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Yes Gadgie, I was a wreck the first two times I met her. This new person, this stranger who I would be expected to bear my soul to. It is my first psychotherapy, I had some assistance from a support work with another charity before this but this is certainly different. The support worker tread...

My T talked about me getting more help in my last session, she said that she thought 1 session a week was not enough and mentioned a company that offers sessions from trainees at a reduced rate. As my sessions are from a SA charity they are free but we are almost 1/2 way through- it will be my...

I think you are completely right Void, going to discuss my tablet situation with my T, I don't take my anti-depressants anymore. Went cold turkey in July & managed to get off them but with everything going on I'm not sure what to do. Need to be stable enough to be good in my new job. I came of...

Wow, today was a bust! Felt tired & headache all day then call from my Dad about all the crap the plumber has been doing wrecking my house made me tearful & I sat back at my desk thinking "shut it down keep control"- Everyone looked at me & said what's happened now? And I flipped in the office...

I got the job! Sat at my desk before interview my boss arrived & burst out crying. Boss took my for a coffee & calmed me down before interview then after a somewhat panicked & shakey start before I knew it, it was done. Kicking myself right now though because there should be this... Ellation...

last week was a bad week to start unloading, so much going wrong with my house, plus job interview coming Wednesday I don't have time to prep for. I have lost all confidence in my ability to get the job, plus I really need it for money, as it's a job on promotion in my team it's the only shot I...

Appointment was very emotional I started to remember other memories that I have kept away from so I didn't retain any composure. I cried pretty much the whole 50 mins. It was so hard to get the words out, not because I couldn't arrange my thoughts (my usual reaction) but as soon as I knew what I...

Thank you both, I needed that. 30 mins early to my appointment so sat in the car watching the clock.

I told my therapist I would do a timeline to briefly explain the events of the last 7 years but also to try & organise in my head when things happened. It can feel like such a blur sometimes. Well it took me all day Sunday after spending Friday pm to Saturday in bed with a migraine-it's the...

So we tried a different approach tonight, she got me to sit back in the chair which instantly stressed me out because I always sit upright with my cardigan around me, legs together & arms across my stomach. So I immediately felt exposed to which I wrapped my arms around my stomach & tensed right...

So I have been trying out mindfulness, hmm I'm not convinced. I know of course that these things take practice, but emptying my mind? Hah!! I did however find some useful podcasts where a calm voice gives affirmations and said relaxing things, that suited me better because the long silences in...

Thank you guys, therapy was difficult today, had a bad day at work after time off to move house. My computer which is situated in a corner where nobody can walk up behind me or hang around by me was broken. It did that before I went on leave & for 2 days I was a nervous & very unhappy wreck...

I am saddened by your experience, the U.K. justice system is indeed shockingly poor on these types of crime. I have absolutely no confidence in the process and think it is disgusting that the defence is allowed to intimidate you in such an abhorrent manner. I have never reported what happened...

Thank you justmehere

Couldn't write about this earlier because I couldn't get my head around it. Been a long time since I have disociated from shock but this morning I drove over to my new house, it was still dark out, I had shut & locked every door before I left the night before. Went through lounge & opened...

rachelluvsdemi, yes she specialises in r***/SA trauma. She is very different to how anyone else I have seen for various things in my life reacts to what I say. She will clarify the way I'm feeling negatively with a question & when I respond she wil say "oh [my name] I'm so sorry you are feeling...

Anarchy, thanks for that, it makes sense, on the one hand it was like I opened my mouth to speak and my brain just decided it was a bad idea. But I look at it now and think perhaps it was good that this happened because even when I gave a transcript to my old support worker it wasn't a relief...

I had a Nephew born last week, the day before I got the house and I haven't met him yet. I have been busy with the house but at the end of the day I could make time & I haven't tried that hard to go and see him. I couldn't even bring that up at the session because I feel ashamed. The thought of...

Suzetig what I want from this is to not be always thinking about what might happen next. Not jumping at the slightest sounds, not feeling crippled when someone is standing too close in the checkout queue, not living two lives. One life faking the happiness (only two friends know) in front of...

I don't think I'm giving my T enough credit, she is very patient and it's through a charity that I am getting help. NHS could not provide specific help only CBT & a few counselling sessions which I didn't see the point in. I had some sessions with one charity which a support worker, we mostly...

I had my fourth session with a psychotherapist yesterday and I just shut down. The first few have been kind of getting to know each other but yesterday she was more probing, encouraging me to 'open the box' I have kept locked tightly shut. I am not the kind of person who talks about intimate...

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Thanks for the response Laurie. Theotherside- it seems like there's not many people in our situation judging by the number of replies :(

So a quick explanation, I have Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome which I was diagnosed with after I was raped. I started bleeding every day and was so uncomfortable with anyone touching me I waited around 9 months wearing a sanitary towel every day to see a doctor. When I saw the doc I had an...

I am due to start therapy with a Trauma Therapist in the new year and she has told me that doing EMDR would be a good option for me. Anyone done this who can tell me what happens in the sessions & what you experience? It took me 10 sessions to start to trust my support worker and we only have 1...