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I am sorry, Kittie. I missed all of this. Previously, you mentioned that your boyfriend didn't handle crying well. As someone with PTSD who does cry, it concerned me. So, I can't say that I am not a little relieved for you, though broken relationships are hard and I am sorry for what you are...

Thanks! I needed that! 🤗

Yesterday, my husband had superhero confidence, and the track record to go with it. Today, he's a wreck - overwhelmed with work and school, frustrated with all the little things that have to do with our strange little complicated life here in New Mexico, and he feels like a failure at everything...

You know, I have evolved. I haven't arrived anywhere but I have seen a lot of improvement over the years. In a lot of circles, I am pretty durned messed up, still. I know that feeling of losing self but it isn't realistic because you never lose your experience but can hopefully lose some of the...

I put in two applications to start as a remote volunteer writing/literacy tutor. I have a real problem with Zoom, Skype and cameras, in general. It's kind of right in the middle of me doing a lot of things I would like to do. So, here we go. I have done some small things to try and deal with...

Hello and welcome. I use a weighted lap pad and it helps me a lot. Heat is extremely helpful for me to help me relax - I used to take lots of baths but now use a heating pad and sauna blanket. I do a lot of breathing from my diaphragm like they used to tell us to do in choir practice. Getting...

My mom, too. She has a terrible time with cars and can't sleep before a trip. I have a terrible time with her driving, so we travel well together with me behind the wheel, always. It's hard when you don't do it very often. I had a really hard time for a while but I used to force myself to...

I used to have to do that, too. Back in the days when you could sleep in a Wal-Mart parking lot, it wasn't so bad. I slept there a few times. It wasn't necessarily what I would have chosen but the lighting made it a little less scary than a lot of places. Course, some of the neighbors made it...

I hear that. The only good thing I have to say about injuring my hips in Portland last year was that I didn't do it just 3-4 months earlier in rural central Oregon where PT was an hour away and specialists were 2 hours away. I lived there for 14 years but I could not have afforded the gas to get...

I am sorry. That sounds terrible. I believe that @Lionheart also had a possible issue with spinal stenosis. Thanks. I guess I should, again. It astounds me how many conversations I have had with docs over the last 15 months or so, including one about a month before I posted this that landed me...

I lost the appropriate post to respond to but did want to say that I was on a daily benzo for about 4 years - Klonipin, I think, but have taken more than one benzo over the years - and I cut back and off of it in less than a month, if I remember correctly. I went through nasty, short-term...

Thanks. I have been applying to any and all grant writing positions/gigs that I come across that I appear to be qualified for but I feel pretty confident that there are an abundance of well-qualified grant writers out there who are also looking for anything that shows up. I've been paying...

I am pretty nauseated because I didn't take anything for pain when I should have. I am in bed and am sure I will be better tomorrow. This is the worst day I have had in a long time. Thanks for asking and have a good evening. 🐳

I'm feeling pretty self-conscious for upchucking all of that, earlier. My pain level was higher today than it has been in months. Sorry for the not-quite-all-relevant novel. I can't think right.

Oh shit. Here we go. My apologies in advance. I feel a rant/aggravated long post coming on. In June of 2021, it will be ten years since I lost Joshua, my second, now-deceased fiance. I took care of both Allen (when I was 21) and Joshua (when I was 30-31) while they were sick. The situation with...

Oh, so you are really not processing! 😂 It's still a holiday weekend, right?? - Another good excuse

It happens. Our brains aren't usually all that excited about processing, processing, and more processing. Mine takes a vacation without my consent after very much of that. And having a cold is a great excuse to take a vacation, anyway. 🐳

No problem and what's that saying - it takes one to know one??? I get it. - been there, done that - still there, still doing that. But for some reason, seeing someone else do it is more likely to get my attention. Well, it sounds like we have a lot in common, then. I am guilty of the above, as...

I'm having a very hard time making decisions but I think I am whittling stuff down. A lot of things are pointing toward trying to work from home right now and realistically, I am probably qualified enough to get a local entry-level fundraising job where a dozen or two dozen people might apply...

I don't know. Hopefully, you are just hungry. You really are an amazing writer. You are also covering a lot of very painful ground here. You mentioned an EMDR app and I cannot help but feel some fear for you. It seems like you are pushing hard to get through a whole lot of hell, very quickly...

I'm trying to lose my cane for the long haul at present because I have issues with my shoulders, too, and can't really use the cane without making my shoulder hurt, so I am avoiding walking sticks for that reason. If it weren't for that, I might use one as my cane does help with the pain in my...

Recently I have just been taking a multivitamin, but that's mostly because we aren't totally settled, yet. I usually do take regular doses above the multi of vitamin D and Calcium and have some of both sitting in my vitamin basket but consistency just hasn't made it to our new home, yet. So far...

I assume I could because it lowers my anxiety and anxiety is why I struggle with concentration. I have been doing it in the evening, though, so I can't say for certain.

I have been pleasantly surprised at what writing things down for a while can uncover. I hope that you can unravel some mysteries with this that help you to get them slowed down. Intrusive thoughts suck.

Lol! I suppose it is. Yes, I think that is it. I have discovered that I can't be comfortable in some social environments, no matter what I do, and places where those people and God knows who else are there with their societal rules, the lack of safety I feel is pretty astounding. A lot of...