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My heart was recently shattered with the news my son (also has ptsd, and is a bipolar alcoholic) was arrested last Friday for attempted murder and kidnapping of his sister but charges were reduced to harassment -simple assault unlawful restraint. Now, I know it sounds horrific but it is better...

Sometimes even the little messages we intuitively pick up can change the course of the day. My cousin was hundreds of miles away ... when she 'knew' something bad just happened to me (my husband shot and killed in front of me) ... I think it especially works with the people we love and care...

Very upset this morning - had a nightmare last night - woke up - felt shaky - decided to take a shower the phone rang and I wouldn't answer it - didn't want to - end result - reluctant but answered the call when it rang the next time - my daughter tells me my son was arrested for attempted...

Watch out for that last step - it's a doozie!

Today, I am broken.

It's two days since the blow-out, which got worse. Besides everything else that happened (nearly daily) in the last week, when my partner asked me for the computer - I had the need to be selfish and said no. I needed to talk because I was upset with him, too because the dogs (6) have taken...

Thank you all for understanding the grief it's causing me. I have been an open-minded woman despite what others believe, especially my children !?! I don't recall teaching them to be narrow-minded ... it goes beyond my personal beliefs we live in a realm of possibilities, to make things better...

My dad use that phrase (half-breed and mutts) anytime he heard people claim blue-blood origin. It was his way to say we all bleed the same. And, you gave a great answer AngelaMarie. I am breathing easier today ... it sure has been a rough week, but a new one awaits, eh?

Now I really feel like puking from anger. My daughter is hurting my granddaughter's feelings beyond reason. I care for the 18 year old child cause her mother has never been a mother to her. 2,000 miles away and she is causing major trouble. This child is going to prom with a friend who happens...

Yup Anni, dishes done and just hung the laundry outside, listening to you tube and it's 4.26 a.m. thank you all for the support ... I think it will be a long weekend, too ... tomorrow is another issue... a baby shower where I'm not welcomed but only by my son - and I must go not to let him...

Trying to hang in just got off the phone with my daughter - Point of tears ... I'm hurt - no relief in sight - if I fall any further into debt because my granddaughter's parents refuse to help financially ... My God, I will be on the streets ... I understand drowning from pure exhaustion.I...

Anni, arrgghhh! Exactly how I feel - and why? Everything I need to express won't come out of my head. So many wrongs. My problem is communicating what I'm thinking without sounding selfish. E.g., Three grown adults - in a month's time, only twice - someone else washed dishes. I'm gone the...

Livid, livid livid! It has been a hellish, costly flipping week - emotionally, financially and, the internal boiling pot continues it rolling boil while I struggle to use 'tools' to calm my anger - guess what? I did not want to be calm! Being calm - has not proven effective. Asking nicely...

Don't fret, when I plan to go somewhere... I think of a parking space close to the entrance and, I always have a space near the front door.

I agree, the option to opt out when a likelihood is present. My deal was the car never had this problem before and I wished that I had followed my intuition to put gas in the vehicle though it 'appeared' to be more gas than there was.

Personally, I believe we all the ability if we just tap into it but, most people are stuck in the physical realm of our world and when trauma occurs it opens that portal to the unknown region of the mind allowing us to have a 'view' of what is to come before us - a way to be prepared for the...

Perfect sense AngelMaria, not all gut reactions are cognitive but based on experience and that is a good weapon for you to have. And, yes Albatross- when a feeling or an image isn't clear, my anxiety increases because I think maybe it's (event) so bad I can't see it just yet which, I know is...

Sorry muse so long to answer but I watched 'death to smoochy' and okradlak... I freak when there is a knife fight.

Jenkins, he's a jerk for playing head games with you. F him! Cry it out and let him go!

Hey, the way I see it Brat, either I treat myself to a meal or a movie and really be by myself - or spend my fun money listening to bells go off and the chatter of voices And lots of lights with colors - like a party!

Dance, write, sing, and draw

Brat, I know what you mean - I do the same - sometimes I want to be near people but not talk so I take $20-40 to the casino and smoke my cigs, watching people and pulling the one arm bandit. At least I'm in public.

Cherryblossom, you describe it quite well and sometimes it's just having the company around without the need for conversation that provides a safe space in your time. Unless, the people around you have also been traumatized - it would be difficult for them to comprehend - even more difficult...

Yes jenkins123, it's what I do when I wake up in tears for no 'apparent' reason - I need to protect them from my anger or my words will crush them. I feel a need to be isolated from others when I have days like this because not everyone is privy to my most intimate and traumatic secrets ...

Hey tas, just keep calling her like you usually do and don't let any dead space some between keep it short - just say hi, just thought to call to see if she needed anything - when she answers just say soothing like, well okay babe if you need anything call, but got to get back to work. keep it...