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I woke up three hours too early. Being very heavily dependent on routine, this is a problem.

I've stared at this thread a couple time trying to pick out and recognize an emotion. I tried, I kept trying and I'll be sure to come back later if can find and identify any emotions. Maybe I'm saving it for t-time, yet another new T and once again I get to give the grand tour of my life and mind.

more hugs for @gizmo I love ya hon, you know that, and I know I can't comprehend that kind of hurt. What I do know is that you're taking all the right steps and doing everything that you can, that's a lot, please remember to get some rest. I'd be on my way over with a box of doughnuts if I...

aww @gizmo let me hug you for an hour or two. I know those girls mean more to you than pretty much anything. It's horrible seeing someone we love hurting and I know how hard it sometimes is to do the right thing, but you did. Having known some runaways in the past, she'll probably try again...

You know you're making progress when you can help someone else to learn a coping skill.

Realized that the new T I'm meeting tomorrow will be my 4th or 5th new T this year. I'm done being disappointed with the pace of my progress, for not having stable support or resources I think I'm doing pretty well.

Relief- massive waves of it- I finally untangled the red tape enough to get an appointment somewhere. Trying not to count how many times I've had to hunt for a new new t and pdoc... really might be helpful to have some stability there, but I guess I should be glad I managed to get anything.

I'm overwhelmed and under-supported. Phone calls and red tape and still no results. I don't even understand what half of it, but yeah, I'll call that office and leave them a message that won't be returned for a few days, if at all.

I'm cold, but that's the weather. Emotionally I'm either doing okay or I went numb, not quite sure how to tell the difference.

I'm physically sick from stress. A busy day of leaving voicemails that won't be returned, I'll call them all twice tomorrow.

I'm scared and confused- my T and p-doc are having issues with my insurance and someone is going to fix this because I'll pester them until they do. It should already say something on my file about that.

It's like I used up all my feelings for the day earlier. I thought I might've been angry but knew it was about something that is not here nor now and then confusion and scared and more confused and I'm done having feelings for now. That was too many, I need a break from all this.

I'm surprised, my MD had to do some scary things to my toe yesterday and I'd planned on being useless and in miserable pain. Nope, feeling great. Yay!

Well, I'm trying to focus on that I got my flu shot and that's good, not that I have to go back tomorrow because there wasn't time in the schedule for the doctor to do some surgery type things on my toenail. Mom will drive for that, dad said it hurts enough to distract from driving but we all...

I think I'm doing pretty good. My mother won't nag me for at least a week or so because we went shopping. I'm really glad the low blood sugar didn't get too bad until we'd gotten back, it was worse than I'd thought. Physically I'm done, it's exhausting to keep that deathgrip on my outward...

Skittish, heard from someone I'd prefer not to talk to about things I'd rather not discuss. My reaction? Text somebody else and get stoned. I'm impaired and having tea, going to color for a bit and heat up #1 comfort food supper leftovers, meatloaf with mac and cheese.

I'm hoping that Sunday supper with my parents doesn't include more reminders from mom that I'll get weird if I don't go out and get around people more. I tried, I really tried and I tried hard several times to go out and be social. None of those ideas worked so I'll see what else I can try.

Fairly tired, I've worn myself out by going to the pharmacy and waiting for my order of half a dozen medications. It really bothers me how much effort that took. Maybe stewing on that will distract me from the pains. I made the carpal tunnel flare up by crocheting too much while I had my feet...

Something going on is making me stop myself from crying. I get close to shedding a tear and I can't. It's very negative inside my head today.

Dating is a complicated and confusing process, PTSD or not. I'm afraid I still give off an 'injured bird' smell and the potential suitors may be predatory in nature. It'll be worth waiting until I'm doing better with the symptoms, in the meantime I'd do better to meet friends. Maybe sometimes...

I wish I knew what to post. My mind and mood are fairly good today. I'm not sure why my body has gone into high alert panic mode, confused and frightened by that.

I'm getting frustrated and embarrassed at how long I've been feeling ill over some emotion I can't identify.

More physical discomforts and symptoms that I'm sure are emotions coming down the wrong pipe. It's easing up but I still don't know what or why. Was it fear? Maybe I'm just picking out that I was afraid to feel whatever came out as feeling ill. Confused again, and tired.

I'm nervous about not understanding what is so uncomfortable. I can't place it, there's just something vaguely bothering me.

T-time isn't for another few hours yet and I'm pretty sure I can feel something bubbling up to the surface. Thus far it's stirred up a bunch of physical issues and discomforts that I know are really emotions being misdirected. It's really uncomfortable.