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@NoWhereKnowWhere I struggled for a long time with the idea that some of my memories could be false. I finally asked my Pastor about it. He said, "It doesn't really matter. The treatment is the same - exposure until it doesn't cause so much distress, analysis to figure out how it did and...

I relate so much to this. My childhood could have destroyed me. It could have made me cold, hard, unfeeling. It could have filled me with rage and hate. But I have become a compassionate, generous, loving person. You and I, we have beat the odds. Thank you for sharing this. Who we are IS...

Saelben, do you have enough to safely taper? THat is my biggest concern. I'd been on a high dose for about a month, and then got a stomach virus and was unable to hold ANYTHING down, including tiny sips of water or medication. WIthin three days, the dehydration and withdrawal from stopping...

@Simply Simon Thank You! That means a lot!

Thank you @Notsurewhoiam . Cutting wasn't the only way I used to self harm, but it was definitely the most dangerous. The last time I cut, I needed over 150 stitches. Honestly, it's the other less dangerous stuff that has been the hardest not to go back to. I'm glad you were able to...

I hope you get some answers. I know what you mean about not knowing which is causing which. I have chronic, severe pain and I also have severe PTSD. They play off each other; when one gets worse, the other follows. Sometimes I'm not sure which one is behind the worsening symptoms. My doctor...

I am a digital glutton. I read this forum a lot, and I have another forum that I am a moderator on. I have close relationships with several people via email. I watch streaming shows and movies. I do a lot of writing (typing, rather). I read on my Kindle. I text. I do have other things I...

I do square breathing with visualization. I sit cross legged, make my hands into fists, rest them on my thighs. I make sure my back is straight and my head is held up. I close my eyes. I breathe in through my nose for a count of five, I hold my lungs full for a count of five, I breathe out...

Thanks @The Albatross . I'm glad I'm able to share here. :)

I think that for many of us, talking about the trauma is important. I know for me, I need to talk about it. I have so many secrets, so much pain. It needs to be released. Talking through the trauma, while tedious and painful, has been so helpful. I've got a long ways to go, but I know that...

@expectingbetter Thank you! I just happened to look down at my calendar while I was reading through posts, and realized that I knew exactly how long it had been since I last self-harmed. I'm proud of how far I have come. From someone who was getting stitches several times a week, to someone...

@NatBird Thank you! It's been a difficult journey, but so worth it.

Thanks Chant. It's sad to think that being that young, we'd already started to deliberately hurt ourselves. Kids that young aren't supposed to have to deal with things like that. I'm sorry it was that way for you too. It's okay that you haven't gone that long without it. There are times...

I started to self harm when I was five. From that day on, it was very rare for even one day to pass without deliberately hurting myself. But five years, seven months, and thirty days ago, I cut myself for the last time. It has been a struggle at times, but since that day I have not done...

PTSD is real, and has real impacts on behavior. You know that. The thing is, it's not an excuse. It doesn't give the sufferer a free pass to act the way he has been acting. You say you are afraid he'll hurt you emotionally. But he already HAS hurt you. And he'll keep hurting you, until he...

Often times, I'm unable to focus on ANYTHING because of the PTSD symptoms. So I would definitely say it impacts my ability to do math. It was in remission when I first started college, and I noticed a definite drop in my math ability as the symptoms re-emerged.

I do square breathing. It's what we do while doing meditation at the beginning of every martial arts class. I'll describe the whole process, so you can see what it's like when it all comes together. First, sit or kneel comfortably. Hands should be in fist form, resting on your thighs. Back...

I sometimes have the same problem (not from Vietnam, but from a very traumatic childhood). I've been married 11 years. I feel so humiliated when it happens, but my husband has been so understanding and patient about it. It's been happening less and less often since I got back into therapy...

@Broken Dahlia yep, this is the leg that was already bad.

I just got back from my big family vacation to Norway. It was amazing. There are lots of gaps where I dissociated, but also plenty of cool stuff I actually remember. I've got lots of pictures. I injured my foot pretty badly this morning carrying my laundry to the basement. Dislocated a bone...

It was amazing. I would highly recommend it.

I just returned from a trip to Norway and Iceland. I am very much liking the Icelandic accent!

I second Khan Academy. Also would recommend Code Academy and W2 Schools.

It's a regular room. They will put an IV in. The initial poke hurts a tiny bit. They remove the hard needle, leaving behind a soft catheter. After the initial poke, it is painless. They will give you anxiety medication, and then the sedative. You'll quickly fall asleep, and the next thing...

@Bloomy Congratulations on the job! I hope you do well there, and really thrive.