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    A Toxic Friendship

    Greetings, Reflecting TA's impressions, for long I found it soothing to allow a succession of dominant others to effectively take command; i.e. to dictate what would be done, what was of interest, etc. Personal assertion seemed altogether too difficult for me, and given I didn't strictly...
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    Sufferer Got The Official Diagnosis Back In February And The Emotional Fallout Is A Little Overwhelming.

    Welcome to the community, If it's something to hold out for, to hope for, the investment you make in the therapy relationship and initial steps of introducing yourself here constitute promise that the family-wide dysfunction won't strictly be your pattern into the future. It might stop in a...
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    Sufferer Introduced In Glance Of Retrospect (warning; May Be Disturbing Via Flashback Content)

    Thanks for letting us in, thank you for sharing, If it tells you anything, something that I haven't shared before for all my wordy rambling is how white hot reactive I am to anything I can construe (or misconstrue - do know) as teasing. I'm not sure if this will strictly make sense, but across...
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    What Feels Like A Therapy Blow Out - Guilt, Consternation, Fatigue.

    Greetings, Closing out this thread - as would seem best. The other party is advised to go to the park, pull legs off of spiders, employ a magnifying glass to torch ant hills, or spear frogs - just like old times. You are owed nothing. Slipshod encounter therapy isn't what anyone needs -...
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    Supporter Partner With Ptsd From Severe Bullying

    Welcome, If you've not already reviewed such material, I've found nonfiction works that speak of the dynamic of adolescent/teen girl bullying especially helpful given that aggression directed towards boys and men is never exclusively physical. Terms tossed up include 'alternative aggression'...
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    What Feels Like A Therapy Blow Out - Guilt, Consternation, Fatigue.

    Greetings, Just as an aside, there was a time when I was so desperate for interpersonal contact with anyone that I was dispositionally unable to discern when I was being subject to malicious manipulation. I strictly discounted evidence visible all around me for I so needed some trace...
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    What Feels Like A Therapy Blow Out - Guilt, Consternation, Fatigue.

    Greetings, Further work then, and some good titles turned up. Sometimes I'll chance across what might be termed atypical nonfiction titles and topics that have application even if they don't formally fall under the category of formal trauma literature. I suppose the latest discovery are those...
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    Worst Interview Ever!!!!

    Dear aka, If it helps, going online and typing in http://www.glassdoor.com or a service like it can (sometimes) afford insight into a work culture, what the expectations are, employee turnover issues, etc. Factor in that some reviews are planted, whereas others may wax negative just out of...
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    What Feels Like A Therapy Blow Out - Guilt, Consternation, Fatigue.

    Hmmmm - I like that much better! I've never really had occassion to consider the utility of the 'IGNORE' function - and it works splendidly I tell you! The posts of those who would parody us VANISH! Wow - I just thought employing such would deactivate the alert flags, but no - I can't even...
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    Job Searching Is Getting Depressing!

    Greetings, I just received a rejection letter from a nearby library for a part-time position, about 25 hours., no benefits, etc. I would suspect that no less than eighty applications were received in total given trends, whereas the deadline for application was this past Friday @ 5:00 pm. The...
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    What Feels Like A Therapy Blow Out - Guilt, Consternation, Fatigue.

    Part II then... Thanks for indulging me for your reading such, My mother, deeply conscious of something seemingly amiss if for no other reason that my father was deceased and largely absent from the scene long before his death, tried to involve me in presumably masculine sporting activities...
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    What Feels Like A Therapy Blow Out - Guilt, Consternation, Fatigue.

    Quoting from Abstract then...: There is a big difference between lack of experience/practice, fear of emotions and relationships and resultant over reliance on fact and the written word, and not having the capacity to read emotional and interpersonal cues. For as long as I can remember I...
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    What Feels Like A Therapy Blow Out - Guilt, Consternation, Fatigue.

    ...a short Part IV then, Yes - pressed against the limits of CBT if a CBT viewpoint isn't strictly rooted in some percentage of analogous literature and study even as my experience of C-PTSD clearly provides the 'battery power' for atypical perceptions. Those who study what I study are heavily...
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    What Feels Like A Therapy Blow Out - Guilt, Consternation, Fatigue.

    Part III then..., ...following upon that last paragraph, it's a very difficult business to live inside of the space of another's projection - especially if that projection is colored by trauma. I knew what was happening and yet I didn't effectively see to my safety, or in full truth - hers...
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    What Feels Like A Therapy Blow Out - Guilt, Consternation, Fatigue.

    Part II then..., Not quite an aside, but there have been times when I almost wish that I could have been comfortable for embracing a homosexual identity given for circumstance all paths led there. Although the 1980's in the industrial Midwest hardly constituted a progressive environment to...
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    What Feels Like A Therapy Blow Out - Guilt, Consternation, Fatigue.

    Hi everyone, Thanks - I really didn't expect this thread to come alive again. I think I flirted with the idea of AS based upon a desire for community, a desire not to be left alone with an eclectic and not easily explained personal history. As an imaginative exercise I must say it was nice to...
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    Self Help

    Part II then... Keeping notes then after a PTSD trigger episode - hmm! Though just a composite sketch of the same, one for myself might read as follows and perhaps after three solid days of intolerable misery: M. - Why so impaired? Why so profoundly shaken in recent days? - email desired...
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    Self Help

    Greetings, One has to be the author of their own accommodation/partial recovery if some movement is going to be realized - especially alone. As might be guessed from my user name/avatar, I too counsel 'read, read, read', whereas I'd recommend mixing matters up with the collection of academic...
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    How To Help The Man I Love Accept Love And Love Himself?

    Inconsequential Part II then..., Usually I try to edit what errors invariably creep in across my copy, whereas if the post is too long, the editing function becomes rather unstable. In light of this, I ask that the scattering of mistakes seen above be worked through in the knowledge that I...
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    How To Help The Man I Love Accept Love And Love Himself?

    Hello, I'll try to turn myself inside out in relation to your question consistent with affording help - if I can. More than a few relationship flame outs suffered, and even accounting for the vagarities of people being different and relating to each other effectively in some ways and less so...
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    Does Reading Fiction Help You Ptsd? My Experience And Wanting To Know More.

    Greetings, Perhaps I'm intruding on this thread for I haven't so many fiction titles to contribute, whereas I'm not quite sure the impact (for good or ill) some have had upon me given that I don't believe I'm doing so very well. Isolating childhood, friends scant or friendships exceedingly...
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    Reinventing Myself

    I'm so sorry, I was a librarian, someone thought to be mild-mannered and protected within a safe and low-risk position; i.e. the last 'good' government job and imagined a sinecure of sorts. Two positions held, and rather bad things happened, whereas to discuss in full is to frighten people...
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    Am I Correct In Thinking This Way?

    Greetings, This will be an odd answer for I fundamentally share the foundational reservations clearly articulated above who have travelled the same road as myself. If I hadn't registered the experience of actually taking (or trying to contain within my body) contemporary psych. medications...
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    What Feels Like A Therapy Blow Out - Guilt, Consternation, Fatigue.

    Hello, About eighty pages into the Attwood title (yes - double 't's), whereas I believe zaniara is very likely correct. Undiagnosed Asperger's Syndrome across my youth, combined later with some conception of socialization/justification of felt difference for reading sociological works that...
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    What Feels Like A Therapy Blow Out - Guilt, Consternation, Fatigue.

    Thank you each for the kind and invested feedback, I've gathered a copy of Tony Attwood's The Complete Guide to Asperger's Syndrome from 2008 which seems the trusted introductory treatment at present. The John Elder Robison titles might be sampled down the line, but seem more celebratory...
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