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Have you ever felt death Trickling down the inside of your leg As a hand placed so fervently in your groin Flashback Where did my legs go? Spiritual paralysis. I am paralyzed A purgatory between the breathing and the dead I can move from one side to another But in water my...

I have heard of the notion of false memories. Are false memories real? I always thought I might have been sexually abused as a child after I developed PTSD for two sexual assaults that happened at ages 18 and 19. When I developed PTSD, I started doing EMDR. One day during a flashback, I got an...

I have been having PTSD symptoms ever since my sexual assault when I was in College. However, I have been in ample amounts of therapy and the PTSD hasn't gotten better. In fact, the more therapy I go to the worse the PTSD gets. My dad was an alcoholic and at times physically abusive. I have...

I keep having dreams of the guys who attacked me in high school. I have dreams where I am telling them what they did to me and they don't believe me. I have dreams where they're tormenting me and bullying me. And I have dreams where I am drunk, helplesss and sick. They always wanted to see...

Hello everyone, I am thinking about quitting my current job and taking a remote work from home job that might be a little more slower paced. One of the reasons is I just got diagnosed with PTSD this year, although, I've had it for a while. However, whenever I was healing before I had a lot...

I've recently come to terms with the fact I am abusive. More abusive than I want to be... I don't stalk, control or manipulate my boyfriend. However, if he says something that hurts me... I hurt him 5X more. It is terrible, and I can't tell if it is because I am so afraid of being controlled...

So, I've recently just uncovered a new trauma memory about Sexual Assault I had in high school. This is before my college rape, and I had suppressed it for quite sometime. However, now that it is coming up again. I am going through the same reactions that I did when I found out about the rape. I...

What does self-blame look like? And how do I stop internalizing the blame for my sexual assault? I know intellectually it wasn't my fault, however, some days I feel so much shame. And that just makes me feel angry and I have a lot of misplaced anger towards the world. It all makes me feel so...

My boyfriend comes back from vacation today, and I was feeling so amazing about seeing him. I had such a blast while he was gone and experienced no intense PTSD related symptoms. And then all last night, I had the worst nightmares. This morning I woke up crying, and I feel really sick. Although...

Hello everyone. I just started using Pristiq to help with my PTSD symptoms. However, I am very nervous because of the irregularities and side-effects. The first couple of weeks I took Pristiq, I felt amazing and thought this was the drug for me. However, the other day I had a really bad...

What Happened? I can’t express enough what it feels like to be raped. And the act of violence isn’t based on a sliding scale of which ‘sin’ is greater than the other. No, in the realm of sexual assault every sin is the same. Accepting my rape is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to go through...