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on the other hand. i am doing very well and am capable of joy

It is almost tempting to go to the hospital, again, just to get a case manager to help me manage some sort of living situation. But it just feels hopeless. Well, more like it doesn't matter what I do right now because the majority of people my age in this area are homeless and most humans are...

I am finding that im having to discount how many stressors I am experiencing in a week, or even in just a day, because if I don't I risk becoming too overwhelmed. it is a wonder that I am functioning under these stresses. I wish I could move. It is too stressful to even tell this diary what...

There's nothing more amazing than the blessing of knowing a doggy so well, especially when they do so much for us ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ Lots of love to you and yours, sorry you're going through this too :( ❤️

My little brother continues to be.... weird? about our mom. he felt like i was trying to kick our mother out of the house. i feel he may be coming at this from a perspective of... like, i went through entire journeys, basically, in this diary (and elsewhere) about how to fix the house for my...

Lack of justice can be part of the trauma, or at least I feel it is for me. And at the same time I’m open to having my mind changed. I wish for justice to have happened. Though, I often avoid getting it in order to save myself some peace of mind. I think in your case, it’s equally complex...

One of my therapists called it weaponized boundaries. Thought the idea was interesting at least Humans are interesting

Like, when you get to the point that it’s actual feces in your room and you’re just like. Well yeah I can live by myself. :/ And if you don’t agree to live with me and take care of me while I refuse to work with you in any way, then claim you’ll “make” my little brother stay here in this...

People be delusional lol Edit to add: talking about my mother. No offense to her. But she is delusional about her living situation and it’s killing me

Gonna buy myself my own pizza oven :P I was able to shower and that also helped. It had been two days, which made my skin too uncomfortable. I have been listening to Wendigoon discuss Dante's Paradiso and Purgatorio. It is shockingly relaxing.

came back to say i made another character. am pretty tired -- might eat. looking forward to a cardiology appointment tomorrow and maybe a little party with friends. (non-alcoholic as always, lots of respect for those trying to stay sober.) i feel i've helped a lot of people today, and that...

Just an fyi, I dont think weemie is from the states. try to have an open mind and listen to minorities, but better yet, try not to let your own anger and protectiveness upset you too much to see what others are saying to you. it's your diary, yeah, but when almost everyone is trying to say the...

Can't wait for project 2025 to ruin my life again lol no changes today though. just continuing with the same old routine. I don't want to think about the positives today. I just want to not exist. As usual. Again, no change. watching more fun videos of asteroids destroying the earth. still...

Thank you :) I got some sleep and feel more normal again. Gonna just go back to my plans to move away. Hopefully. It's not been going well but yknow.

🤔🤔🤔 Well, I can't read his mind. Last time he came over and threatened was a couple months ago minimum tho 🤔 and police got involved, so now he just glares at me and walks by my house once a day staring into it. so hopefully that means he's afraid of what police will do and is making a show of...

Thank you for that <3

I live next to a neo nazi who genuinely wants me dead, yall got tips to be normal about it? hahahahahaha I f*cking hate it here <3

O heck, just remembered that last time trump was president, the trumpers made a wiki full of names of anyone they decided were enemies and my name was in it, and it's still up hahahahahaha f*ck

One more unrelated thing. Imagine being from another country that lost it's "free world" record and was pushed down to a "freedom level" number lower than Egypt or Iran. Because the politicians are literally criminals. Like, there is footage from World Renowned journalists who LIVE in...

I am also grocery shopping and just wanna say. when did all the frozen pizzas start looking so gross??? did i age or what

If I'm quiet for a while, it's because I'm quietly stalking some other ptsd group on discord. just for the record

Oh, shoot. Forgot about inflation

Not thrilled about the election results. But I made a new guy :) Anyway. Excited for my literal neo nazi neighbors to threaten my life in broad daylight while the rest of the neighborhood watches again lmaooooo Jk, and I might go to the china buffet tomorrow for a little fun with my...

Okay, good point 🤔 😂

Tonight was simple. Coconut milk in granola. The granola was store bought, but is just a mix of honey, oats, and sliced almonds. Sometimes it just hits the spot. Also good in almost any kind of yogurt, including plain.