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  1. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    Sorry for the rant. I'm back on all my regular meds and need to get that out so I can use up more energy on the rest. Do you know anyone who's doing well this decade? Anyone at all? If you could tell me about them like a little rumor that would be great. Anyone been able to afford a house...
  2. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    I want this house empty, but I'm worried it won't be until I'm leaving it for good. I don't know how to feel about this. This is a house my mom remodeled to perfection in the 80s, and continued to work on until my dad f*cked it all up. The last time my mom cleaned the windows was the day after...
  3. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    I remember when I never stopped pushing. Excited for a day trip that's coming up :)
  4. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    Went to my best friend's house to hang out and talk about nature in different states and countries and am doing better 👍🏻
  5. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    I'm fine again Edit to add: autism
  6. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    Sorry -- I can't seem to get myself to talk unless it's to a void where no one has to respond to me, but writing in my own notes where it feels like I'm still keeping it to myself is somehow worse. No need to engage with that, I'll be fine
  7. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    It would help a lot if people would leave me alone. My mother keeps talking to me all day every day including when I'm not out of my room or bed yet. This happens every time I live here. I always go insane trying to think of ways to leave and literally never get far. How am I supposed to wait...
  8. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    I wish I hadn't missed that concert but at least my animals are all individually the best and sweetest guys
  9. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    I would get in my car and drive forever if I didn't need to make sure there was a destination
  10. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    If nobody cared, I'd still survive. If I didn't want to, I'd still survive. I just needed a minute. This has been a very hard year. Years. Decade(s). We aren't born to live in luxury and when we do, it takes a toll on us too. This house is trying desperately to let go of me and my family. This...
  11. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    Perfect temp outside :D
  12. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    Gonna hang out with a friend tomorrow
  13. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    I did not make it to the concert :(
  14. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    Being near/in the presence of someone who genuinely cares is calming and comforting. He's home now and I had a crying spell like immediately, so guess stress cup is overflowing. I feel pathetic, and it makes me angry both that I feel that way and that I am not meeting my own standards. Deep...
  15. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    I brought my best friend over and he took out trash for me. Just gotta finish washing my sheets and comforter. (Kitty puked on it.) Counts as therapy in my book lol Hopefully going to a concert (free) my brother plays in tomorrow. I hope I can move back to Sewanee some time
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