help from someone at the Cancer Care Centere, it's been stressing me out for the past two weeks when it arrived. It's the form that has to filled in, as DLA (disability living allowance) is now being replaced by PIP, it's a nightmare...

I wish I knew the answer to your question, because if I did I would use it myself, to stop me getting them 'dark days" as I call them? Anything that would stop the "dark days" would be a life saver for me, as when I do have them, my whole life changes, and the most frustrating point about it...

I wish I could be cured of my PTSD, but like the therapist, that I used to see about six years ago, told me I had "too many issues" over too long a period in my life! Over the years I've seen, and experienced many ugly things, in fact I was told that I had seen and experienced many more things...

Quote.........."I'm sure you understand." Well that's something you won't have to worry about in here, as we all understand, that's why we are all in here, to help and understand each other. It doesn't matter what you post, or how you write it down, we all know what you mean! This site has...

Aye! Sun Seeker, I know what your going through, when I get my " dark spells" (that's what I call them) I get very tired, but at the same time I can't sleep! I feel totally exhausted, can't concentrate on anything, I feel restless, it's a horrible feeling to have. I often feel totally...

Welcome to the site Mikalay, I hope you find all the help and support from the good folk on here as I did when I first came in here. Everyone understands what you say, so you are amongst friends in here, good luck.

I'm just glad that my heating is working again, even though I have to eaqualise the pressure sometimes before it will start to work. The plumber showed me how to do that. He came and pumped some pressaue into it yesterday, saying that would fix it. Obviously it hansnt worked as I had to...

I would like to work part time, but there are so many factors I have to consider, being in a crowded room for instance, meeting people, and having dead lines to meet. All of those, plus a few others would set me off "on one"........ (a flash back, or a sudden mood swing" some days when my...

Yea! that's a great feeling to have, I felt like that when I first came on here. That seems like a lifetime ago now, and I've come a long way since then, in fact, it's only the support that I've had from all the good folk in here, that has got me where I am now!

I'm just grateful to be here in Holland, with my sister, it's been a great Christmas for me. Also, for getting the free sat-Nav working in my I/Phone, it works great here in Holland, I only hope it does the same when I go back to Scotland. We are now sitting quietly by the fire enjoying the heat.

I got to spend Christmas with my sister in Holland, and it's been great, I fly home on Friday. Last year when I was here, I ended up in hospital on New Year's Eve, with what we thought was a heart attack, but it turned out to be something totally different?